# Jerry Banfield

> Jerry Banfield's personal website: 945+ articles in his own raw, first-person voice on the Internet Computer (ICP) and crypto, YouTube growth and content creation, dating, gaming, sobriety and recovery, and a daily autobiography.

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## Key pages
- [Home](https://jerrybanfield.com/): Jerry Banfield's homepage.
- [Blog](https://jerrybanfield.com/blog): Every article, newest first.
- [Join Jerry Banfield Family](https://www.skool.com/jerrybanfield): Jerry Banfield's high-touch coaching membership on Skool — a private 25-minute one-on-one call with Jerry every week, plus direct messages, Jerry AI, courses, and video requests for help with AI, YouTube, ICP, websites, books, business, communication, health habits, and creating a life you love.

## Life, Sobriety & Daily Autobiography
- [Advice You Need to Hear if You Want Financial Freedom](https://jerrybanfield.com/advice-you-need-to-hear-if-you-want): Jerry Banfield shares why financial freedom starts with feeling wealthy now: saying no to work you hate, leveraging debt, and living with an enough mindset.
- [Stop Saying Your Body Is Falling Apart](https://jerrybanfield.com/stop-body-falling-apart): At 42 my body works better than ever — how I quit the nocebo effect of negative self-talk and what changing my diet, drinking, and exercise did for me.
- [Never Say You're Busy Again](https://jerrybanfield.com/never-say-youre-busy-again): Why I never say I'm busy: honest language, control of your time, and always asking if there's anything better you could be doing right now.
- [AI User-Generated Games Are a Wide-Open Opportunity Right Now](https://jerrybanfield.com/ai-user-generated-games-opportunity): How I built a Call of Duty Zombies-style browser game with one AI prompt, hosted it on ICP, and why AI user-generated gaming is a huge opportunity.
- [I Told You the Carnivore Diet Was Trash](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-told-you-the-carnivore-diet-was-trash): Jerry Banfield shares why he believes the carnivore diet fails on health, research, and the environment, and why whole plant based eating changed his life.
- [I'm a 42-Year-Old Single Dad With a -$200K Net Worth](https://jerrybanfield.com/im-a-42-year-old-single-dad-with-a-200k): Why I feel rich as a 42-year-old single dad with a negative $200K net worth, and the many forms of wealth beyond money.
- [What If the Soul Is the Trap](https://jerrybanfield.com/what-if-the-soul-is-the-trap): I explore whether the soul, belief systems, and the afterlife are all traps, and why I think our deepest fear isn't death but infinity itself.
- [Beyond ICP: My AI Workflow, Dating Life, and a New Local Business](https://jerrybanfield.com/beyond-icp-ai-dating-local-business): How I use Claude, Gemini, and ChatGPT, why I only go live, my dating life in full, and a new local business plan using Claude Code, ICP, and Google Ads.
- [ChatGPT for President](https://jerrybanfield.com/chatgpt-for-president): What if AI doesn't conquer us by force, but we hand it the presidency willingly? A speculative essay on the golden age, tech slavery, and the choice.
- [You're Richer Than You Think](https://jerrybanfield.com/youre-richer-than-you-think): At a negative $200K net worth I feel like a billionaire. A Father's Day inventory of the real wealth most of us never count: time, health, kids, and freedom.
- [I Did the Work: Divorce, Love, and My Legacy](https://jerrybanfield.com/did-the-work-divorce-legacy): Now divorced and sober, I reflect on choosing love over fear and why I write my life down every day.
- [The Day I Heard I Was Finally Ready](https://jerrybanfield.com/now-youre-ready-to-see-me): After a brutal road-trip fight with my wife, I heard a voice say I was ready, and the next morning everything changed.
- [Deleting Everything to Finally Face My Marriage](https://jerrybanfield.com/deleting-everything-to-face-my-marriage): Burned out and paranoid, I relapsed into gaming like a drug, then deleted everything to stop hiding from my marriage.
- [Knowing I Needed a Divorce but Afraid to Leave](https://jerrybanfield.com/knowing-i-needed-divorce-afraid-leave): I knew I needed a divorce but couldn't leave, so I repaired family ties and made one more real attempt to save my marriage.
- [I Deleted Facebook, Made Music, and Saw the End](https://jerrybanfield.com/deleted-facebook-made-music-saw-end): I quit gaming for music, deleted my Facebook page, and finally admitted I needed a divorce.
- [Yoga, Family Trips, and Bringing My Mom Closer](https://jerrybanfield.com/yoga-family-trips-mom-moves-closer): I leaned on yoga to survive the mood swings, took family trips, and finally convinced my mom to move next door.
- [Demonetized but Still Standing By My Message](https://jerrybanfield.com/demonetized-standing-by-my-message): Losing Facebook monetization showed me how addicted people were to one app, and the desperation pulled me back toward crypto.
- [I Changed My Race and the Internet Exploded](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-changed-my-race-internet-exploded): I announced I was changing my race on a live stream, went viral, got canceled, and tried to share a message about oneness.
- [Feeling Like a Vampire: Doubt and the Exit](https://jerrybanfield.com/vampire-conspiracies-doubt-and-exit): Untouchable online yet sick of it, I dove into conspiracies, questioned my purpose, and felt like a vampire feeding on viewers.
- [Winning Online While My Marriage Unraveled](https://jerrybanfield.com/winning-online-marriage-unraveling): Outside I was a top streamer crushing retro games; inside a crush and a fading marriage left me unraveling.
- [I Sold My Studio and Defied the 2020 Lockdowns](https://jerrybanfield.com/selling-my-studio-and-defying-2020): In 2020 I dumped my whole streaming studio, refused to comply with lockdowns, and a disaster loan finally bailed me out.
- [Rock Bottom: Bankruptcy and a Spiritual Wake-Up](https://jerrybanfield.com/rock-bottom-bankruptcy-and-aa): I learned doing nothing would've beaten my hustle, found bankruptcy was a dead end, and started healing through affirmations.
- [How I Buried My Family in $600K of Debt](https://jerrybanfield.com/buried-in-600k-of-debt): I quit gaming again, watched my venture fail, and finally confessed our $600K debt to my wife.
- [How I Finally Came to Forgive My Father](https://jerrybanfield.com/coming-to-forgive-my-father): Telling my half-sister about our dad unlocked a vision of his life that finally let me understand, and forgive, him.
- [Famous, Miserable, and Finally Saying What I Wanted](https://jerrybanfield.com/famous-miserable-saying-what-i-want): Being recognized everywhere made me feel sick, until one unfiltered comedy video became my breaking point with crypto.
- [Crypto Riches and Speaking My Son Into Existence](https://jerrybanfield.com/crypto-riches-son-into-existence): I made my first songs, turned crypto into six figures, and the night we named our future baby, I swear we spoke him into being.
- [How One Meal Showed Me Food Controls My Mind](https://jerrybanfield.com/food-rewired-my-mind): After one heavy airport meal my mood crashed and I realized the food I eat shapes my thoughts, so I went fully plant-based.
- [The Year Udemy Banned Me and Set Me Free](https://jerrybanfield.com/udemy-banned-me-set-me-free): I hit a million in sales, then Udemy banned me overnight, and losing my empire freed me to reinvent everything.
- [Fatherhood, Boundaries, and the Next Step](https://jerrybanfield.com/fatherhood-boundaries-next-step): My daughter was born, my mom spun out, and I learned to set hard boundaries while chasing the next level of health.
- [Facing Death and Going All In on Life](https://jerrybanfield.com/facing-death-going-all): A meditation on death shattered my deepest fear, and I poured all my freed-up energy into building my business sober.
- [Staying Sober at the Bachelor Party](https://jerrybanfield.com/staying-sober-at-the-bachelor-party): I went to a bachelor party sober and learned I could skip the misery while still enjoying the people I love.
- [Working the Steps and Telling the Truth](https://jerrybanfield.com/working-the-steps-telling-truth): I got a sponsor, worked the steps, and confessed my darkest secrets, including childhood trauma I'd buried for decades.
- [How a Massage Saved My Sobriety](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-a-massage-saved-my-sobriety): After praying to my late dad to drive me past the liquor store, a simple massage finally quieted my obsession to drink.
- [The Three Thoughts That Kept Me From Drinking](https://jerrybanfield.com/three-thoughts-that-kept-me-sober): Standing in my kitchen with a bottle of vodka, three brutal truths stopped me from throwing my sobriety away.
- [The Morning I Begged God to Get Me Sober](https://jerrybanfield.com/begged-god-to-get-sober): I woke up sick, broke, and hopeless, prayed to a God I didn't believe in, and walked into my first AA meeting.
- [My Last Vegas High and the Final Night I Drank](https://jerrybanfield.com/last-vegas-high-final-night): I won thousands at the craps table, lost myself completely, and a week later poured out the last drink I'd ever take.
- [The Bloodline of Addiction and My Breaking Point](https://jerrybanfield.com/bloodline-of-addiction): I screamed at three generations of alcoholic men on my wall, spiraled through panic attacks, and blew $1,000 in Vegas.
- [Losing My Dad While I Kept Numbing Myself](https://jerrybanfield.com/losing-my-dad-while-numbing-out): While a bogus diet and constant hangovers ran my days, my dad was dying of cancer and books became my only lifeline.
- [Getting Married and Humbled on the Honeymoon](https://jerrybanfield.com/wedding-honeymoon-wake-up-call): I drank on my wedding morning, got humbled snowboarding on our honeymoon, and stumbled into my first real business.
- [I Got Sober but Kept Inventing New Rules to Drink](https://jerrybanfield.com/new-rules-to-keep-drinking): Even sober I rationalized everything, from long drives just to drink to the day my dad's heart attack collided with our ugliest fight.
- [The Road Trip That Led Me to My Wife](https://jerrybanfield.com/road-trip-that-led-me-to-my-wife): I worked the Census, took a 2,000-mile road trip, moved to Tampa for grad school, and met the woman I would marry.
- [The Spiral, the Resignation, and Going Home](https://jerrybanfield.com/spiral-resignation-and-going-home): My drinking forced me to resign as a cop, so I moved home, chased a PhD, and lost myself in video games and Vegas.
- [Sober, a Badge, and Still Empty Inside](https://jerrybanfield.com/sober-a-badge-and-still-empty): I got sober, earned a badge as a police officer, and learned that getting everything I wanted still left me hollow.
- [When Coping Became the Way I Lived](https://jerrybanfield.com/coping-became-the-way-i-lived): I let drinking, gambling, and gaming take over, then took a brutal job as a juvenile corrections officer.
- [The Wreck That Still Couldn't Make Me Stop](https://jerrybanfield.com/wreck-couldnt-make-me-stop): I wrecked my car drunk, sat through my first AA meeting, and still graduated with my life completely in ruins.
- [How Chasing Every High Caught Up With Me](https://jerrybanfield.com/chasing-every-high-caught-up): An $800 poker win made me feel invincible, but chasing every high through liquor, gambling, and reckless choices caught up with me.
- [The Friends Who Taught Me How to Drink](https://jerrybanfield.com/friends-taught-me-to-drink): After my first brutal hangover, I found the friends, the poker, and the habits that slowly taught me to become an alcoholic.
- [Why I Thought Alcohol Would Fix Everything](https://jerrybanfield.com/alcohol-would-fix-everything): I arrived at college healthy and confident, but anxiety, shame, and a belief that alcohol was the missing ingredient set my spiral in motion.
- [A God in Video Games, Lost Everywhere Else](https://jerrybanfield.com/god-in-games-lost-in-life): As my parents' marriage fell apart, I escaped into video games and rap until I felt like a god online and worthless in life.
- [My Childhood Was Good Until We Moved to Germany](https://jerrybanfield.com/childhood-good-until-germany): My childhood was active and fun, full of games and roller coasters, until we moved to Germany and puberty changed everything.
- [I Picked My Parents Before I Was Born](https://jerrybanfield.com/picked-my-parents-before-born): I remember choosing my chaotic, loving, addicted parents before I was born, and how that shaped the childhood I entered.
- [Why I'm Telling You My Whole Life Story](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-im-telling-my-whole-life-story): I'm sharing my whole life from 1984 to 2026 — addiction, recovery, and all the parts most people would cut out.
- [The Time is 0](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-time-is-0): The real time right now is zero. A deep talk on eternity, infinity, relativity, and why you already have eternal life in the middle of eternity.
- [June 20, 2026 Vlog: Sacred City, Adding Value, Community, Amends](https://jerrybanfield.com/june-20-2026-vlog-sacred-city-adding): A raw June 20, 2026 daily vlog on Sacred City, making amends, community, and committing to add real value every day.
- [Focus on Larger Amounts of Money and You'll Be Rich](https://jerrybanfield.com/focus-on-larger-amounts-of-money): Why obsessing over $1, $5, and $20 keeps you broke, and how I trained myself to start every money thought at $1,000 or more.
- [I'm Sad — and Then I'm Willing to Change](https://jerrybanfield.com/im-sad-and-then-im-willing-to-change): The next time you're sad, say thank you and ask what it's teaching you. How a hard week of dating disappointment became the call to action I needed.
- [I Became a Self-Made Millionaire Twice and Lost It. Time for Round 3.](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-become-a-self-made-millionaire-twice): I made myself a self-made millionaire twice — on Udemy and in crypto — lost it both times, and I'm at minus $200K today. The honest lessons before round 3.
- [Why I Give $20 to Anyone Asking for Help on the Street](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-give-20-to-anyone-asking-for-help): Why I give $20 to people asking for help, how generosity beat my scarcity mindset, and how you know you finally have enough money.
- [What Is a Quality Life? Health, Connection, and Fun](https://jerrybanfield.com/what-is-a-quality-life-health-connection): Jerry Banfield on burnout with sensational YouTube, crypto comedy, ICP, tennis, yoga, and why health, connection, and playful fun are the real wealth.
- [The Power of Microchanges and the Pain of Getting What We Want](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-power-of-microchanges-and-the-pain): Reflections on The Mountain Is You: why getting what we want feels uncomfortable, and how small, sustained changes beat big wholesale ones.
- [Tension and Release Make for a Great Life](https://jerrybanfield.com/tension-and-release-make-for-a-great): Jerry Banfield on filming videos fast, building dance music in Ableton, mirroring a family member, refusing to numb pain, and why honesty keeps him sober.
- [Tennis, Psychic Change, and the Wealth of Time](https://jerrybanfield.com/tennis-psychic-change-and-the-wealth): My diary for February 26, 2025: losing at tennis with gratitude, the biggest psychic change of my life, a daily mile run, and feeling time-rich.
- [Talking With My Hands: Body Language, Tennis, and Daily Habits](https://jerrybanfield.com/talking-with-my-hands-body-language): My February 27, 2025 vlog: changing my video format to talk with my hands, lessons on body language, tennis, openness, and a full healthy day.
- [Relationships Are the Greatest Form of Wealth](https://jerrybanfield.com/relationships-are-the-greatest-form): Jerry Banfield reflects on why relationships, not money or material things, are the real wealth in life, and how loss clears space for new love.
- [Playing Tennis for a Large Unseen Audience](https://jerrybanfield.com/playing-tennis-for-a-large-unseen): Why I imagine a crowd while I play tennis, what my dad and a passed friend told me in dreams, and how seeing life as a stage changes everything.
- [No One Is Innocent: Why I Believe We Chose to Be Here](https://jerrybanfield.com/no-one-is-innocent-why-i-believe-we): Why I believe no one is truly innocent, that we chose to incarnate here, and what real innocence and power mean for raising kids and facing death.
- [My Life Story: From the Racetrack to College](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-life-story-from-the-racetrack): Jerry Banfield shares his life story, from being born to a horse jockey and Army veterinarian through a military childhood and a college slide into addiction.
- [My Life, March 11, 2025: Sobriety, Hot Yoga, and Taxes](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-life-march-11-2025-sobriety-hot-yoga): A day in my life on March 11, 2025: school drop-off, an AA meeting on good orderly direction, hot yoga, taxes, and my kids' spring concert.
- [My Dog Healed Herself of a Terminal Disease](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-dog-healed-herself-of-a-terminal): I watched my dog cure herself of a terminal disease by resting and fasting. Here is what that taught me about health, openness, and free cures.
- [My Diary, March 6, 2025: Tennis, Kids, and a UFO](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-diary-march-6-2025-tennis-kids): A full day in my life on March 6, 2025: teeth cleaning, filming videos, picking up the kids, washing dishes, tennis camp, and a UFO sighting.
- [Making a Song in Under 10 Minutes and Choosing Play](https://jerrybanfield.com/making-a-song-in-under-10-minutes): Day 4,991: why I make music in under 10 minutes, the joy of a healthy active body, and how choosing play keeps me creating and feeling alive.
- [Legoland, S'mores, and Teaching My Kids About Money](https://jerrybanfield.com/legoland-smores-and-teaching-my-kids): A January day vlog: a $25 s'mores lesson, plant-based breakfast at Legoland, teaching my kids to earn and save, driving without glasses, and playing with music.
- [Laura's First Marathon, Disney, and Rethinking My Career](https://jerrybanfield.com/lauras-first-marathon-disney): A family weekend at Disney for Laura's first marathon, a cold pre-dawn start, missing the finish line by 20 minutes, and reflecting on 20 years ahead.
- [I'm Not a Positive Person. I'm a Balanced One.](https://jerrybanfield.com/im-not-a-positive-person-im-a-balanced): Why I aim for balance instead of forced positivity, how I apply negativity intelligently, and what exploring life's rough side has taught me.
- [I Know What to Do, but I Don't Do It: Why We Don't Change](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-know-what-to-do-but-i-dont-do-it-why): Jerry Banfield on why we avoid the things we know we should do, from getting sober to losing weight, and how to finally take action.
- [I Am Creating Every Experience in My Body](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-am-creating-every-experience): How I healed a hemorrhoid by taking responsibility for the resentment behind it, saying thank you to my body, and apologizing instead of fighting the symptom.
- [How Conflict Became a Healthy Part of My Relationships](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-conflict-became-a-healthy-part): Jerry Banfield shares how conflict, when talked through, sands off rough edges and builds character in marriage, parenting, and personal growth.
- [Gray Hair Affirmations and Guided Meditations I'm Practicing](https://jerrybanfield.com/gray-hair-affirmations-and-guided): I created live affirmations and guided meditations inspired by Louise Hay to address gray hair, reduce stress, and reclaim my full hair color.
- [Face the Pain Now Sober and a Better Life Arrives After](https://jerrybanfield.com/face-the-pain-now-sober-and-a-better): Why I face small painful tasks sober today instead of numbing them, how getting sober changed my life, and my non-negotiable agreement with my body.
- [Day 5026: A Healing Day, a Massage, and a Three-Month Apology](https://jerrybanfield.com/day-5026-a-healing-day-a-massage): A full Monday vlog: a $5 parenting fine, yoga, tennis, a massage, and finally sending a family apology after three months of holding on.
- [Day 5,020: Sobriety, Baseboards, and Talking to My Kids](https://jerrybanfield.com/day-5-020-sobriety-baseboards): A day in my life: my AA meeting, a quiet massage, weighing baseboards against videos, Monopoly, a mile run, and a hard talk with my kids about words.
- [Daily Vlog March 9, 2025: Junk Food, Grilling, and AA](https://jerrybanfield.com/daily-vlog-march-9-2025-junk-food): My March 9, 2025 daily vlog: why I keep junk food out of the house, grilling hot dogs, a crypto call, and an honest night at my AA meeting.
- [Being God Is Hard: My Higher Power, Sobriety, and Self-Love](https://jerrybanfield.com/being-god-is-hard-my-higher-power): I share why I believe I am the creator of my reality, how a higher power keeps me sober and grounded, and how loving yourself as the creator changes everything.
- [Asking for Help, Making Music with Joy, and Expansion](https://jerrybanfield.com/asking-for-help-making-music-with-joy): A vlog on asking for help, five years sober, making music with joy, knowing yourself, simplifying complexity, and growth as my soul's calling.
- [Anything Worth Doing Is Worth Doing Poorly](https://jerrybanfield.com/anything-worth-doing-is-worth-doing): Why I let myself be a poor tennis player, delete thousands of videos, and show up with joy instead of chasing perfectionism.
- [A Tennis Championship, a Sushi Date, and Quieting Irrational Fears](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-tennis-championship-a-sushi-date): My February 28, 2025 vlog: winning at tennis, a date with Laura, filming crypto videos, a sleepover, and how I handle the mind's irrational fears.
- [A Rainy Day in St. Petersburg: My 5,019th Day on YouTube](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-rainy-day-in-st-petersburg-my-5-019th): A daily journal from February 24, 2025: school runs, yoga, sobriety, cranking out 11 videos, and a long Monopoly game with my kids.
- [A Legoland Vlog: Sobriety, Plant-Based Living, and Stuffed Animals](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-legoland-vlog-sobriety-plant-based): Jerry Banfield's January 2025 diary from the Legoland Hotel: 11 years sober, eating whole plant-based, giving money back, and a hard-fought carnival prize.
- [A Legoland Vlog: Family Chaos, Music, and Hard Lessons](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-legoland-vlog-family-chaos-music): A family trip to Legoland in Winter Haven: roller coasters, sibling fights, thoughts on my music, taxes, discipline, and gratitude.
- [A Day of Transformation: Confidence, Crypto Grants, and ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-day-of-transformation-confidence): My March 12, 2025 vlog: finding confidence to ask ICP projects for grants, yoga, tennis, and making crypto videos for friends and family.
- [A Day in My Life: Yoga, Tennis, ICP, and Family](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-day-in-my-life-yoga-tennis-icp): Jerry Banfield's March 5, 2025 daily journal: power yoga, windy tennis, locking up ICP, time with his son and mom, and an AA meeting on resentments.
- [A Day in My Life: Yoga, Music, Basketball, and AA](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-day-in-my-life-yoga-music-basketball): My January 5, 2025 vlog: yoga, a Whole Foods run, making ambient music, hitting 83 three-pointers, AA, and a dream about my dad.
- [A Day in My Life: Resentments, Abundance, and 11:11](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-day-in-my-life-resentments-abundance): My March 4, 2025 vlog: letting go of a resentment, an AA meeting, a $300 crypto job, hip-hop class, baseboards, tennis, and a romantic Epsom bath.
- [A Day in My Life: Helping Others Is the Secret](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-day-in-my-life-helping-others): A full-time YouTuber's daily vlog on AA, yoga, tennis, fixing the house after the hurricane, ICP, family, and gratitude for this life.
- [A Day in My Life: Crypto, Freestyle Rap, and Vegan Lunch](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-day-in-my-life-crypto-freestyle-rap): Jerry Banfield's February 13, 2025 vlog: an on-chain crypto game sponsorship, dreaming of music streaming, tennis, a vegan lunch, and loving criticism.
- [A Dad, A Day With No Plan, and What My Body Told Me](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-dad-a-day-with-no-plan-and-what): My March 1, 2025 vlog: balancing work and fun as a dad, a men's AA meeting, and how anger and a hemorrhoid taught me to let go and apologize.
- [The 12 Steps of AA Explained: A Beginner's Guide From 9 Years Sober](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-12-steps-of-aa-explained-a-beginners): Jerry Banfield walks through the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous from his own recovery, sharing what each step meant and how it changed his life.
- [How I Lost 80 Pounds and Transformed My Health (Full Story)](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-i-lost-80-pounds-and-transformed-my-health): How I lost 80 pounds and kept it off for over a decade: getting sober, tracking every calorie, going plant-based, and facing the emotional side of eating.
- [Long-Term Emotional Sobriety in Action (12 Years Sober)](https://jerrybanfield.com/long-term-emotional-sobriety-in-action): Twelve years sober, facing divorce, moving, and income going to zero, and how I worked steps 10, 11, and 12 through the hardest year of my recovery.
- [My Life Story in 10 Minutes (Un Fn Myself)](https://jerrybanfield.com/un-fn-myself-life-story-in-10-minutes): My whole life story in 10 minutes — military brat to police officer to full-time YouTuber, with sobriety, business success, and divorce along the way.
- [How Can Viewers Help Me Not Quit YouTube Again?](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-viewers-help-me-not-quit-youtube): A viewer asked how fans can help me not burn out and quit YouTube again. Here's my honest answer about what actually keeps me going — and why just watching is plenty.
- [Why the Truth Feels Bad Before It Sets You Free](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-the-truth-feels-bad-before-it-sets-you-free): I share why the advice that offends me most is usually the truth that frees me, from getting sober to honest dating and AA.
- [The Girl Came to My Dorm While I Was Watching Office Space](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-girl-came-to-my-dorm-office-space): A college story from my University of South Carolina freshman year in 2002 — the night a girl knocked on my dorm door at 1:30 a.m. while I was watching Office Space.
- [Life in St. Pete: Daily Vlogs With Jerry Banfield](https://jerrybanfield.com/life-in-st-pete-daily-vlogs): If you live in St. Petersburg, Florida, you'll love my new daily vlog channel — raw, real-life videos as a full-time YouTuber and single dad near Crescent Lake.
- [When the World Feels Hopeless, Give Value to People](https://jerrybanfield.com/when-the-world-feels-hopeless-give-value-to-people): When the world feels hopeless, the fastest way out is asking how you can help someone else. Here's how focusing on giving pulls me out of feeling down — and makes space to receive.
- [Calorie Tracking vs Plant-Based Eating: What MyFitnessPal Misses](https://jerrybanfield.com/calorie-tracking-vs-plant-based-eating): What MyFitnessPal misses: the kind of calorie matters as much as the count. Why whole plant foods fill you up effortlessly and why I stopped counting calories. My experience, not medical advice.
- [My Mind Went to Fear, But I Chose Faith](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-mind-went-to-fear-but-i-chose-faith): My mind tried to spiral into fear today — about dating, my dog dying, money, and work — and I chose trust instead. Here's how choosing faith over fear played out across one full day.
- [My Kids Are Taken Care Of No Matter What](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-kids-are-taken-care-of-no-matter-what): I borrowed over $57,000 and people asked 'what about your kids?' Here's why my kids are completely taken care of no matter what happens to me — and why the greatest risk is never taking one.
- [Facing Harsh Reality vs. Healthy Fantasy](https://jerrybanfield.com/facing-harash-reality-vs-healthy-fantasy): A commenter said people prefer fantasy to harsh reality. My take: reality is mostly subjective, you still have to face the chances to change, and community is how.
- [Did I Get What I Deserve?](https://jerrybanfield.com/did-i-get-what-i-deserve): A commenter said people get what they deserve, meaning I deserved my divorce and lost income. My answer: you get what you create — and I burned it down on purpose.
- [Skool Is Like OnlyFans for Men](https://jerrybanfield.com/skool-is-like-onlyfans-for-men): I launched a paid Skool community and my first member paid $390 for the year. Why direct DM access is like OnlyFans for men — and why joining early matters most.
- [One Decision, A Thousand Decisions](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-thousand-decisions-2): I spend a whole day almost buying a game console and finally realize one decision can spawn a thousand more, so I write letters instead.
- [Unraveling or Just Reasonable?](https://jerrybanfield.com/unraveling-or-reasonable-2): I dictate a whole fiction book, debate buying a game console, and wonder whether easing up means I'm unraveling or finally being reasonable.
- [I'm Just Not Her Flavor](https://jerrybanfield.com/not-her-flavor-2): I get my business plan dialed in, get hurt by a woman who isn't interested, and learn to let it go over a story about gelato.
- [I Wrote a Book in a Day](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-book-in-a-day-2): I dictated an entire book in one morning, did recovery my own way at a meeting, and felt my whole plan finally click into place.
- [Booklets, Calls, and a Plan](https://jerrybanfield.com/booklets-and-calls-2): I published a long book, weighed buying a PlayStation again, and finally landed on a business plan: give out booklets that lead to simple phone calls.
- [Three Months On, the Work Continues](https://jerrybanfield.com/three-months-on-the-work-continues): Looking back three months after the divorce, steadier and still doing the work.
- [Give Them My Real Writing](https://jerrybanfield.com/give-them-my-writing-2): A whole day mired in despair about my business ended in a breakthrough: stop forcing perfect promo letters and just get my real writing into people's hands.
- [Where My Loneliness Started](https://jerrybanfield.com/where-loneliness-started-2): Tracing my loneliness all the way back to childhood, and starting to see that the writing I give people should help with exactly what I struggle with most.
- [180 Letters, Still Empty](https://jerrybanfield.com/180-letters-2): I delivered 180 letters door to door and still felt like I'd accomplished nothing, hoping tomorrow would be better.
- [Manifesting a Tennis Partner](https://jerrybanfield.com/manifesting-tennis-partner-2): I finally met someone to play tennis with, the way I'd been picturing for years, then spent the rest of the day pushing through rejection and a funk.
- [What Sleep Gave Back](https://jerrybanfield.com/what-sleep-gave-back-2): A night of sleep restored me to sanity, turned yesterday's resentment into empathy, and brought a new match that reads like it was written for me.
- [Reading the Room Too Late](https://jerrybanfield.com/reading-the-room-2): A massage cancellation sent me into a spiral, and a defensive conversation wrecked me. The lesson: read the room and disengage sooner.
- [The 72-Year-Old Who Beat Me](https://jerrybanfield.com/seventy-two-and-winning-2): A man three decades older beats me at singles tennis and shows me that the family life I keep doubting is possible is right there in front of me.
- [A New Kind of Strength](https://jerrybanfield.com/new-kind-of-strength-2): I try a pole class instead of yoga, get humbled by a workout that uses muscles I never use, and write my sister a birthday letter.
- [Every House Has Its Own Energy](https://jerrybanfield.com/house-energy-2): Delivering letters door to door turns into something surprisingly satisfying as I step into the energy of all these different homes.
- [Ten Thousand Letters, One Door at a Time](https://jerrybanfield.com/ten-thousand-letters-2): I realize I can deliver my own letters faster and cheaper than paying someone, and it leaves me full of hope with a clear plan.
- [Putting My Name on My Shirt](https://jerrybanfield.com/name-on-my-shirt-2): I order shirts that brand me as an author, meet a woman at yoga who feels surprisingly aligned, and teach my son a lesson about wanting more stuff.
- [A Good Cry on the Massage Table](https://jerrybanfield.com/cry-on-the-table-2): A massage turns into a release where I finally see how I've been treating women, have a good cry, and commit to being kinder going forward.
- [The Two-Page Letter That Slaps](https://jerrybanfield.com/two-page-letter-2): A canceled date frees up my morning, and I finally crank out the short, punchy letter for my book business and print hundreds of them.
- [The Sting of No Reply](https://jerrybanfield.com/sting-of-no-reply-2): I put myself out there with a dozen messages, almost nobody responds, and I watch myself spiral and then come back up.
- [The Things I Refuse to Negotiate On](https://jerrybanfield.com/what-i-wont-negotiate-2): A mall day with the kids, a hard-won sibling apology, and getting clear that I'd rather be honest up front than hook someone first.
- [The First Blind Date I'd Had in Years](https://jerrybanfield.com/first-blind-date-2): I build the expectations way too high, feel disappointed, then slowly start to actually like her over ice cream and ghost stories.
- [All My Seeds Came Up on the Same Day](https://jerrybanfield.com/seeds-came-up-2): In one morning I get paid, get a date, and get invited to speak, then learn to forgive my mother for not meeting my excitement.
- [Losing at Tennis and Loving Every Minute](https://jerrybanfield.com/joy-in-losing-2): I get beaten in straight sets and still feel joyful, because I'm finally playing to learn instead of to win.
- [Trusting What I Can't See Happening Yet](https://jerrybanfield.com/trust-what-i-cant-see-2): A granite cutting board and a reassuring email teach me that the things that look overnight took a lot of quiet building.
- [Be the Friendly One You're Looking For](https://jerrybanfield.com/be-friendly-first-2): If I want people to be friendly, maybe I should be the friendly one, plus a massage-table lesson on not undervaluing my work.
- [The Day That Filled Me Back Up](https://jerrybanfield.com/filled-back-up-2): After days feeling empty, a day of board games, tennis, and talking until 12:30 a.m. fills me right back up.
- [Alone in a Room Full of Fifty People](https://jerrybanfield.com/alone-in-the-crowd-2): I cry through a crowded yoga class, knock out my taxes, and get lapped twice by my seven-year-old.
- [A Surprise at Yoga and the Work I Was Built For](https://jerrybanfield.com/work-i-was-built-2): An old friend turned up out of nowhere, I finally landed on the business I'm built for, and I made peace with how simple single life can be.
- [Grief Showed Up While I Searched for Love](https://jerrybanfield.com/grief-while-searching-2): Meeting my matchmaker was exciting until I sent her old family photos and got hit with pure grief, and then I found the work I'm actually built for.
- [The Nights We Couldn't Have Before](https://jerrybanfield.com/nights-we-couldnt-have-2): I took my kids to a song circle around a fire and realized this is exactly the kind of night we never got to share when I was married.
- [Choosing My Kids Over a Hypothetical Future](https://jerrybanfield.com/choosing-my-kids-2): I stopped designing my whole life around a woman who doesn't exist yet and committed to staying put for my kids.
- [The Only Parent Not on His Phone](https://jerrybanfield.com/only-parent-playing-2): With dating off my plate I'm obsessed with my work, but the real joy today was being the dad sprinting around the gym instead of sitting on my phone.
- [I Finally Feel Like I Fit In](https://jerrybanfield.com/finally-fit-2): I joined a tennis club that feels like home, and with dating off my mind I can finally just talk to people without all the pressure.
- [The Easiest $7,500 I Ever Spent](https://jerrybanfield.com/easiest-money-spent-2): I woke up miserable on Valentine's Day and a few honest conversations flipped my whole day, and then I outsourced my dating life entirely.
- [Sobbing on My Yoga Mat Over a Stranger](https://jerrybanfield.com/sobbing-yoga-mat-2): I cried in yoga over a woman I barely know, and it showed me what I actually need isn't another book. It's people.
- [What's Scarce Is In-Person](https://jerrybanfield.com/scarce-in-person-2): A day of doubt about books and online courses leaves me wondering whether what's really scarce is in-person connection.
- [I Said the Word Lonely](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-word-lonely-2): I imagine a crowd cheering me on, publish a 100,000-word memoir, and admit out loud that I feel lonely.
- [AI Can't Cure the Loneliness](https://jerrybanfield.com/ai-and-loneliness-2): Stories of courage, a call with my sister, and where I fit in a world drowning in AI-generated books.
- [I Refuse to Sanitize My Writing](https://jerrybanfield.com/refuse-to-sanitize-2): Hardly anyone is reading my books yet, so I decide to stop censoring them and just write honestly.
- [Why I Really Skipped the Wedding](https://jerrybanfield.com/skipped-the-wedding-2): An epiphany about my brother's wedding cracks open a day of cleaning up my side of the street.
- [A Room With 3,900 Years Sober](https://jerrybanfield.com/years-of-sobriety-2): I do my taxes, push my book ads forward, and stand up at 11 years in a room with thousands of years sober.
- [I Said the Compliment Anyway](https://jerrybanfield.com/said-the-compliment-2): I read her cues, tell a woman at yoga the truth, and publish my book to Amazon the same day.
- [A Letter to the Wife I Haven't Met](https://jerrybanfield.com/letter-to-future-wife-2): I rewrite my book to my future wife, sob and laugh at the end, and call it a spiritual experience.
- [I Forgive Her, I Forgive Myself](https://jerrybanfield.com/forgive-her-forgive-myself-2): I dictate a raw book about seeking a wife, move a couch, share a bittersweet family dinner, and practice forgiveness.
- [The Best Use of My Day](https://jerrybanfield.com/best-use-of-day-2): I decide to stop polishing an old rough book and write what actually sells calls, then get a massage, play tennis, and walk with my mother.
- [The Story I'd Rather Have](https://jerrybanfield.com/story-id-rather-have-2): I bury myself in work, skip approaching a woman at the gym because I want a better story, and have a grateful cry holding my son.
- [Be in Position for It to Happen](https://jerrybanfield.com/be-in-position-2): I miss a woman who smiled at me, and resolve to be ready for connection by putting myself in natural environments instead of apps.
- [Faith Is Knowing It's Coming](https://jerrybanfield.com/faith-knowing-its-coming-2): A surprise paid call validates my plan, and at yoga I feel a quiet faith that the partnership I want is already on its way.
- [Writing to My Future Wife](https://jerrybanfield.com/writing-future-wife-2): Inspiration hits hard: I'll advertise my books on Amazon and write one to my future wife, then take myself to a movie alone.
- [I Could Build That, But I Won't](https://jerrybanfield.com/could-build-but-wont-2): A friend's course-selling empire inspires me, but I realize I don't want that business, and I commit to being more direct in dating.
- [No Backup Plan](https://jerrybanfield.com/no-backup-plan-2): I build a clean business system to sell calls and events, ask a woman from my gym out, play tennis, and decide I have no backup plan.
- [No Time to Survive, Only to Thrive](https://jerrybanfield.com/only-to-thrive-2): A business coach gives me real next steps, I cancel the gym, and I commit to going all-in on writing and giving away books.
- [Books Into the Right Hands](https://jerrybanfield.com/into-the-right-hands-2): A day of despair about my business cracks open into a simple plan: put my books into people's hands in person.
- [Hundreds of Letters, Not One Call](https://jerrybanfield.com/not-one-call-2): Hundreds of letters go out and nothing comes back, so I rethink the whole thing and start circling back to my books.
- [Let Her Walk to the Car](https://jerrybanfield.com/walk-to-the-car-2): A grocery-store engagement story flips how I think about dating, and a quiet night ends with an old fear of immortality.
- [Replanted to Grow](https://jerrybanfield.com/replanted-to-grow-2): My ex-wife shares a gardener's analogy for our divorce, I find my son's lost ball, and I keep stuffing letters.
- [An Honest Ask, Not a Pitch](https://jerrybanfield.com/an-honest-ask-2): My letter finally lands when I stop pitching and just ask for help, and I get clear that I'd rather be single than settle.
- [One Letter a Minute](https://jerrybanfield.com/one-letter-a-minute-2): I test a ten-page letter against a one-page one, find someone to deliver them at scale, and remember why I keep journaling.
- [There's No Going Back to Fourth Grade](https://jerrybanfield.com/no-going-back-2): A doubleheader day with my kids, an honest take on dating and value, and why grief is just part of moving forward.
- [Keeping It Real for My Kids](https://jerrybanfield.com/keeping-it-real-kids-2): Finishing the one-page help letter, why I record the real version of myself for my kids, and a great evening at the park and the court.
- [Dressing Like I Finally Mean It](https://jerrybanfield.com/dressing-like-i-mean-2): How my sister's advice pushed me to upgrade how I dress, a thousand dollars later, and the most vulnerable thing I shared at a meeting.
- [A Simple Day for a Simple Man](https://jerrybanfield.com/simple-day-simple-man-2): Writing my health journey into a letter, doubles tennis dodging cannonball serves, and a three-hour battle to set up a smartwatch.
- [Done Chasing, All In on the Work](https://jerrybanfield.com/all-in-on-work-2): Why I'm done actively chasing dating, the day my event plan unraveled, and the one help letter that finally made everything click.
- [When Nobody Texts Back](https://jerrybanfield.com/when-nobody-texts-back-2): A letter to lifelong friends, a near car accident I'm grateful I avoided, and one of the saddest days I've had in a while.
- [Trusting the Universe With My Money](https://jerrybanfield.com/trusting-universe-money-2): A 3 a.m. money panic that turned into faith, the $20 I gave a stranger, and a reader who bought seven of my books.
- [Every Room Has a Purpose Now](https://jerrybanfield.com/every-room-a-purpose-2): Nine hours of sleep, setting up my house and studio, a walk with my mother and my ex-wife, and parenting as my own person.
- [The Night This House Became a Home](https://jerrybanfield.com/house-became-a-home-2): My first school-week overnight with the kids, a good cry in the grass, and the night my house finally felt like a home.
- [Done Pretending I'm All Good](https://jerrybanfield.com/done-pretending-all-good): Waking up to my kids, owning the ugly things I say, and a long riff on comedy, art, and why every good person is a little bit an asshole.
- [Get Out of the House and Throw the Football](https://jerrybanfield.com/throw-the-football): A cold morning text, an hour of football with a stranger at the AA picnic, a ceramic towel rack I sheared off with my skull, and a good cry with my kids that made the house a home.
- [Building a Home for Deeper Connections](https://jerrybanfield.com/home-deeper-connections): A waterless toilet, a flaky date I finally let go of, a draining big meeting, and a quiet walk that convinced me to turn my new house into a gathering place.
- [Move-In Day and a Hundred Thousand Thank Yous](https://jerrybanfield.com/move-in-day-thanks): Hauling my whole life into a new house in one sweaty day, paying a friend more than he asked, and sobbing to my late father's favorite album on my first night home.
- [The Day I Felt the Same Storm My Daughter Felt](https://jerrybanfield.com/same-storm-my-daughter): A cloudy tennis loss, a sudden emotional crash when my ex-wife showed up early, dogs chasing a remote-control car, and a late-night reckoning with what I really want next.
- [Sitting in a Lawn Chair in My New Life](https://jerrybanfield.com/lawn-chair-new-life): Internet hooked up, a salad, a drone over the park with my son, an AA share that landed, and a wide-open question about what I really want in a partner, all from a lawn chair in my empty new house.
- [The Night I Mapped My Way Out of Loneliness](https://jerrybanfield.com/mapped-out-loneliness): Setting a boundary with my mom, getting the kids moving outside, and a wide-awake midnight where I mapped letters and living-room events into a whole new way to beat loneliness.
- [How Can I Make Somebody Else's Life Better](https://jerrybanfield.com/make-life-better): Flying drones with my kids, lifting more than my own bodyweight, and a book that flipped my question from what I want to what I can give.
- [I Got Here Through My Own Choices](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-own-choices): A new house in the same neighborhood, a kiss that fell flat, and a forty-minute cry that brought me back to loving myself through the choices I made.
- [Everything Is a Transaction of Utility](https://jerrybanfield.com/transaction-of-utility): After giving up on dating, one walk around Crescent Lake with an older woman who actually liked me back reminded me what real chemistry and partnership could feel like.
- [The Year I Stopped Carrying Shame](https://jerrybanfield.com/stopped-carrying-shame): A cold New Year's of handing out my books with my kids, a new yoga studio, and reckoning with how I want to live and publish without shame.
- [Giving My Books to the Whole Neighborhood](https://jerrybanfield.com/books-to-the-neighborhood): I write a Hey New Neighbor letter, hand the kids a broken-truck lesson, walk Crescent Lake on New Year's Eve, and decide I'd rather be alone than settle.
- [Drop a Book on a Thousand Doorsteps](https://jerrybanfield.com/book-on-doorsteps): A three-hour middle-of-the-night ChatGPT session that turned into a plan to print a thousand books and leave them on strangers' doorsteps, and a sweet moment with a woman at the gym front desk.
- [Getting Honest About What I Really Want](https://jerrybanfield.com/what-i-really-want): A defeated dating day that turns into a third-step surrender, a massage with a friend finishing her book, and getting clear that what I really want is a wife and family, not a hookup.
- [Deleting Every App and Waiting for the Real Thing](https://jerrybanfield.com/deleting-every-app): Two dates with no chemistry, a $200 lesson, and a friend's slow-burn love story finally convince me to delete every dating app and let the right woman find me.
- [Treating a First Date Like Free Throws](https://jerrybanfield.com/first-date-practice): A surprise date with a devout Muslim woman that I treated as pure practice, a long debate about whether I'm God, and a day of selling books and getting honest about what I actually want.
- [The Day I Tried to Rewrite Myself Into the Right One](https://jerrybanfield.com/rewrite-myself-right-one): A restless day of starting a daily event, chasing phone numbers, and rebuilding my dating profiles around a hard question: am I honest about what I actually want?
- [The Christmas I Learned to Ask for the Number](https://jerrybanfield.com/learned-to-ask): My first Christmas after the divorce: gifts with the kids, ping pong with my ex-wife, an AA party feast, and a hard lesson in finding the courage to ask.
- [I'm Done Being the Serious Guy](https://jerrybanfield.com/done-being-serious): Three hundred envelopes, a tennis win, Christmas Eve with my kids, and a vow to quit being the serious guy and let a lot more laughter into my life.
- [Putting the Work In to Find My Person](https://jerrybanfield.com/putting-the-work): Ending a connection that wasn't right, stuffing 200 envelopes, and deciding to put real work into dating apps with a grateful, sober energy.
- [Chasing Fantasies While the Real Thing Waits](https://jerrybanfield.com/chasing-fantasies): A flat first date forces me to see how I keep idolizing women I barely know while pushing away the one who actually wants me.
- [One Hundred Letters and a Free Oak Table](https://jerrybanfield.com/hundred-letters-oak-table): Hand-addressing a hundred neighbor letters, an $80 antique table delivered to my door, and a meeting-night talk about who really deserves me.
- [A Thousand Stamps and a Heavy Heart](https://jerrybanfield.com/thousand-stamps-heavy-heart): A lingering sadness, a thousand stamps for a new book-coaching business, my kids taking down Voldemort, and the quiet faith that tomorrow will feel better.
- [Dance Like No One's Watching](https://jerrybanfield.com/dance-nobody-watching): A down day, beaten at tennis and lonely after my divorce, turns around when a woman's laughter at the spiritual community reminds me exactly who I want to be.
- [My First Day Free and the Letter to a Thousand Doors](https://jerrybanfield.com/first-day-free-letter): My first morning as a divorced man, weighing three paths for my work, and writing the letter I'll slip under a thousand neighbors' doors.
- [Thirteen Years End, a New Freedom Begins](https://jerrybanfield.com/thirteen-years-end-a-new-freedom-begins): The day my thirteen-year marriage legally ends and a new kind of freedom begins.
- [A Stranger Texts Back, and Hope Returns](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-stranger-texts-back-and-hope-returns): A stranger texts back and a little hope comes flooding back in.
- [I Won't Shrink to Fit In](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-wont-shrink-to-fit): Refusing to shrink myself just to fit in with the room.
- [Hearing No and Staying Confident Anyway](https://jerrybanfield.com/hearing-no-and-staying-confident-anyway): Hearing no without letting it shake my confidence.
- [On a Roll, Finally Going For It](https://jerrybanfield.com/on-a-roll-finally-going): On a roll and finally taking the chances I'd been hesitating on.
- [I Want More Play, Less Seriousness](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-want-more-play-less-seriousness): Choosing more play and less heaviness in how I move through my days.
- [Learning I'm Terrible at Texting Women](https://jerrybanfield.com/learning-im-terrible-at-texting-women): An honest, funny look at how bad I am at texting and what I'm learning from it.
- [Catching My Urge to Rescue Someone](https://jerrybanfield.com/catching-my-urge-to-rescue-someone): Catching myself in the old habit of trying to rescue someone, and choosing differently.
- [I Just Needed to Be Appreciated](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-just-needed-to-be-appreciated): Realizing I needed acknowledgment far more than I needed to win.
- [Hugging Goodbye to Our Marriage](https://jerrybanfield.com/hugging-goodbye-to-our-marriage): On our anniversary, my ex-wife and I sign the papers and hug our marriage goodbye.
- [Books Are Obviously My Path Now](https://jerrybanfield.com/books-are-obviously-my-path-now): It becomes obvious that writing and sharing books is my path forward.
- [The Old House by the Lake](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-old-house-by-the-lake): Finding an old house by the lake that feels like the right next chapter.
- [Hunting Downtown for My Reset](https://jerrybanfield.com/hunting-downtown-for-my-reset): Hunting around downtown for the place that fits my reset.
- [A Friend Talks Me Out of Tampa](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-friend-talks-me-out-of-tampa): A friend's honest take talks me out of moving to Tampa.
- [Touring the Fresh Life I Crave](https://jerrybanfield.com/touring-the-fresh-life-i-crave): Touring places and imagining the fresh start I keep craving.
- [I Reclaim My Own Space Again](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-reclaim-my-own-space-again): Settling back into my own space and making it fully mine.
- [Flying Home, Hungry for Something New](https://jerrybanfield.com/flying-home-hungry-for-something-new): Flying back to Florida restless and hungry to reinvent my daily life.
- [One Sentence Burns My Michigan Dream](https://jerrybanfield.com/one-sentence-burns-my-michigan-dream): A single sentence pops my fantasy of moving back to Michigan.
- [I Tell My Kids the Truth](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-tell-my-kids-the-truth): Why I choose to be honest with my kids, even about the hard things.
- [Holding Babies Fills the Empty Place](https://jerrybanfield.com/holding-babies-fills-the-empty-place): Holding the babies in my family fills a hole I didn't know how to name.
- [A Thanksgiving Where I Finally Belonged](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-thanksgiving-where-i-finally-belonged): A Thanksgiving with family that finally felt like belonging.
- [Maybe Michigan Is Where I Belong](https://jerrybanfield.com/maybe-michigan-is-where-i-belong): Visiting family up north and wondering whether Michigan is where I really belong.
- [Seeing My Life's Whole Arc With Respect](https://jerrybanfield.com/seeing-my-lifes-whole-arc-with-respect): Looking back at my whole story and finally giving it some respect.
- [Learning to Love Wider Than My Family](https://jerrybanfield.com/learning-to-love-wider-than-my-family): Stretching my heart to love beyond just my own little family.
- [I Broke Down, Then Showed Up Anyway](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-broke-down-then-showed-up-anyway): I fall apart and then choose to show up for my life and my kids anyway.
- [My Darkest Night After the Divorce](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-darkest-night-after-the-divorce): One of my hardest nights after the separation, and how I made it through to morning.
- [Busywork Drained the Joy Right Out](https://jerrybanfield.com/busywork-drained-the-joy-right-out): Recognizing how busywork quietly drains the joy out of work I actually love.
- [I Stopped Forcing and Life Delivered](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-stopped-forcing-and-life-delivered): When I stopped forcing outcomes, the things I wanted started showing up on their own.
- [Finally Winning, Trusting the Momentum](https://jerrybanfield.com/finally-winning-trusting-the-momentum): Things start clicking and I learn to trust the momentum instead of bracing for it to end.
- [Just Walk Up and Say It](https://jerrybanfield.com/just-walk-up-and-say): Practicing the simple courage of walking up to someone and being direct.
- [Feeling Bad Doesn't Mean I Was Wrong](https://jerrybanfield.com/feeling-bad-doesnt-mean-i-was-wrong): Sitting with discomfort and realizing a bad feeling isn't proof I made a bad choice.
- [I Serve First, the Money Follows](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-serve-first-the-money-follows): My belief that serving people first is what eventually brings the money in.
- [Looking Past the Profile Checklist](https://jerrybanfield.com/looking-past-the-profile-checklist): Learning to see a person beyond the checklist of looks and stats.
- [Writing Books Is My Real Job Now](https://jerrybanfield.com/writing-books-is-my-real-job-now): Owning my identity as an author and treating the daily writing as my real work.
- [My Energy Won't Fit a Dating Profile](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-energy-wont-fit-a-dating-profile): Why the realest parts of me could never fit inside a dating-app profile.
- [I Stopped Hoarding and Started Giving](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-stopped-hoarding-and-started-giving): Letting go of scarcity, I start giving things away and feel wealthier for it.
- [I Chose Living Over Giving Up](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-chose-living-over-giving-up): After a dark stretch, I choose to keep living for the life and the kids right in front of me.
- [Rejected at the Studio, Saved by My Kids](https://jerrybanfield.com/rejected-at-the-studio-saved-by-my-kids): A rejection stings, but coming home to my kids reminds me what actually matters.
- [Getting Brutally Clear on What I Want](https://jerrybanfield.com/getting-brutally-clear-on-what-i-want): I get specific and honest about the kind of partner and life I actually want next.
- [Alone on Her Birthday, Not Lonely](https://jerrybanfield.com/alone-on-her-birthday-not-lonely): Spending my ex-wife's birthday apart, I find I'm alone but genuinely at peace.
- [I Chant, I Cry, I Give Away Books](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-chant-i-cry-i-give-away-books): A day of chanting, tears, and handing my books to strangers as I rebuild one connection at a time.
- [Curiosity Is the Only Reason to Keep Going](https://jerrybanfield.com/curiosity-is-the-only-reason-to-keep): On a hard day, curiosity about what comes next is the thread that keeps me moving forward.
- [My Honesty Emptied the Whole Room](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-honesty-emptied-the-whole-room): I shared so openly it cleared the room, and I sit with the cost and the gift of radical honesty.
- [Building My Army of Tiny Books](https://jerrybanfield.com/building-my-army-of-tiny-books): My plan to write and give away dozens of tiny books, and why physical print matters to me now.
- [I Wrote a Whole Book Before Lunch](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-wrote-a-whole-book-before-lunch): I dictated an entire short book in a single morning and felt my path as an author click into place.
- [So Happy to Have My Space Back to Myself](https://jerrybanfield.com/happy-to-have-my-space-back): The morning after connection, I craved my own quiet again and realized solitude fuels my creativity as much as intimacy does.
- [I'm Done Waiting for the Perfect Woman](https://jerrybanfield.com/done-waiting-for-perfect-woman): Walking a bar sober cracked something open: I'd rather get out and actually live than sit home congratulating myself for holding back.
- [I Traded a Decade for Numbers, and I Have No Regrets](https://jerrybanfield.com/traded-decade-for-numbers-no-regrets): I reflect on building real-life support through divorce, redefining success, and why I'd never trade real life for a screen.
- [Present in Body, Absent in Mind](https://jerrybanfield.com/present-in-body-absent-in-mind): Years of online fantasy kept me checked out at home; seeing people in person finally let me truly connect again.
- [The Highest Price I Paid Online Was My Marriage](https://jerrybanfield.com/highest-price-online-my-marriage): A decade of online distraction quietly eroded my marriage, and deletion finally let me face the truth honestly.
- [How I Fill My Days With No Screens](https://jerrybanfield.com/filling-days-without-screens): My screen-free daily routine, my hobbies and third places, and why one big deletion freed me from a thousand little choices.
- [Online Made Me Care About Things That Don't Matter](https://jerrybanfield.com/online-sensationalism-vs-real-life): The internet inflates the sensational; unplugging revealed the real local opportunities and conversations that actually matter.
- [I Had Millions of Followers and Almost No Real Friends](https://jerrybanfield.com/millions-of-followers-no-real-friends): Millions watched me online, yet artificial connection left everyone emptier, including me. I come clean as a cautionary example.
- [I Was Surviving, Not Serving](https://jerrybanfield.com/surviving-not-serving): I moved from survival mode to conscious service, and now invest my money and energy in people I know face to face.
- [Why Deleting Everything Finally Made Life Make Sense](https://jerrybanfield.com/deleting-everything-made-life-make-sense): I explain why erasing my online life made every past failure finally make sense, and why I chose to write books and think for myself.
- [When Facebook Called My Race Change Hate Speech](https://jerrybanfield.com/facebook-called-my-race-change-hate): I got demonetized and watched the internet rewrite my story, until a Black celebrity proved I wasn't crazy after all.
- [The Day I Changed My Race Live On Stream](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-day-i-changed-my-race): I woke up convinced I could change my race on stream, and the storm that followed taught me how identity and outrage really work.
- [From Police Academy to My First Online Million](https://jerrybanfield.com/police-academy-to-first-online-million): From corrections officer to grad-school dropout, I chased addiction and hustles until Udemy handed me my first real money.
- [What Internet Fame Really Cost Me](https://jerrybanfield.com/true-cost-of-internet-fame): I reached billions of views and made millions, yet online fame quietly cost me my peace and nearly my kids' childhoods.
- [Hearing No and Feeling Nothing but Relief](https://jerrybanfield.com/hearing-no-feeling-relief): She said no, and instead of being crushed I felt grateful, because clarity let me stop chasing and start protecting myself.
- [The More Interesting Choice Is to Just Ask](https://jerrybanfield.com/more-interesting-choice-to-ask): I sat terrified for twenty minutes, then sent the vulnerable text anyway, because asking is always the more interesting choice.
- [Choosing My Books Over the Chase](https://jerrybanfield.com/books-over-the-chase): After days chasing women I hit a breakthrough: my books come first. A reader bought two in one night, and that felt like my sign.
- [Emotional Sobriety Is the Whole Point](https://jerrybanfield.com/emotional-sobriety-whole-point): Back on the apps with zero matches, but I found the real win: emotional sobriety, feeling the full range without losing my mind.
- [Recording My Life in Real Time](https://jerrybanfield.com/recording-my-life-real-time): I started recording my diaries live, the same day I live them, because I create best raw and unedited.
- [I Ran Two Miles to Burn Off the Rage](https://jerrybanfield.com/ran-two-miles-burn-off-rage): A woman from yoga sparks hope, but anger at my mom, a tennis snub, and loneliness send me on my first run in two months to burn it all off.
- [Letting Go Was the Price of Arrival](https://jerrybanfield.com/letting-go-price-arrival): I narrate my own audiobooks, publish my third book, and realize that surrendering my old online life was the price of finally feeling aligned.
- [No Sex Until the Divorce Is Final](https://jerrybanfield.com/no-sex-until-divorce-final): I drew a hard line for myself: no relationships and no sex until my divorce is done, so my next chapter starts clean and intentional.
- [The Story Has Claimed Me](https://jerrybanfield.com/psychic-reading-sparks-novel): A psychic reading cracked my mind open and a branching-timelines novel claimed me, the book I now believe could land a real publisher.
- [Keep Moving and the Sadness Lifts](https://jerrybanfield.com/keep-moving-sadness-lifts): Sadness met me at sunrise, but yoga, old friends, tennis with my son, and Uno with my daughter quietly carried it away by nightfall.
- [The Kindness That Carried Us Through](https://jerrybanfield.com/kindness-carried-us-through): Divorce papers filed and moved into my own place, I'm grateful kindness held us together and excited for the life ahead.
- [Seeing the People I Overlooked](https://jerrybanfield.com/seeing-people-overlooked): Newly open to dating, I started seeing people I'd overlooked for years as suddenly magnetic, while my old family home began to feel strangely foreign.
- [Love Means Knowing When to Let Go](https://jerrybanfield.com/love-means-letting-go): We notarized our divorce papers and I cried in the parking lot, learning that choosing today's pain over tomorrow's regret is what real love looks like.
- [My Most Embarrassing Moment on the Tennis Court](https://jerrybanfield.com/most-embarrassing-tennis-moment): Trying to impress a woman at the tennis courts, I blurted out the most accidentally embarrassing line of my life and lost two games to laughter.
- [How Many Keys Did I Refuse to Turn?](https://jerrybanfield.com/keys-refuse-turn): I tried to help a stranger at yoga and got brushed off, which made me realize how many life-changing keys I once refused to turn myself.
- [My Daughter Sounded Just Like the Old Me](https://jerrybanfield.com/daughter-sounded-like-old-me): When my daughter snapped that no one else's feelings mattered, I heard my old drinking self and saw how far sobriety has brought me.
- [I Cried It All Out, Then Let Go](https://jerrybanfield.com/cried-it-all-out-let-go): I cried for twenty minutes saying goodnight, then carried my grief two blocks to a new home, blacked out the windows, and felt free.
- [I'd Rather Pay Her Than Take Her Money](https://jerrybanfield.com/rather-pay-her-than-take-money): The child support worksheet triggered me, but I'd rather pay my ex with money I don't have than accept hers; I just want a kind divorce.
- [My Crush Was a Symptom, Not the Cause](https://jerrybanfield.com/crush-symptom-not-cause): I let go of years of guilt over an old crush when I realized it was a symptom of incompatibility, not the reason my marriage ended.
- [No More Middlemen](https://jerrybanfield.com/no-more-middlemen): I dropped chasing a publisher and chose to sell two hours of real connection at my home instead, cutting out the middlemen.
- [Sadness Is the Tax I Pay for Joy](https://jerrybanfield.com/sadness-is-the-tax-for-joy): Crushed by sadness yet weirdly hopeful, I signed the lease on a tiny rental and trusted that joy was on its way.
- [Telling the Kids Was the Hardest Part](https://jerrybanfield.com/telling-the-kids-about-divorce): We told our kids about the divorce, faced their tears and questions, and I started hunting for a place of my own.
- [It's Hell Yes or It's No](https://jerrybanfield.com/hell-yes-or-no): I left massage school, confessed an old crush, and decided I'm done settling for lukewarm: from now on it's hell yes or no.
- [I Stopped Believing All Women Are the Same](https://jerrybanfield.com/not-all-women-are-the-same): I let go of the old line that all women are the same, and started listening to more than one kind of mentor.
- [How Chasing Fame Cost Me My Marriage](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-fame-cost-my-marriage): Clearheaded at last, we agreed divorce was right, and I faced how years lost to online fame quietly stole my marriage.
- [The Man I Was Married Died Last Night](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-married-man-died): I cried through the death of my old life, wrote my wife an amends letter, and felt myself reborn into something new.
- [Naming the Truth We'd Been Avoiding](https://jerrybanfield.com/naming-truth-we-avoided): We finally sat down and admitted our marriage wasn't working, and somehow that painful honesty felt like love.
- [The Day She Said She Was Done](https://jerrybanfield.com/she-said-she-was-done): My wife exploded and asked for a divorce, and I fought hard for our marriage before finding ground beneath my feet again.
- [Why I Refuse to Hide the Messy Parts](https://jerrybanfield.com/refuse-to-hide-messy-parts): A five-star review for my brutally honest diary reminded me why I share the embarrassing truths most people keep hidden.
- [What If We Asked Instead of Ordered?](https://jerrybanfield.com/asking-instead-of-ordering): I turned bedtime commands into questions with my kids and saw how a kinder kind of language could change everything.
- [Living Out Loud Instead of Playing It Safe](https://jerrybanfield.com/living-out-loud-instead-playing-safe): Free of massage school, I gave away book after book, found peace in another author's story, and watched my new AA meeting fill up.
- [Walking Away to Make Room for My Real Work](https://jerrybanfield.com/walking-away-to-make-room-real-work): I chose to leave massage school to commit fully to writing, then learned that joy, not pressure, is the only way to connect.
- [When the Rules Crushed My Vision](https://jerrybanfield.com/when-the-rules-crushed-my-vision): A massage ethics packet showed me the rules clash with who I am, but a long talk helped me see books as my real calling.
- [Too Much Closeness, Not Enough Boundaries](https://jerrybanfield.com/too-much-closeness-not-enough-boundaries): After hours of massage and deep talk I felt raw and low, sensing my gift is writing, not bodywork.
- [One Pass and Done: The Day My Workflow Clicked](https://jerrybanfield.com/one-pass-and-done-workflow-clicked): A simple breakthrough fixed my book workflow, my first AA meeting met, and an hour of really listening to my mom changed everything.
- [Building Something That Fits Me](https://jerrybanfield.com/building-something-that-fits-me): I launched my own AA meeting despite the doubters, played tennis with my son, and wrestled with an AI workflow.
- [Awake Enough to Question the Experts](https://jerrybanfield.com/awake-enough-to-question-experts): From the optometrist's chair to the tennis court, I stopped blindly trusting experts and started trusting what my body knows.
- [Why I Refuse to Stop Asking Hard Questions](https://jerrybanfield.com/refuse-to-stop-asking-hard-questions): I aced my anatomy quiz, then clashed with my instructor because I'd rather be honest than quietly compliant.
- [I'm Turning My Anger Into Something New](https://jerrybanfield.com/turning-anger-into-something-new): Explosive anger at stale meetings became fuel to start my own, and I stopped letting fear block me from sharing my books.
- [A Single Word Cracked Open a New Future](https://jerrybanfield.com/single-word-cracked-open-new-future): One conversation about becoming a chiropractor sent me dreaming about becoming a holistic doctor who heals naturally.
- [Knowing My Body Well Enough to Say Stop](https://jerrybanfield.com/knowing-my-body-enough-to-say-stop): During my rookie massage I spoke up about what I didn't want, learning that helping clients communicate matters most.
- [Why I Believe Honesty Can Keep Disease Away](https://jerrybanfield.com/honesty-can-keep-disease-away): A long talk with an old friend reinforced my belief that living honestly, without destructive secrets, protects the body.
- [The First Time I Laid My Hands on Someone](https://jerrybanfield.com/first-time-laid-hands-on-someone): My first hands-on massage felt strangely awkward, showing me how deeply our culture conditions us away from caring touch.
- [I Stopped Hiding the Ex-YouTuber in Me](https://jerrybanfield.com/stopped-hiding-ex-youtuber): A bouncing yoga ball and a classmate's encouragement helped me stop hiding my past and show up as my full self.
- [My First Day Felt Like Coming Home](https://jerrybanfield.com/first-day-felt-like-coming-home): My first day of massage school felt like home, full of youthful energy, a great massage trade, and a lucky tire repair.
- [The Night Before a Whole New Chapter](https://jerrybanfield.com/night-before-new-chapter): On the eve of massage school I hit 35,000 words on my book and felt a whole new chapter of my life beginning.
- [Why I Refuse to Water Down My Words](https://jerrybanfield.com/refuse-to-water-down-my-words): I dictated 25,000 words in a day and committed to naming things precisely instead of hiding behind vague generalities.
- [Learning to Love Every Kind of Body](https://jerrybanfield.com/learning-to-love-every-body): A friend's insight about warm massage therapists affirmed my hope to soften old judgments and cherish every body.
- [The Letter to My Sisters I Had to Write](https://jerrybanfield.com/letter-to-my-sisters): I dictated a letter to my half-sisters carrying our late father's love and an amends I felt called to make.
- [I Won't Turn My Frustrations Into Tantrums](https://jerrybanfield.com/wont-turn-frustration-into-tantrums): I cut passages that could hurt friends, and learned that real wealth starts with gratitude for what you already have.
- [Going Back to Comfort My Eight-Year-Old Self](https://jerrybanfield.com/comfort-my-eight-year-old-self): In a guided session I revisited my loneliest childhood memory and filled it with rainbows and generations of love.
- [Why I'd Rather Trade Than Get Paid](https://jerrybanfield.com/rather-trade-than-get-paid): I held my printed book, traded a massage for marketing help, and embraced becoming local instead of internet-famous.
- [I Don't Have to Beat Myself Up Anymore](https://jerrybanfield.com/dont-have-to-beat-myself-up): I decided to let my wandering thoughts be playful instead of shameful, and to write at my own pace.
- [I Finally Hit Publish on My Book](https://jerrybanfield.com/finally-hit-publish-on-my-book): I submitted my first book to Amazon, designed the cover myself, and learned to forgive my own wandering mind.
- [Don't Hand Over Your Peace](https://jerrybanfield.com/dont-hand-over-your-peace): In this final entry I reflect on preventable death, fictional worlds, irrational anger, and why massaging strangers will be medicine for my brain.
- [Paying My Son to Do the Dishes](https://jerrybanfield.com/paying-son-do-dishes): I submitted my book to Amazon, kept dismantling my old online life, and learned to delegate by paying my son to wash every dish.
- [Choosing the Internal Yes](https://jerrybanfield.com/choosing-internal-yes): Down 6-0 on the tennis court, I prayed, said yes instead of no, and turned my whole game and outlook around.
- [My Actions Define Me, Not My Thoughts](https://jerrybanfield.com/actions-define-me-not-thoughts): A raw coaching session on my unruly thoughts taught me to reprogram old patterns and trust that my actions define who I am.
- [Walking Into the Rest of My Life](https://jerrybanfield.com/walking-into-rest-of-life): Sitting outside the school about to enroll, I let go of draining relationships and chose the path that finally feels like home.
- [Why I'm Done Chasing the Content Grind](https://jerrybanfield.com/done-chasing-content-grind): Cutting my book down to 60,000 words felt like a fearless inventory, and I see books and massage as the foundation I was missing.
- [The Opposite of Addiction Is Connection](https://jerrybanfield.com/opposite-addiction-connection): I poured myself into turning old transcripts into my book, found compassion in a yoga class, and reaffirmed that connection keeps me alive.
- [A Decade Online and Little to Show for It](https://jerrybanfield.com/decade-online-little-to-show): After a decade and nearly ten thousand videos, I have little to show, so now I'm building a life on long-term vision.
- [A $3,800 Car Bill and Zero Stress](https://jerrybanfield.com/3800-car-bill-zero-stress): I got a $3,800 repair bill on my 19-year-old Corolla and felt no stress at all, just gratitude and a full day of joy.
- [The Unrecognized Heroes All Around Us](https://jerrybanfield.com/unrecognized-heroes-around-us): Watching roofers risk their lives in the heat, I saw the everyday heroes we overlook and remembered my first AA sponsor.
- [I'd Rather Risk Rejection Than Live on Autopilot](https://jerrybanfield.com/rather-risk-rejection-than-autopilot): I handed my in-laws ten thousand words of raw truth, willing to risk rejection rather than settle for shallow connection.
- [Book & Body: The Name That Captures Everything](https://jerrybanfield.com/book-body-name-captures-everything): A playful Ikea day with my ex-wife led to Book & Body, the perfect name uniting everything I want to build.
- [Why I Need the Depths, Not the Surface](https://jerrybanfield.com/need-depths-not-surface): My massage therapist knows me better than my in-laws do, and I refuse to live on the surface with the people who matter most.
- [I Cut Thousands of Words to Find My Story](https://jerrybanfield.com/cut-thousands-words-find-story): I deleted thousands of words I loved to keep my book focused, then dreamed up combining massage and coaching nobody else offers.
- [A Sign Told Me Which School Was Home](https://jerrybanfield.com/sign-told-which-school-home): I walked into the school hoping to dislike it, but a sign tied to my dad told me I'd found where I truly belong.
- [Breaking Out of Survival Mode](https://jerrybanfield.com/breaking-out-survival-mode): Finishing Liz Murray's memoir, I saw I've left survival mode behind and learned the help I needed wasn't what I expected.
- [I Stayed in My Seat and Held Her Hand](https://jerrybanfield.com/stayed-seat-held-her-hand): I held a homeless woman's hand despite the smell, toured a massage school, and practiced asking for what I want.
- [Better Input Creates Better Output](https://jerrybanfield.com/better-input-better-output): A better microphone reminded me that quality input shapes everything, and I decided to explore massage school.
- [Fun Is Valuable, but Satisfying Is Too](https://jerrybanfield.com/fun-valuable-satisfying-too): On the kids' first school day I talked openly about intimacy, then taught my son the difference between fun and satisfying.
- [Why I Said Yes to Trying Something New](https://jerrybanfield.com/yes-trying-something-new): I tried pickleball with the yoga crew, gave money to a homeless friend, and chose enthusiasm as my way of life.
- [High Standards Are the Bar for a Life Worth Living](https://jerrybanfield.com/high-standards-life-worth-living): From tennis with a woman in her sixties to a first-client massage, I explored why I hold high standards in love and life.
- [I Own My Dark Thoughts Instead of Projecting Them](https://jerrybanfield.com/own-dark-thoughts-not-projecting): I overpaid an eBay refund, faced family anger over a declined wedding, and talked about owning the traits we project onto others.
- [The Day Life Felt Like a Choreographed Dance](https://jerrybanfield.com/life-felt-like-choreographed-dance): Camp Dad at the water park turned into a string of uncanny coincidences, and I finished outlining my next book.
- [Clearing Out the Old to Make Room](https://jerrybanfield.com/clearing-out-old-make-room): I gave away a thousand dollars of production gear to make room to write — pushing past the resistance that keeps us stuck.
- [I Finally Named My First Book](https://jerrybanfield.com/finally-named-my-first-book): I landed on the title for my first real book, wrote a hard letter declining a family wedding, and kept purging my old gear.
- [I Sold My $2,000 PC for $300 and Felt Lighter](https://jerrybanfield.com/sold-pc-300-felt-lighter): I sold my gaming PC back to the man who built it for a fraction of its cost, and the instant lightness made room to write.
- [What's Good for Me Feels So Bad](https://jerrybanfield.com/whats-good-feels-bad): Logic says pawning my consoles and music gear frees me, but the irrational part of me still screams to take it all back.
- [I Handed Them My Truth and Wept](https://jerrybanfield.com/handed-them-truth-wept): I finally delivered my honest letter to a family member in person, and the vulnerability brought unplanned tears and unexpected relief.
- [Who Makes Amends to Me?](https://jerrybanfield.com/who-makes-amends-me): I keep making amends to everyone who hurt me, but I'm tired of being the bigger person when no one ever apologizes back.
- [I Knew I'd Regret It and Ate It Anyway](https://jerrybanfield.com/knew-regret-ate-anyway): I overate again tonight despite knowing better, and I'm sitting with that insanity while dreaming of writing personal books for the people I love.
- [I Quit Chasing Clicks to Write My Life](https://jerrybanfield.com/quit-chasing-clicks-write-life): I'm closing my YouTube chapter to become a local author, documenting my life honestly one diary entry at a time without chasing metrics.
- [New Year's Eve Diary: Board Games, Tennis, and Why Only ICP Is Real](https://jerrybanfield.com/new-years-eve-diary-board-games-tennis): My New Year's Eve 2024 diary: board games with my kids, counting tennis shots, an AA meeting, a patio haul, and why only ICP is real.
- [My Wife Started to Feel Like a Stranger, and I'm Grateful I Noticed](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-wife-started-to-feel-like-a-stranger): A December 30, 2024 diary: locking up $9,000 in ICP, an hour-long call about long-term gains, and realizing I'd quietly stopped working on romance with my wife.
- [How I Hit Over 100 Three-Pointers at 40 for the First Time](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-i-hit-over-100-three-pointers-at-40): A December 29, 2024 diary vlog: hitting over 100 three-pointers at 40, winning 2v2 and 1v1, plus reading the room and making music that nourishes.
- [Why I Treat Video Games Like Alcohol Now](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-treat-video-games-like-alcohol): A day-after-Christmas diary: anxious dogs, AA honesty, crypto ethics, and why I now treat video games like alcohol and quit them entirely.
- [Two Christmases, an ICP Tip From the Toilet, and Wanting to Know You Better](https://jerrybanfield.com/two-christmases-and-an-icp-tip): My Christmas Day 2024: two Christmases for the kids, why I don't buy gifts, a $333 call, an ICP tip from the toilet, and wanting to know you better.
- [The Boundary That Let Me Enjoy Christmas Eve](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-boundary-that-let-me-enjoy-christmas): On Christmas Eve 2024, I cut one toxic family member out, set a 90-10 rule for every relationship, and finally felt free to enjoy the holiday.
- [Just Wait, and Life Gives You Exactly What You Want](https://jerrybanfield.com/just-wait-and-life-gives-you-exactly): A December 23, 2024 day in my life: a thieving dog, twelve Christmas cookies, two hours of dishes, an AA meeting, and why patience pays off with ICP.
- [I'm Already Rich. So What Do I Do All Day?](https://jerrybanfield.com/im-already-rich-so-what-do-i-do-all-day): A daily diary on feeling already wealthy off ICP, building my own patio, making a trap song to review a coin, and why community beats diet.
- [The Day I Turned My Channel Into a Diary Just for Me](https://jerrybanfield.com/turned-my-channel-into-a-diary): On November 30, 2024 I decided to make my channel a diary just for me: asking for help, AA, family, gratitude, and getting back into music.
- [Life Is a Movie You Chose to Watch](https://jerrybanfield.com/life-is-a-movie-you-chose-to-watch): A day in my life: trading tennis doubles for singles, telling my AA meeting that life is a movie you chose to watch, crypto, family, and music.
- [The Yoga Crush That Made Me Feel Alive Again](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-yoga-crush-that-made-me-feel-alive): On January 22, 2023, a yoga crush and a new crypto channel had me feeling more alive than I'd been in years, even as everyone told me to stop going to class.
- [The Woman at Yoga, and the Warning That Saved My Marriage](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-woman-at-yoga): Two months of talking to a woman at yoga, until my AA mentor pulled me aside and showed me how close I'd come to destroying my marriage and my sobriety.
- [The Morning I Cried Through Yoga, Then Sobbed With Joy](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-morning-i-cried-through-yoga): On a February 2023 morning I cried through an entire yoga class, then a deadmau5 song broke me open and I sobbed with joy at being alive.
- [The Halloween I Threw Out My Scale and Just Played](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-halloween-i-threw-out-my-scale): A Halloween diary: playing tennis like lasers, freestyling on Splice, throwing out my scale, and learning to trust my body and choose play.
- [Losing 18 to 1 and Saying Yes to the Moment](https://jerrybanfield.com/losing-18-to-1-and-saying-yes): My October 30, 2024 diary: getting beaten 18 to 1 at tennis, The Inner Game of Tennis, saying yes to the moment, and a runny nose as crying.
- [Fixing My Sister-in-Law's Fence Felt More Meaningful Than My Studio](https://jerrybanfield.com/fixing-my-sister-in-laws-fence): A diary day fixing my sister-in-law's fallen fence reminded me how satisfying tangible, meaningful work can be compared to time alone in my studio.
- [The Day Fixing a Fence Gave Me Everything I Needed](https://jerrybanfield.com/fixing-a-fence-gave-me-everything): I spent a whole day fixing my sister-in-law's fence for free, and the chore most people dread turned into the most joyful thing I did all day.
- [The Tennis Lesson That Taught Me to Ask for Help](https://jerrybanfield.com/tennis-lesson-taught-me-to-ask-for-help): On October 29, 2024, my first tennis lesson reminded me how much asking for help and other people's feedback can change your whole outlook on life.
- [The Alternate Reality My Wife and I Imagined Together](https://jerrybanfield.com/alternate-reality-with-my-wife): A Dear Diary entry: imagining an alternate timeline with my wife Laura, why manifesting the negative takes effort, and a tennis lesson about life.
- [The Woman at Yoga I Judged for a Year](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-woman-at-yoga-i-judged-for-a-year): On October 27, 2024, I finally talked to a woman I'd judged at yoga for over a year — and it turned into a lesson on why I don't believe age makes you sick.
- [Dear Diary, October 26, 2024: Learning to Enjoy Being Sad](https://jerrybanfield.com/dear-diary-enjoy-being-sad): A diary from October 26, 2024: building furniture, A Mother's Reckoning, telling my AA meeting I am God, and learning to enjoy even my sad moods.
- [Picking My Battles After Hurricane Milton](https://jerrybanfield.com/picking-my-battles-after-hurricane): On October 11, 2024, with the power still out after Hurricane Milton, I learned that being a grown-up means knowing which battles to surrender.
- [Evacuating for Hurricane Milton, and Finding Peace by Candlelight](https://jerrybanfield.com/evacuating-for-hurricane-milton): On October 9, 2024, I evacuated for Hurricane Milton, packed my whole life into a Corolla, and found gratitude reading by candlelight as the storm hit.
- [The Day After Hurricane Milton: Trees Down, Power Out, House Standing](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-day-after-hurricane-milton): The day after Hurricane Milton, I drove home through a St. Pete I didn't recognize: trees down, power out, and a house still standing. Why I'm never evacuating again.
- [Counting the Shots I Make, Not the Ones I Miss](https://jerrybanfield.com/counting-the-shots-i-make): On October 25, 2024, a tennis clinic taught me to count the shots I make instead of the ones I miss, plus an honest moment with my wife.
- [The Day I Said Goodbye to YouTube and Leaned Into the Unknown](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-day-i-said-goodbye-to-youtube): On August 14, 2024, I posted my goodbye live stream, quit YouTube and crypto, and leaned into the unknown to figure out what comes next.
- [The Day I Decided to Turn My Life Into a Comedy Diary](https://jerrybanfield.com/turn-my-life-into-a-comedy-diary): Why I woke up at 4am to start documenting my life in short comedy diary entries, inspired by David Sedaris and a chat with my friend Melissa.
- [Remembering the Day I Was Born: Choosing My Parents to Incarnate on June 15, 1984](https://jerrybanfield.com/remembering-the-day-i-was-born): Remembering my birth on June 15, 1984 from the soul's side: choosing my parents, the claustrophobia of being born, and the shock and joy of my first breath.
- [Flying Back to Earth: The Evening I Chose to Incarnate Again](https://jerrybanfield.com/flying-back-to-earth-incarnate-again): On the evening of June 15, 1983, I picture my soul leaving the sun, flying back to Earth like a phoenix, and choosing the life and parents I want.
- [The Morning I Hit Rock Bottom and a Thought About AA Gave Me Hope](https://jerrybanfield.com/rock-bottom-and-a-thought-about-aa): On April 22, 2014, I woke up throwing up blood and hopeless, and a single thought about an AA meeting gave me the first real hope of getting sober.
- [My Hurricane Helene and Milton Stand-Up Comedy Set](https://jerrybanfield.com/hurricane-stand-up-comedy): My stand-up comedy set after Hurricanes Helene and Milton hit Florida, where I heckle myself about flooded neighborhoods, evacuating, and a 3am routine.
- [Remembering Being Born and Choosing My Parents](https://jerrybanfield.com/remembering-being-born-choosing-parents): How I remember being born and choosing my parents, the hypnotherapy and breathwork memories behind it, and why I believe we each chose to be here.
- [The End of Your World: Why I'm Here to Dream a Better Dream](https://jerrybanfield.com/im-here-to-dream-a-better-dream): My review of The End of Your World by Adyashanti: moments of awakening, the ego's traps, and why I'd rather dream a better dream than annihilate myself.
- [You Never Think a Thought by Yourself](https://jerrybanfield.com/you-never-think-a-thought-by-yourself): Why I believe telepathy is real and you never think a thought alone, plus the 48-hour story that convinced me we share one connected pool of thoughts.
- [You Created Your Disease, and on Some Level You Love It](https://jerrybanfield.com/you-created-your-disease-and-you-love): Why I believe we create our own diseases to fulfill unacknowledged desires, and how taking radical responsibility changed my health, recovery, and life.
- [How Music Increases Creativity, Intelligence, and Happiness](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-music-increases-creativity): Why I believe new sounds and frequencies in music can expand your brain, lift your mood, and unlock creativity, intelligence, and happiness.
- [I Finally Set Boundaries with My Mother](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-finally-set-boundaries-with-my-mother): On Mother's Day I finally set boundaries with my mother, an addict living across the street, and learned to love her from a distance.
- [Loving Your Mind Even When It Thinks Insane Thoughts](https://jerrybanfield.com/loving-your-mind-even-when-it-thinks): A breakthrough I had: I can love my mind exactly as it is, even when it thinks dark, insane thoughts, because my actions, not my thoughts, define me.
- [How Not to Be Angry All the Time](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-not-to-be-angry-all-the-time): What works for me to stop being angry all the time: feel the emotion, cut the story, release it through the body, and stop taking things personally.
- [Healthy Coping Mechanisms for Men Facing Intimacy Disorders](https://jerrybanfield.com/healthy-coping-mechanisms-for-men): In my experience in recovery from sex and love addiction, here are the coping mechanisms that helped me: prayer, massage, creativity, meetings, and dating.
- [Here Is Hope for Your Health Challenges](https://jerrybanfield.com/here-is-hope-for-your-health-challenges): An encouraging, first-person talk on the health challenges I've overcome, the books that helped me, and the hope I've found for healing.
- [I Unlocked Feeling Is the Secret 5 Years Before I Found Neville Goddard](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-unlocked-feeling-is-the-secret-5-years): I discovered Neville Goddard's feeling is the secret five years before reading him, and how feeling wealthy, sober, and healthy reshaped my whole life.
- [10 Years Sober: From Hopeless to Happy, Joyous, and Free](https://jerrybanfield.com/10-years-sober-happy-joyous-and-free): Ten years sober in AA: from my last hopeless hangover to a life of joy, taking suggestions, working the steps, and the gifts of recovery.
- [A Thought Experiment About Waking Up in Another Body](https://jerrybanfield.com/waking-up-in-another-body): A thought experiment about waking up in another body: my story of dying, returning, and what it taught me about consciousness, choice, and empathy.
- [I Remember Choosing to Incarnate Here, and You Can Too](https://jerrybanfield.com/remembering-choosing-to-incarnate): I remember choosing to incarnate on earth and picking my parents, and how recovering that memory sober through hypnotherapy freed me from being a victim.
- [What If You Never Got Sick Again](https://jerrybanfield.com/what-if-you-never-got-sick-again): After a year and a half with no sick days, here is what I have come to believe about health, the mental side of illness, and never getting sick again.
- [I Haven't Been Sick Since October 2022 — My Best Health Ever](https://jerrybanfield.com/best-health-since-october-2022): I have not had a single sick day since October 2022. Here is the mindset, mind-body work, and daily practices that, in my experience, got me there.
- [We Can All Do Work We Love and Take Turns on the Dirty Jobs](https://jerrybanfield.com/work-we-love-take-turns-dirty-jobs): What if everyone did work they love and we all took turns on the dirty jobs? My vision for a future with no jobs people hate, just communities pitching in.
- [Solved: "We Couldn't Create a New Partition or Locate an Existing One" (Just Delete It)](https://jerrybanfield.com/couldnt-create-a-new-partition-fix): Fix the Windows "we couldn't create a new partition or locate an existing one" error: delete every partition, create a new one, and reinstall drivers.
- [The Night My Daughter Was Born](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-night-my-daughter-was-born): The night my daughter Madeline was born in 2015, the meep that surprised the midwife, and how a dad's love grew slowly instead of all at once.
- [Rediscovering Play, Fun, and Laughter](https://jerrybanfield.com/rediscovering-play-fun-and-laughter): How I stopped being so serious and rediscovered play, making three random, hilarious music videos that reminded me what fun and laughter feel like.
- [Just Be Bored and You'll Level Up](https://jerrybanfield.com/just-be-bored-and-youll-level-up): Why being bored is a sign you just succeeded, and how I turn boredom into growth by setting a conscious intention instead of relapsing into old addictions.
- [The Power of Positive Self-Talk](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-power-of-positive-self-talk): How I believe reprogramming my self-talk changed my health, money, and relationships, and how you can examine and rewrite your own unconscious beliefs.
- [How the Universe Tests You Before Your Reality Changes](https://jerrybanfield.com/universe-tests-you-before-your-reality): In my experience, the universe tests you before your reality changes. My stories about manifesting my wife, getting sober, and restoring my eyesight.
- [If You're in Your 30s, Lost, and Feel Like You've Achieved Nothing](https://jerrybanfield.com/in-your-30s-lost-and-achieved-nothing): At 30, sober just a few months, I felt I'd achieved nothing. Here's why your mess is the gold that builds the life you want, from my experience.
- [Telling Myself I Was Rich Until It Came True](https://jerrybanfield.com/telling-myself-i-was-rich-until): How I told myself I was rich at my most broke, $650k in debt, and what that belief and affirmation practice did for my life.
- [How I Hacked Reality to Get Anything I Want](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-i-hacked-reality-to-get-anything): How I believe I hacked reality to get the life I wanted: taking total responsibility, I-am affirmations, health, and creating my own reality.
- [From Overweight to Healthy: My Permanent Weight Loss Journey](https://jerrybanfield.com/from-overweight-to-healthy-permanent): How I lost 80 pounds and kept it off for over seven years through sobriety, accountability with MyFitnessPal, and eating mostly whole plant foods.
- [From Hopeless Alcoholic to 10 Years Happily Sober](https://jerrybanfield.com/from-hopeless-alcoholic-to-10-years): How I went from a hopeless, relapsing alcoholic to almost 10 years happily sober in AA: my last drink, my first meeting, and the breakthrough.
- [Healing After Heartache: A Guide to Dealing With Tragedy](https://jerrybanfield.com/healing-after-heartache-a-guide): How I turn grief into growth: keeping my heart open, letting the first wave of feeling come, and learning from loss in AA, my dad's death, and beyond.
- [The Truth About AA: Meetings, the 12 Steps, the Big Book, and Sponsors](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-truth-about-aa-meetings-the-12-steps): With almost 9 years sober, I share the truth about AA meetings, working the 12 steps, the Big Book, and what a good sponsor really does.
- [Top 10 Secret Space Program Books and Movies](https://jerrybanfield.com/top-10-secret-space-program-books): My top 10 secret space program books and movies, from Bob Lazar's Dreamland to Tony Rodriguez, plus what I saw firsthand about the elite class.
- [How Not to Take Things Personally](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-not-to-take-things-personally): How I learned not to take things personally: take inventory, own my emotions, set an intention, and understand what the other person is going through.
- [The Lunch Box Bully Who Taught Me to Walk Away](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-lunch-box-bully): A seventh-grade fight over a green lunch box knocked me out cold, and decades later it taught me who the real bully was and how to walk away.
- [How to Forgive a Parent Who Disowned You](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-to-forgive-a-parent-who-disowned-you): How I helped my mom forgive the parents who disowned her, by finding gratitude for the whole life that grew out of being cut off.
- [Insiders Reveal Secret Space Programs by Michael Salla](https://jerrybanfield.com/insiders-reveal-secret-space-programs): My deep dive into Michael Salla's book Insiders Reveal Secret Space Programs: secrecy, disclosure, suppressed tech, and two paths to ascension.
- [Dreamland by Bob Lazar: Reverse-Engineering Alien Spacecraft at Area 51](https://jerrybanfield.com/dreamland-bob-lazar-area-51): My take on Dreamland by Bob Lazar, the physicist who says he reverse-engineered alien spacecraft at Area 51, and why his story opened my mind.
- [Discussing Seth Speaks: The Eternal Validity of the Soul by Jane Roberts](https://jerrybanfield.com/discussing-seth-speaks-the-eternal): My discussion of Seth Speaks by Jane Roberts: the eternal validity of the soul, the law of attraction, forgiveness, and why I believe we never really die.
- [Discussing Ancient Aliens, UFOs, World History, and the Future of the Galaxy](https://jerrybanfield.com/discussing-ancient-aliens-ufos-world): My favorite show, Ancient Aliens, opened my mind to UFOs, Bob Lazar, the pyramids, Majestic 12, and our place in the galaxy. Here is what excites me about it.
- [Mind Over Medicine by Dr. Lissa Rankin: Can You Heal Yourself?](https://jerrybanfield.com/mind-over-medicine-by-dr-lissa-rankin): My discussion of Dr. Lissa Rankin's book Mind Over Medicine and what I believe about community, the mind-body connection, sobriety, and healing.
- [How to Release Uncomfortable Emotions and Take Control of Challenging Situations](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-to-release-uncomfortable-emotions): How I release uncomfortable emotions from a place of self-love, let go of the story, forgive myself, and focus on exactly how I want my life to be.
- [I Talked Myself Into One More Drink](https://jerrybanfield.com/talked-myself-into-one-more-drink): Convinced my life was finally fixed, I rationalized my way back to drinking and found I was happiest right after getting what I wanted.
- [We Have 99% in Common](https://jerrybanfield.com/ninety-nine-percent-in-common): I explore how seeing myself in those kids, and reframing my story, taught me the difference between shame and truth.
- [Training on Hope at Juvenile Justice](https://jerrybanfield.com/training-on-hope-at-djj): I walked into corrections training full of hope and a graduation speech, never guessing how fast the reality would hit me.
- [Rock Bottom and the Desperate Job Hunt](https://jerrybanfield.com/rock-bottom-and-the-job-hunt): Broke, in debt, and turned away everywhere, I took the job nobody wanted and learned what I would and would not do for money.
- [Why I Refused to Sweep My Story Under the Rug](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-share-my-whole-truth): I explain why I shared every honest detail, because the courage I found in AA showed me that telling our truth is how we heal.
- [There Is Life After the Badge](https://jerrybanfield.com/life-after-the-badge): I describe being pushed to quit, rebuilding through grad school and business, and learning a perfect life still couldn't fix my drinking.
- [I Kept Hoping for a Chance to Be a Hero](https://jerrybanfield.com/hoping-to-be-a-hero): I recount the mental-health calls and quiet nights, and why I'm grateful those years stayed peaceful.
- [How I Decided Who Went to Jail](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-i-decided-who-went-to-jail): I reveal how compliance, mood, and court loopholes decided who I arrested, exposing the arbitrary power I held.
- [The DUI Stop That Started to Break Me](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-dui-stop-that-broke-me): I stopped a drunk girl who was the mirror image of me, and arresting her began cracking the denial about my own drinking.
- [My War on the Homeless I Now Regret](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-war-on-the-homeless-i-regret): I admit how I targeted homeless men as a young officer, and how recovery taught me to see the people I once dismissed.
- [I Treated Traffic Stops Like a Video Game](https://jerrybanfield.com/traffic-stops-like-a-video-game): I hunted DUIs from hidden spots and snuck onto campus drunk, grateful my near misses stayed near misses.
- [Ten Miles a Night: Policing on a Budget](https://jerrybanfield.com/ten-miles-policing-on-a-budget): I share how mileage caps and garage shifts shaped my campus policing, and the trust I'm grateful I never abused.
- [Driving 700 Miles for the Wrong Reasons](https://jerrybanfield.com/driving-700-miles-wrong-reasons): I chased reckless choices and lived inside a circle of hate, and I share how I finally found my way out of all of it.
- [Drunk, Armed, and Chasing the Next High](https://jerrybanfield.com/drunk-armed-chasing-next-high): Bar fights and a gun on the bathroom floor showed how dangerous a badge in a blackout really was.
- [How I Used People and Called It a Life](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-i-used-people-called-it-life): I am ashamed of how I manipulated and bullied someone close to me, and I share it so we can treat each other better.
- [The Relationship I Kept Just Out of Loneliness](https://jerrybanfield.com/relationship-i-kept-out-of-loneliness): I held onto an empty connection that kept me from anything real, living out the loneliness my drinking years were built on.
- [When I Stopped Believing in the System](https://jerrybanfield.com/stopped-believing-in-the-system): The blue line and status bias convinced me the whole criminal justice system was arbitrary, and it changed how I policed.
- [The Night My Idealism About Justice Died](https://jerrybanfield.com/night-my-idealism-died): Watching status decide who got arrested planted a hypocrisy in me that grew into believing the rules did not apply to me.
- [Tased, Sprayed, and Sent Out on Patrol](https://jerrybanfield.com/tased-sprayed-sent-on-patrol): Field training meant getting tased and pepper sprayed, then watching a powerful family quietly get a free pass at 3 a.m.
- [What Honesty Really Means to Me Now](https://jerrybanfield.com/what-honesty-really-means-now): Passing the polygraph taught me that leaving things out is still a lie, and that we heal by talking about everything.
- [Visualizing My Way Past the Polygraph](https://jerrybanfield.com/visualizing-past-the-polygraph): I rehearsed passing the polygraph a hundred times in my head while hiding the shame I was carrying underneath.
- [How I Talked My Way Into a Badge](https://jerrybanfield.com/talked-my-way-into-a-badge): I wanted that police job so badly my mind found a way through the interview and the tests, even while I was still drinking.
- [When Boredom Was My Biggest Enemy](https://jerrybanfield.com/when-boredom-was-my-biggest-enemy): I craved the chaos of every call to burn off my restless energy, until one boring night I decided it was the Air Force or a drink.
- [I Lied to My Doctor to Get Back to Work](https://jerrybanfield.com/lied-to-doctor-to-get-back-to-work): The pills numbed my back but slowed my healing, so I lied to the doctor and went back to work because the job kept me sober.
- [Rebounding Sober While My Body Paid the Price](https://jerrybanfield.com/rebounding-sober-body-paid-price): Months sober I chased dates, then wrecked my out-of-shape back wrestling a patient I'd set myself up to be hurt by.
- [A Gunshot Behind Us, and Why I Felt No Fear](https://jerrybanfield.com/gunshot-behind-us-why-no-fear): When a shot rang out behind our patrol car my partner fled but I felt only excitement, and that scared me more than any bullet.
- [Becoming a Cop and Learning Your Worldview Comes True](https://jerrybanfield.com/becoming-cop-worldview-comes-true): My first job as an officer taught me that the world of bias you expect to see is often the world you end up creating.
- [I Aced Every Shooting Scenario, Then Sold All My Guns](https://jerrybanfield.com/aced-shooting-then-sold-my-guns): Telling the truth made me a pariah and I tore through every simulation, yet today I practice nonviolence and gave up my guns for good.
- [I Kept My Lowest Point a Secret, Then Told the Truth](https://jerrybanfield.com/kept-lowest-point-secret-told-truth): I buried my darkest moment in shame, then graduated the academy and wrote an honest report even when it cost me every friend there.
- [The Game I Wouldn't Pause, and the Love I Lost](https://jerrybanfield.com/game-i-wouldnt-pause-love-i-lost): I relapsed promising to pace myself, lost my girlfriend, and on a drive across town my racing mind went silent for a moment of grace.
- [The Driving Test and the Drunken Nights](https://jerrybanfield.com/driving-test-and-drunken-nights): I recount a wild drunken night and the terrifying driving exam I failed first, then aced in the zone to finish the academy.
- [Passing the Tests, Failing the People Who Loved Me](https://jerrybanfield.com/passing-tests-failing-people-i-loved): I cleared the academy's obstacle course and firearms with ease, even as my drinking and selfishness pushed my girlfriend away.
- [Getting the Badge and Losing My Footing](https://jerrybanfield.com/getting-the-badge-losing-my-footing): I finally became a police officer, then quietly lost my sobriety and started sabotaging the relationship that had carried me.
- [Leaving on My Own Terms](https://jerrybanfield.com/leaving-on-my-own-terms): I reflect on growing comfortable as an officer, watching coworkers fall, and seeing how little separates me from the kids I guarded.
- [The Sick Leave That Saved My Life](https://jerrybanfield.com/sick-leave-that-saved-my-life): I tell how telling the truth about my health forced a break that got me sober, brought back my family, and restored my imagination.
- [The Contradictions I Carried](https://jerrybanfield.com/contradictions-i-carried): I confess the ugly contradictions I lived in active addiction, the dark thoughts I hid, and why I finally broke down physically.
- [Surviving Inside the Kids' Own Rules](https://jerrybanfield.com/surviving-the-kids-own-rules): I describe learning the unwritten code of the unit, the code of silence, and reading tiny signals to stay safe on shift.
- [How Laughing at Violence Taught Me to Choose Love](https://jerrybanfield.com/laughing-at-violence-choosing-love): I share how my drinking, a bar ejection, and a brutal fight showed me that mocking violence only breeds more of it.
- [The Resentment Behind the Badge](https://jerrybanfield.com/resentment-behind-the-badge): Mad at the world for low pay and hard nights, I let resentment shape how I treated everyone around me, even strangers.
- [Running the Gauntlet Inside](https://jerrybanfield.com/running-the-gauntlet-at-djj): My first months on the units felt like a trip through hell, and the loneliness drove me straight back into old habits.
- [How Small Wrong Decisions Added Up](https://jerrybanfield.com/small-wrong-decisions-add-up): One little compromise led to the next until my whole life had quietly slid downhill, and I trace exactly how it happened.
- [How a Good Kid Ended Up in Law Enforcement](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-a-good-kid-chose-law-enforcement): I went from a pure high school kid to chasing a badge, and here is the honest story of how that change happened.
- [The Last Look I Never Forgot](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-dispatchers-last-look): I blamed everyone but the bottle, and only years later did I admit the truth about losing my job and finding recovery.
- [The Day They Took My Badge](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-day-they-took-my-badge): How my best arrest became my last day in uniform, and the phone call to my parents that started my long road back.
- [My Last Day Behind the Badge](https://jerrybanfield.com/last-day-behind-the-badge): My career caught up with me, but even on my final shifts I still went the extra mile trying to actually protect and serve.
- [The Emptiness I Couldn't Fill](https://jerrybanfield.com/emptiness-i-couldnt-fill): I tried to fill the emptiness inside with money and reckless choices, and I treated people in ways I deeply regret.
- [The Trip That Shattered Everything](https://jerrybanfield.com/trip-that-shattered-everything): A drunken blowup over my backup gun ended the trip in disaster and left me more broken than I had ever been.
- [Miserable at the Beach with My Dream Girl](https://jerrybanfield.com/miserable-beach-dream-girl): On the out-of-town trip I had begged for, I learned the worst thing that can happen is getting exactly what you wanted.
- [My Dad Drove In to Keep Me Alive](https://jerrybanfield.com/dad-drove-in-to-keep-me-alive): At my lowest, most hopeless point I told my dad the truth, and he dropped everything to come stay with me before my birthday.
- [The Night I Got Her and Lost Myself](https://jerrybanfield.com/night-i-got-her-lost-myself): Getting exactly what I had fantasized about left me emptier than ever, and my drinking spiraled into things I'm still ashamed of.
- [Twelve Hours Alone and a Blackout Weekend](https://jerrybanfield.com/twelve-hours-blackout-weekend): A punishment shift gave me what I wanted, and a house party showed me just how far my drinking had already taken me.
- [I Chose the Dispatcher Over the Promotion](https://jerrybanfield.com/chose-dispatcher-over-promotion): Sitting at my desk as the rising star, I knowingly traded my shot at corporal to chase the dispatcher I couldn't stop wanting.
- [Quitting the Badge Didn't Save Me from Myself](https://jerrybanfield.com/quitting-badge-didnt-save-me): I thought leaving law enforcement would fix my drinking, but years later I learned I was powerless and needed real recovery.
- [The Truth I Was Too Ashamed to Tell](https://jerrybanfield.com/truth-too-ashamed-to-tell): I'm finally telling the ugliest, most honest stories from my years as a South Carolina officer, hoping my change proves anyone can change.

## Internet Computer (ICP)
- [ICP at $10,000 Might Ruin My Life](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-at-10-000-might-ruin-my-life): Jerry Banfield's thought experiment on what $10,000 ICP would really do to his life: fame, handouts, lawsuits, dating, and why today might be better.
- [ICP Will Be the Number One Crypto with Bitcoin Number 2 and ETH 3](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-number-one-crypto): Why I see ICP flipping Bitcoin and Ethereum for the number one spot in crypto, based on my technology-first rankings at CryptoTechCap.com.
- [I Made My Own Game with AI Hosted on ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-made-my-own-game-with-ai-hosted-on-icp): I built a crypto zombie game with one AI prompt and hosted it fully on the ICP blockchain — built-in payments, no censorship, and no servers to crash.
- [Crypto DeFi Is Broken. ICP Fixed It](https://jerrybanfield.com/crypto-defi-is-broken-icp-fixed): Why I believe ICP has the safest DeFi in crypto: no bridges or third parties, non-custodial protocols like Liquidium, NNS staking, and a 97/100 capability score.
- [Polkadot and Kusama are My Second Place Crypto Tech Picks After ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/polkadot-kusama-second-place): My Crypto Tech Cap methodology scored 100 blockchains on 100 yes-or-no questions. Polkadot and Kusama came out second — far behind ICP.
- [Justin Bons Attacks ICP, Dominic Williams Fires Back with Facts](https://jerrybanfield.com/justin-bons-attacks-icp): Justin Bons called ICP a terrible design. I break down Dominic Williams' reply and why node counts don't equal decentralization.
- [ICP Is the Only Crypto That Lets Me Relax](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-is-the-only-crypto-that-lets-me): Why Internet Computer Protocol gives me peace of mind in crypto: quitting price-checking addiction, DCA into ICP, fundamentals over charts, and using the tech.
- [DFINITY's "Bad Marketing" For ICP Is Actually Genius](https://jerrybanfield.com/dfinitys-bad-marketing-for-icp): Why DFINITY's quiet, low-key marketing for ICP signals a massive position of strength, and why the low price could be your window to accumulate.
- [ICP Is the Only Real Business in Crypto](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-is-the-only-real-business-in-crypto): Why I believe Internet Computer (ICP) is the only crypto with a real business: on-chain hosting, real revenue, product before price, and my plan.
- [ICP Will Take Over Crypto (My Interview with Blockchain Pill)](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-will-take-over-crypto): My live interview with Blockchain Pill on why ICP is the future of crypto, the SNS launchpad, neuron locks, taking profits, and keeping conviction.
- [Bitcoin Is NOT the King of Crypto](https://jerrybanfield.com/bitcoin-is-not-the-king-of-crypto): Why I believe Bitcoin isn't the king of crypto and the Internet Computer is: technology, governance, AI readiness, and real on-chain utility.
- [ICP Turned Crypto Into a Ticking Time Bomb](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-turned-crypto-into-a-ticking-time): Why I believe ICP turned the rest of crypto into a ticking time bomb: real tech, suppressed price, and the repricing I think is coming.
- [Every Bitcoin Narrative Makes More Sense for ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-bitcoin-narrative): Why every Bitcoin narrative, peer-to-peer cash, digital gold, be your own bank, censorship resistance, sound money, actually makes more sense on ICP.
- [SUI’s Co-Founder Just Proved Why ICP Is the Future (He Doesn’t Even Know It)](https://jerrybanfield.com/sui-co-founder-proved-icp-future): Sui’s co-founder unveiled a plan for AI agents to run on-chain finance — and to me it’s accidental proof ICP already does what other chains only promise.
- [If ICP Is That Great, Why Isn't the Price Higher?](https://jerrybanfield.com/if-icp-is-that-great-why-isnt-price): The question I get most: if ICP's tech is that great, wouldn't the price reflect it? My honest take on why today's price reflects suppression, not the technology.
- [How ICP Prevents Cybercrime by Removing Weak Backends](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-prevents-cybercrime-weak-backends): Cybercrime costs $10 trillion a year. Here's why I think ICP is the best solution — it removes the weak, hackable backends almost every breach exploits, like my own site shows.
- [ICP Is the Only Real AI Coin in Crypto](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-only-real-ai-coin): My case for why ICP is the only real AI coin: AI needs sovereign, verifiable infrastructure no other chain provides — and could even pay for its own existence on ICP.
- [Crypto Mass Adoption Will Only Happen Through ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/crypto-mass-adoption-only-through-icp): Why I believe crypto mass adoption will only happen on the Internet Computer — because people can use the blockchain without ever knowing they're on one, like my whole website does.
- [Why the World Needs Crypto, and Especially ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-the-world-needs-crypto): Why I believe crypto matters: transparent money, shared ownership, and how Internet Computer Protocol solves problems Bitcoin and meme coins can't.
- [Why Owning 100 ICP Is a Big Deal in Crypto](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-owning-100-icp-is-a-big-deal): Why I believe 100 ICP is a key accumulation threshold: supply math, 13.5% staking rewards, holder rankings, and compounding maturity. Not financial advice.
- [Why I'm Deleting My Crypto Channel and Going All-In on One](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-im-deleting-my-crypto-channel): Why I'm deleting my Jerry Banfield crypto channel, consolidating everything into one place, and refusing to stay a one-dimensional creator.
- [Why ICP Is My Easiest Passive Income Setup for 2025](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-icp-is-my-easiest-passive-income): I share why I locked up my ICP for 13%+ APR, how I compound voting rewards, and why I believe Internet Computer Protocol is undervalued. Not financial advice.
- [Why ICP Has the Best Tokenomics in Crypto, By Far](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-icp-has-the-best-tokenomics): My research into Internet Computer Protocol tokenomics: under 3% real inflation, eight-year voting rewards, ICP burn, and why on-chain hosting changes everything.
- [Why I Invested My Life Savings Into ICP Crypto](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-invested-my-life-savings-into-icp): Why I put my entire life savings into Internet Computer Protocol: full blockchain hosting, OpenChat, cybersecurity, and a real new financial system.
- [Why Bitcoin's Future Is Being Built on ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-bitcoins-future-is-being-built): Why I believe the future of Bitcoin building is on Internet Computer Protocol, how Caffeine AI lets anyone build Bitcoin apps, and where ICP wins long term.
- [Why $1 Trillion of Global Wealth Will Move Into ICP Crypto](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-1-trillion-of-global-wealth-will): Why I believe a trillion dollars of global wealth will move into Internet Computer Protocol: real on-chain utility, on-chain governance, and true decentralization.
- [The Worst Bear Case for ICP Crypto, and Why I Still Hold](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-worst-bear-case-for-icp-crypto): My absolute worst case scenario for ICP: what if the tech is threatening enough to be suppressed, just like holistic health is in healthcare?
- [The BIL Token Rug Pull on ICP and What It Taught Me](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-bil-token-rug-pull-on-icp-and-what): The BIL token on Internet Computer was rug pulled to zero. Here is the number one lesson I took from it: hold fewer tokens and research relentlessly.
- [My Honest Response to Words from an ICP Entrepreneur](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-honest-response-to-words-from-an-icp): My response to Cityscape's video on ICP developer frustration: DFINITY's silence, why I stay all in on Internet Computer, and what could be better.
- [James Allen Quit ICP: My Reaction After Doing The Same in 2024](https://jerrybanfield.com/james-allen-quit-icp-my-reaction-after): James Allen of CityXcape quit ICP content. Here's my honest reaction, plus what quitting everything in 2024 taught me about self-sabotage.
- [Is 7,000 ICP Enough? Deciding When to Stop Stacking](https://jerrybanfield.com/is-7-000-icp-enough-deciding-when): I hold 7,000 ICP plus a meme coin and cash in the bank. I think through whether to keep buying or stop, compounding, and runtime. Not financial advice.
- [Internet Computer Protocol Explained for Friends and Family](https://jerrybanfield.com/internet-computer-protocol-explained): Why I put my own savings into Internet Computer Protocol: how it tackles broken money, insecure AI, and $10 trillion in yearly cybercrime.
- [I Tried Trading Meme Coins and It Was Horrible, Even on ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-tried-trading-meme-coins-and-it-was): I made money trading and promoting meme coins, even on ICP, and still hated it. Here is why I'm closing my mastermind and choosing ICP for the long term.
- [I Submitted Five SNS DAO Proposals on Internet Computer](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-submitted-five-sns-dao-proposals): I asked five top ICP DAOs for ~$15K-$20K to deliver six months of videos, plus a day of yoga, tennis in the rain, a deep massage, and the kids.
- [I Gave Away $1,000 of Bitcoin in 30 Seconds on ICP with OpenChat](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-gave-away-1-000-of-bitcoin-in-30): Why I gave 1,000 people Bitcoin in 30 seconds on ICP with OpenChat, plus my take on giveaways, bots, and buying crypto whose blockchain you actually use.
- [How to Import ICP Tokens like JBBJ into the NNS Wallet](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-to-import-icp-tokens-like-jbbj-into): A step-by-step guide to importing a non-SNS token like JBBJ into the NNS wallet on Internet Computer Protocol, including finding the ledger canister ID.
- [How I'm Valuing My Time as the Top ICP Crypto YouTuber](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-im-valuing-my-time-as-the-top-icp): Why I'm done working for free in the ICP ecosystem, the monetization models I tried, the six projects I actually use, and how I price my marketing.
- [How ICP Will Flip Solana and XRP This Altcoin Season](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-icp-will-flip-solana-and-xrp): Why I believe Internet Computer Protocol is positioned to flip Solana and XRP, from real on-chain tech and AI to ICP's tokenomics and hosting.
- [How I Send 1,000 People Bitcoin in 30 Seconds on ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-i-send-1-000-people-bitcoin-in-30): I walk through giving 1,000 crypto investors Bitcoin in under 30 seconds using OpenChat, Chain Key Bitcoin, and on-chain AI bot protection on ICP.
- [How I Became the Top ICP Crypto YouTuber](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-i-became-the-top-icp-crypto-youtuber): My story of becoming the top Internet Computer Protocol creator on YouTube, from Bitcoin in 2014 to the crypto mafia bots that took my channel down.
- [How Billionaires Suppress the ICP Price While Accumulating](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-billionaires-suppress-the-icp-price): My theory on how billionaires use leverage, liquidations, wash trading, and fake ICP to keep the Internet Computer price low while quietly stacking.
- [Every Crypto Except ICP Is a Meme Coin, Even Bitcoin](https://jerrybanfield.com/every-crypto-except-icp-is-a-meme-coin): Why I believe every cryptocurrency except Internet Computer Protocol, including Bitcoin and Ethereum, is just a speculative meme coin with no real utility.
- [Coinbase's Crypto AI Stack vs Everything On-Chain with ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/coinbases-crypto-ai-stack-vs-everything): Why I think Coinbase's crypto AI stack is a profitable mess for insiders, and how Internet Computer Protocol lets you build AI fully on-chain.
- [Bringing the ICP Community Into My Live Streams](https://jerrybanfield.com/bringing-the-icp-community-into-my-live): Why I'm shifting from solo ICP hype videos to multi-platform live streams that bring the community in, plus my studio setup, music, and thinking forward.
- [Blockchain Explained Simply: Bitcoin, Ethereum, and ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/blockchain-explained-simply-bitcoin): My plain-English take on blockchain: why Bitcoin and Ethereum are basically spreadsheets, and how the Internet Computer turns a chain into a real computer.
- [Bitcoin Is a Lie, Crypto Is Fraud, and ICP Is Real](https://jerrybanfield.com/bitcoin-is-a-lie-crypto-is-fraud-and-icp): Why I believe Bitcoin is drastically overvalued, most crypto is built to exploit you, and Internet Computer Protocol is the only project that's real.
- [All Eyez on Me: ICP, Lie Detectors, and Playing My Part](https://jerrybanfield.com/all-eyez-on-me-icp-lie-detectors): A January 6 vlog on getting featured by InvestAnswers, my built-in lie detector, reading people in yoga class, and finding joy in my daily work.
- [A Mundane Day: Patios, Baseboards, and Letting It Go](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-mundane-day-patios-baseboards): Jerry shares an honest, ordinary day: a Home Depot fuss with Laura, a rant on debt and the system, communication, and why he keeps making content.
- [My Response to James Allan Leaving ICP for Kaspa](https://jerrybanfield.com/james-allan-response-icp-vs-kaspa): My response to James Allan leaving ICP for Kaspa, why I'm staying with ICP, and why I'm inviting him back to the community.
- [Replit, Lovable, and Bolt Users Will Discover Secure Vibe Coding on ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/replit-lovable-bolt-secure-vibe-coding-icp): I show Replit, Lovable, and Bolt users why I'm choosing secure vibe coding on ICP with Caffeine AI instead.
- [Why the Smart Money Isn't Fully in ICP Yet](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-smart-money-isnt-fully-in-icp-yet): Why isn't the smart money fully in ICP yet? I think it's psychology, narratives, and portfolio protection, not weak tech, and that's my opening.
- [What Would ICP Be Worth If the Crypto Market Were Rational?](https://jerrybanfield.com/what-would-icp-be-worth-if-the-crypto-market-were-rational): I appraise ICP like a house appraiser, asking what it would be worth if the crypto market valued real technology rationally.
- [My Friend Almost Sold 10,000 ICP… Then We Talked](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-friend-almost-sold-10000-icp-then-we-talked): My friend came over to dump his 10,000 ICP for a real estate deal, so I sat him down and walked him through why holding wins.
- [My Entire Crypto Portfolio Today: 6,511 ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-crypto-portfolio-today-6511-icp): My full crypto portfolio in total transparency — 6,511 ICP across liquid and staked, plus the ICP-ecosystem tokens that tanked, and how I'm rebuilding toward all ICP.
- [Caffeine AI Built Me a Website on the Blockchain in One Prompt](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-caffeine-ai-built-me-a-website-in-one-prompt): I gave Caffeine AI one rambling voice memo and it built me a beautiful website on the ICP blockchain, faster than my old one.
- [ICP NNS Staking Tutorial: How to Earn the Best APR](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-nns-staking-tutorial): I show you how I stake ICP in the NNS, pick a lock period, compound maturity, vote on proposals, and chase the best APR.
- [I Bought 1,049 More ICP Today on Coinbase](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-bought-1049-icp-today-on-coinbase): I bought 1,049 more ICP today on Coinbase at $2.22, and here is the story of why I keep accumulating at all time lows.
- [If the CIA Created Bitcoin, ICP Makes Even More Sense](https://jerrybanfield.com/if-the-cia-created-bitcoin-icp-makes-even-more-sense): A thought experiment, not financial advice: if the CIA created Bitcoin, the whole crypto market becomes logical — and ICP makes even more sense as the next evolution.
- [ICP Looks Weak Because the Crypto Market Is Fake](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-looks-weak-because-the-market-is-fake): ICP looks weak only because crypto markets are fake. The charts, volume, and market caps are largely engineered. Here's how to see it — and why the real tech wins when it collapses.
- [Dominic Williams Just Explained the Future of AI on ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/dominic-williams-just-explained-the-future-of-ai-on-icp): I break down Dominic Williams's post on agentic organizations and why ICP is the only place this AI future can actually be built.
- [Crypto Is Basically Call of Duty Warzone, and ICP Wins](https://jerrybanfield.com/crypto-is-basically-call-of-duty-warzone-and-icp-wins): Crypto is a Warzone battle royale where only one coin survives. Here's why I think ICP is the player camping the best position — playing the long game while everyone else chases kills.
- [Destroying Solana in a Debate vs ChatGPT](https://jerrybanfield.com/destroying-solana-vs-chatgpt): I debate ChatGPT playing a Solana maxi and argue why ICP wins on tech, security, and real adoption.
- [Crypto Exchanges Are Threatened by ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/crypto-exchanges-threatened-by-icp): ICP threatens the entire crypto exchange business model — and that, in my view, explains the artificially high launch price and why exchanges have every incentive to keep ICP quiet.
- [Crypto Is Still in the Dot-Com Bubble. ICP Is the Real Internet Company.](https://jerrybanfield.com/crypto-is-still-in-the-dot-com-bubble): Crypto today is 1999 all over again — most coins are dot-com vaporware. Here's why I think ICP is the Amazon that survives, building real infrastructure while everything else is Pets.com.
- [Caffeine AI Tutorial: Build Apps on the Blockchain by Chatting](https://jerrybanfield.com/caffeine-ai-tutorial): I walk you step by step through building apps on the blockchain with Caffeine AI just by chatting, from prompts and pricing to domains.
- [Bitcoin Is a $1.6 Trillion Spreadsheet. ICP Is the World Computer.](https://jerrybanfield.com/bitcoin-is-a-1-6-trillion-spreadsheet): I explain why I dumped my Bitcoin for ICP: Bitcoin is a $1.6 trillion spreadsheet while ICP is the world computer.
- [21 Bitcoin in 2014 Is 550 ICP Today](https://jerrybanfield.com/21-bitcoin-in-2014-is-550-icp-today): Owning 21 Bitcoin in 2014 is like owning 550 ICP today — the supply math, the tokenomics, and why I think the Internet Computer is the asymmetric bet Bitcoin was 12 years ago.
- [Sell Bitcoin, ETH, XRP, and SOL for ICP Before It's Too Late](https://jerrybanfield.com/sell-altcoins-for-icp): Bitcoin, Ethereum, XRP, and Solana are dumping while ICP pumps. After 12 years in crypto, here's why I think almost everything eventually flows into ICP.
- [When Ethereum DeFi Collapses, Money Will Flow Into ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/when-ethereum-defi-collapses-money-will-flow-into-icp): Ethereum DeFi is a recursive house of cards one AI-powered hack from cascading to zero. Why ICP's Network Nervous System is where the money goes next.
- [No One Is Selling ICP Now](https://jerrybanfield.com/no-one-is-selling-icp-now): ICP's price can tank without anyone actually selling — that's how rigged crypto is. Why a falling price is the trick, and why I'm buying record lows instead.
- [My Ideal ICP Accumulation Strategy](https://jerrybanfield.com/ideal-icp-accumulation-strategy): The three-tier ICP strategy I use so I don't miss the big gains: an indefinite lock, a short-term lock, and a liquid bag — and how much I keep in each.
- [ICP Can Pump to $100 Anytime](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-can-pump-to-100-anytime): ICP could rapidly pump over $100 from around $2.22 because the price has been heavily suppressed. My speculation on the likely pump, the crash after, and how I'm playing it.
- [Crypto Market Caps Are a Distraction. Only ICP Is Real](https://jerrybanfield.com/crypto-marketcaps-are-a-distraction-only-icp-is-real): Crypto market caps are mostly fake — price times a supply you can't even buy. Here's how to actually appraise a coin, and why it shows ICP is badly underpriced.
- [Buying ICP on Spot vs. Buying Accounts on IDGeek](https://jerrybanfield.com/buying-icp-on-spot-vs-selling-an-internet-identity-on-idgeek): Two ways to buy ICP: the simple spot-exchange path I recommend for most people, and buying discounted accounts on IDGeek for advanced holders. The trade-offs.
- [100 ICP Is Enough, 10,000 ICP Is God Tier](https://jerrybanfield.com/100-icp-is-enough-10-000-internet-computer-protocol-is-god): How much ICP is enough? My honest take: 100 ICP gets you in the game, 1,000 is the sweet spot, and 10,000 is God tier — plus why the supply math crushes Bitcoin.
- [ICP and Claude Code Is the Best Web Hosting Setup Online](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-and-claude-code-is-the-best-web-hosting-setup-online): I moved jerrybanfield.com off Caffeine AI and now host it directly on the Internet Computer with Claude Code — faster, cheaper, and pay-per-use. Here's why.
- [Going All In On The Internet Computer](https://jerrybanfield.com/going-all-in-on-internet-computer): I bet everything on the Internet Computer believing the truth would win, then burned out when no one wanted to listen.
- [When Michael Saylor Discovers ICP Is Better Than Bitcoin](https://jerrybanfield.com/when-michael-saylor-discovers-icp): If a Bitcoin believer like Michael Saylor discovered ICP, I think they'd go all in. Why I swapped my Bitcoin for the Internet Computer and why ICP does more.
- [My Conversation With God About Bitcoin, Crypto, and the ICP Price](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-conversation-with-god-about-bitcoin): A conversation with God about Bitcoin, crypto, and the ICP price: patience, fear, gratitude, and why three times in a year might already be enough.
- [Chainlink vs ICP Price Prediction and Review: LINK vs Internet Computer](https://jerrybanfield.com/chainlink-vs-icp-price-prediction-review): My review and price prediction comparing Chainlink (LINK) and Internet Computer (ICP) - why I think oracles are going obsolete and ICP is undervalued.
- [ICP Is More Scarce Than Bitcoin on Coinbase and Binance](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-is-more-scarce-than-bitcoin): Why I think ICP is more scarce than Bitcoin: the data shows roughly 540x more Bitcoin buying power on exchanges like Coinbase and Binance than ICP.
- [Just Be Bored and You'll Level Up in Crypto With ICP and OpenChat](https://jerrybanfield.com/just-be-bored-and-level-up-in-icp): Why I think being bored in crypto is a good sign: lean into it, stay in position with ICP and OpenChat, and use the quiet to level up your whole life.
- [How ICP Will Flip Solana as the Top Memecoin Ecosystem](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-will-flip-solana-as-top-memecoin): Why I believe Internet Computer Protocol will flip Solana as the top memecoin ecosystem, with fully on-chain launchers, swaps, and communities.
- [I Sold My Kids Their First Crypto](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-sold-my-kids-their-first-crypto): I told my nine- and six-year-old what investing is, sold them their first ICP, and it made me rethink trust, honesty, and crypto.
- [Dear Taggr Critics: My Response](https://jerrybanfield.com/dear-taggr-critics-my-response): My point-by-point response to the Taggr critics: ownership, rewards, meaningful connections, the tokenomics, and why I keep accumulating this ICP project.
- [Every Top 100 Crypto Reviewed: My Honest Verdicts](https://jerrybanfield.com/every-top-100-crypto-reviewed): I rip through all top 100 cryptos with my honest ratings, and explain why I believe the Internet Computer is the only one worth researching.
- [Being Bored in Crypto Is a Sign of Success](https://jerrybanfield.com/being-bored-in-crypto-is-success): Why I think being bored in crypto means you're doing it right: hold and stake ICP, stop gambling and trading, and go find your excitement somewhere real.
- [Binance Coin (BNB) vs Internet Computer (ICP): Why I'm All In on ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/binance-bnb-vs-internet-computer-icp): I held both BNB and ICP and researched each deeply. Here's why I sold out of Binance Coin hype and went all in on Internet Computer Protocol.
- [Toncoin (TON) vs Internet Computer (ICP), OpenChat, and Taggr](https://jerrybanfield.com/toncoin-ton-vs-icp-openchat-taggr): My in-depth comparison of Toncoin (TON) versus Internet Computer (ICP), OpenChat, and Taggr, and why I hold 90% ICP instead of TON.
- [PEIPEI vs Internet Computer (ICP): Why I'd Never Buy This Meme Coin](https://jerrybanfield.com/peipei-vs-icp-meme-coin-review): My honest review comparing the PEIPEI meme coin to Internet Computer (ICP) crypto, and why I keep 90% of my portfolio in ICP instead of gambling on PEIPEI.
- [XX Network (XX) vs ICP: Why ICP Wins](https://jerrybanfield.com/xx-network-xx-vs-icp-why-icp-wins): My honest review comparing XX Network (XX) to Internet Computer (ICP): a small market cap, missing team, and ghost-chain activity keep me firmly in ICP.
- [Myria (MYRIA) vs ICP: Why I'd Sell This Gaming Coin](https://jerrybanfield.com/myria-vs-icp-comparison): My honest Myria (MYRIA) vs ICP comparison after 10 years in crypto: why I think this gaming layer 2 keeps underperforming Internet Computer.
- [Monero (XMR) vs ICP: Why I Choose Internet Computer](https://jerrybanfield.com/monero-xmr-vs-icp-why-i-choose-internet): My honest comparison of Monero (XMR) and Internet Computer (ICP): why I hold 5,000 ICP and zero XMR, and where I think each one is headed.
- [LEO Token (Bitfinex / UNUS SED LEO) vs ICP: Why I'd Never Hold LEO](https://jerrybanfield.com/leo-token-bitfinex-vs-icp): My honest comparison of Bitfinex's LEO token (UNUS SED LEO) versus Internet Computer (ICP), and why I hold over 5,000 ICP and no LEO.
- [Constellation (DAG) vs Internet Computer (ICP): A Ghost Chain vs the World Computer](https://jerrybanfield.com/constellation-dag-vs-icp-ghost-chain): My honest review comparing Constellation (DAG) to Internet Computer (ICP): an empty ghost-chain explorer and AI hype versus ICP's real on-chain computation.
- [Filecoin (FIL) vs ICP: My Honest Review and Why I Hold ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/filecoin-fil-vs-icp-review): My honest Filecoin (FIL) vs ICP review: FIL stores data off chain while Internet Computer puts everything on chain, which is why I hold ICP, not Filecoin.
- [Why ICP Is the Best Crypto for Retirement](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-is-the-best-crypto-for-retirement): Why I believe locking up ICP and living off the staking rewards is the best retirement plan I have found in crypto, based on my own experience.
- [ICP Conspiracy Theories (About the Internet Computer)](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-conspiracy-theories): My honest answer to the ICP conspiracy theories: is the Internet Computer evil, a backdoor, or our own destruction? Here is how I worked through all of it.
- [What Life Is Like as an ICP Crypto Millionaire](https://jerrybanfield.com/life-as-an-icp-crypto-millionaire): My honest take on living as an ICP crypto millionaire in mindset first: why I stopped grinding, started saying no, and learned to be patient and content.
- [Why Online Businesses Will Love the Internet Computer (ICP)](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-online-businesses-will-love-icp): Why I think online businesses will love ICP: cheaper hosting, crypto payments with no chargebacks, and one all-in-one platform for the whole business.
- [Crypto's Most Important Use Case: Forbidden Tech and Secret Science Can Thrive on ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/forbidden-tech-secret-science-on-icp): After ten years in crypto, I believe its biggest use case is letting forbidden tech and suppressed science thrive on ICP, where censorship is far harder.
- [Why I Believe Stacks (STX) Goes to Zero Once Developers Find ckBTC on ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/stacks-stx-will-go-to-zero-once-ckbtc): My honest opinion on Stacks (STX): why I think this Bitcoin Layer 2 goes to zero once developers discover Chainkey Bitcoin (ckBTC) on ICP.
- [Why I'm So Bullish on ICP: The Best Technology in Crypto and Real Web3](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-im-so-bullish-on-icp): Why I'm so bullish on ICP: the largest R&D team in blockchain, AI on chain, real Web3 fully on chain, and efficiency that crushes bigger-cap coins. My opinion.
- [How I Stopped Being Stupid in Crypto](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-i-stopped-being-stupid-in-crypto): After 10 years and two all-in disasters, here is how I stopped feeling stupid in crypto by going all in on ICP with real research, not hype.
- [ICP vs Arweave AO, Bittensor TAO, Render, and Filecoin: Why I'm All In on Internet Computer](https://jerrybanfield.com/icp-vs-distributed-computing-altcoins): After 10,000 hours in crypto I'm all in on Internet Computer. Here's why Arweave AO, Bittensor TAO, Render, and Filecoin fall short of ICP.
- [What I Learned From 10,000 Hours Researching Crypto](https://jerrybanfield.com/10000-hours-researching-crypto): After 10,000 hours researching crypto over 10 years, here's everything I learned, drastically simplified, and why Internet Computer is the one I'd study.
- [Crypto: The World's Greatest Scam](https://jerrybanfield.com/crypto-the-worlds-greatest-scam): Why I believe almost all of crypto is a scam built on data that isn't really on chain, and why Internet Computer Protocol is the one exception.
- [DAOs in Crypto: Everything You Need to Know About Decentralized Autonomous Organizations](https://jerrybanfield.com/daos-in-crypto-everything-you-need): What DAOs really are, why most are decentralized in name only, and how ICP's Network Nervous System and SNS make truly on-chain DAO governance possible.
- [Decentralized Science: How NobleBlocks Is Transforming Publishing on ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/decentralized-science-how-nobleblocks): Why I believe DeSci on the Internet Computer matters, and how NobleBlocks is building the first fully on-chain decentralized science publishing protocol on ICP.
- [How I Realized ICP Wasn't a Scam](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-i-realized-icp-wasnt-a-scam): People kept calling the Internet Computer a scam and a rug pull. Here's the research I did myself that convinced me ICP is the opposite of a scam.
- [An Honest Review of the Sneed Memecoin and SNS DAO on ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/sneed-memecoin-and-sns-dao-review): My honest review of the Sneed memecoin and its SNS DAO on the Internet Computer, with the good, the bad, the ugly, and why I'd still rather hold ICP.
- [First Steps With the Internet Computer: How to Buy and Stake ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/first-steps-with-the-internet-computer): My step-by-step guide to getting started with ICP: create an Internet Identity, move ICP off the exchange, stake it in a neuron, and earn rewards.
- [How to Make Your Kids Crypto Millionaires with ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/make-your-kids-crypto-millionaires): My idea for making your kids crypto millionaires with ICP: lock 1,000 ICP in a neuron for eight years and let staking rewards do the rest. Opinion, not advice.

## Crypto & Money
- [The 10 Most Dangerous Altcoins in the Top 100](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-10-most-dangerous-altcoins): I count down the 10 most dangerous altcoins in the top 100 — from Binance Life to Rain — and why I would sell every one of them today.
- [Dogecoin is Finished](https://jerrybanfield.com/dogecoin-is-finished): My honest review of why I think Dogecoin's best days are behind it: $1M a day in mining inflation, dying usage, Litecoin dependence, and no smart contracts.
- [Bitcoin Price and Cycle Videos Are Wasting Your Time](https://jerrybanfield.com/bitcoin-price-and-cycle-videos): After 12 years in crypto, here's why I stopped watching Bitcoin price chart videos and what I believe is actually worth your time instead.
- [AI Game First Play](https://jerrybanfield.com/ai-game-first-play): I one-shot prompted my own Call of Duty Zombies-style crypto game with Claude Fable, hosted it on ICP, and played it for the first time - reaching round 18.
- [XRP $69 Billion of Hype and $360 a Day in Fees](https://jerrybanfield.com/xrp-69-billion-of-hype-and-360-a-day): Why I sold XRP: a data-based look at a $69B valuation against $360 a day in chain fees, token overhang, and where holder value actually comes from.
- [Solana Makes $21 Million a Year and Pays $2 Billion in SOL to Stay Alive](https://jerrybanfield.com/solana-makes-21-million-a-year-and-pays): I break down why I believe Solana's revenue model is a house of cards, and why I moved my crypto to ICP instead.
- [Cardano ADA is Finished](https://jerrybanfield.com/cardano-ada-is-finished): My deep analysis of why Cardano's valuation doesn't match its tiny on-chain business, why its narratives never delivered, and why I sold ADA.
- [BitTensor TAO is Finished](https://jerrybanfield.com/bittensor-tao-is-finished): Why I believe BitTensor TAO is finished: off-chain verification, validator collusion, dead subnets, subsidies, and no real demand versus ICP.
- [Cashing Out Before the Crash](https://jerrybanfield.com/cashing-out-before-the-crash): I quietly sold near a million dollars before the crash, took the fallout, and met the half-sister who found me.
- [Zeebu (ZBU) Realistic Price Prediction: Why I Think It's $0](https://jerrybanfield.com/zeebu-zbu-realistic-price-prediction-why): My honest analysis of Zeebu (ZBU): inflated market cap, bot followers, fakeable TVL, a shallow team, and why I believe its realistic price is zero.
- [Worldcoin Realistic Crypto Price Prediction Is $0](https://jerrybanfield.com/worldcoin-realistic-crypto-price): My honest Worldcoin review: locked tokens, no real on-chain ownership, Cayman secrecy, and why I think this coin is dangerously overvalued.
- [Why My Realistic Hyperliquid Price Prediction Is $0](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-my-realistic-hyperliquid-price): My honest crypto review of Hyperliquid: huge fully diluted market cap, vague team, copied tech, and why I'd never invest in it.
- [Why I'll Never Buy or Hold Bitcoin Again](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-ill-never-buy-or-hold-bitcoin-again): After 11 years in Bitcoin, here's why I believe it's failed: extreme centralization, unfair mining, unusable fees, and why I hold ICP instead.
- [Why I Think XRP and Solana Are Destroying Crypto](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-think-xrp-and-solana): My case for why XRP and Solana are the worst of crypto: bot-driven hype, meme coins, fake metrics, and no real value compared to ICP and Bitcoin.
- [Why I Think Ondo Finance Is a Realistic $0 Price Prediction](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-think-ondo-finance-is-a-realistic): My honest breakdown of Ondo Finance: a $4B token with huge unlocks, one address holding 65%, and zero team transparency.
- [Why I Think Mantra (OM) Is Headed to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-think-mantra-om-is-headed-to-zero): My realistic take on Mantra (OM): an overvalued, manipulated coin with no transparency, bot-driven engagement, and no real use case.
- [Why I Think Kaspa (KAS) Is Headed to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-think-kaspa-kas-is-headed-to-zero): My honest, bot-free take on Kaspa: no smart contracts, a ghost chain, wasteful proof of work, and why I believe KAS goes to zero.
- [Why I Think Aleph.im Is Going to Zero: An Honest Review](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-think-aleph-im-is-going-to-zero): My honest crypto review of Aleph.im: off-chain claims, a Cosmos-based chain, token unlocks, and why I'd put my money in ICP instead.
- [Why I Think Aave Is Heading Toward Zero: An Honest Review](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-think-aave-is-heading-toward-zero): My honest review and price prediction for Aave, covering its holders, fake-able TVL, slow governance, bridge risks, and why I see it trending to zero.
- [Why I Stopped Trusting InvestAnswers: An ICP Reality Check](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-stopped-trusting-investanswers): I was an InvestAnswers Patreon member until I checked his ICP data myself and found provably false claims, a hidden breakout week, and a rough track record.
- [Why I Reject the Top 10 Cryptocurrencies and Demand Better](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-reject-the-top-10-cryptocurrencies): My honest take on why Bitcoin, Ethereum, XRP, Solana, BNB, Dogecoin and the rest fall short, and why I went all in on Internet Computer.
- [Why I Believe Diamante's Realistic Crypto Price Is $0](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-believe-diamantes-realistic-crypto): Why I think Diamante is a bot-pumped, team-less crypto headed to zero, and how it compares to Internet Computer's real technology.
- [Why I Believe Cronos CRO and Crypto.com Are Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-believe-cronos-cro-and-crypto-com): Why I think Cronos (CRO) and Crypto.com are a bad bet: worthless tech, no ownership, the debit card that scraped thousands off me, and what I'd hold instead.
- [Why I Believe Bitcoin Is the Biggest Lie in Crypto](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-believe-bitcoin-is-the-biggest-lie): Why I no longer believe in Bitcoin: centralized mining, concentrated supply, Wall Street control, and why I think ICP is the better bet.
- [The True Cost of Holding the Wrong Crypto](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-true-cost-of-holding-the-wrong): Why I believe opportunity cost is the real price of holding Bitcoin and other coins, and how I think about where my crypto money goes.
- [The Only Crypto Worth Buying on Coinbase: Why I Choose ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-only-crypto-worth-buying-on-coinbase): After 11 years in crypto and researching thousands of altcoins, here is why I believe Internet Computer Protocol is the only coin on Coinbase worth buying.
- [The Critical XRP Data Most Holders Never Look At](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-critical-xrp-data-most-holders-never): I held XRP until I checked the ledger and developer data. Here is the publicly available research on payments, growth, and bots that changed my mind.
- [The 1 Altcoin I Love After Researching 1000s: Internet Computer](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-1-altcoin-i-love-after-researching): After 10 years and thousands of altcoins, here's why I believe ICP is the only crypto built for the trillion-dollar cloud and AI markets.
- [Supra Realistic Crypto Price Prediction: Why I Think It's $0](https://jerrybanfield.com/supra-realistic-crypto-price-prediction): My honest, skeptical look at Supra: empty blocks, huge token unlocks, a thin team, and a 'coming soon' ecosystem versus Internet Computer.
- [SuperRare (RARE) Review: Why I Believe This Token Is Worthless](https://jerrybanfield.com/superrare-rare-review-why-i-believe): My live, real-time review of SuperRare and the RARE token, why I think it's a centralized, useless meme coin, and how I spot crypto scams.
- [Story (IP) Honest Review: Why My Realistic Price Prediction Is $0](https://jerrybanfield.com/story-ip-honest-review-why-my-realistic): My honest review of the Story crypto project, the IP blockchain, why its tech looks like an Ethereum copy, and why my realistic price prediction is $0.
- [Skyren Presale Scam, Airdrop Fraud, and Why I Think It's $0](https://jerrybanfield.com/skyren-presale-scam-airdrop-fraud): After 11 years in crypto, here is why I believe the Skyren presale, airdrop DAO, and 76% APY look like a blatant fraud headed to zero.
- [Pi Network Launches: Why My Price Prediction Is $0](https://jerrybanfield.com/pi-network-launches-why-my-price): Pi Network's blockchain finally launched. Here is why I believe it looks like a rug pull headed toward zero, from its market cap to its bot-filled socials.
- [Onyxcoin XCN: Why My Realistic Price Prediction Is $0](https://jerrybanfield.com/onyxcoin-xcn-why-my-realistic-price): After 11 years in crypto, here's why I see Onyxcoin XCN as a manipulated, botted, no-team project headed to zero, and what real value looks like.
- [My Realistic Toshi Price Prediction Is $0](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-realistic-toshi-price-prediction-is-0): Why I believe Toshi, Brian Armstrong's cat meme coin on Base, has topped out and is heading to zero, and why I avoid meme coins.
- [Maker (MKR) to Sky: Why I Think This Rebrand Is a Red Flag](https://jerrybanfield.com/maker-mkr-to-sky-why-i-think): I review Maker, now rebranded to Sky, in real time: the rebrand, the ERC-20 governance token problem, the website, and why I believe it's going to zero.
- [Kaspa in a Nutshell: Why I Think It's a Ghost Chain](https://jerrybanfield.com/kaspa-in-a-nutshell-why-i-think-its): My blunt take on Kaspa: a Bitcoin copy with no smart contracts, bot-driven hype, and a ghost chain compared to real innovation like ICP.
- [Kaito AI Crypto Review: Why My Realistic Price Prediction Is $0](https://jerrybanfield.com/kaito-ai-crypto-review-why-my-realistic): My honest review of Kaito (KAITO): centralized tokenomics, an off-chain network, a hidden team, and why I believe this coin goes to zero.
- [Jupiter (JUP): Why My Realistic Price Prediction Is $0](https://jerrybanfield.com/jupiter-jup-why-my-realistic-price): My honest review of Jupiter (JUP): overvaluation, massive token unlocks, a DAO with no real power, and why I believe this Solana token goes to zero.
- [Jerry Banfield Crypto Canceled: Why I Rebranded to Live](https://jerrybanfield.com/jerry-banfield-crypto-canceled-why): I canceled my own crypto channel, rebranded it Jerry Banfield Live, and built a simpler two-channel plan for live streams and real videos.
- [Investigating All In Crypto: Why I'd Warn You Before Watching](https://jerrybanfield.com/investigating-all-in-crypto-why-id-warn): My honest critique of the All In Crypto channel, from XRP and HBAR hype to clickbait thumbnails, and why I think it can cost viewers money.
- [I Tested Every Top 100 Crypto YouTuber With One Question](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-tested-every-top-100-crypto-youtuber): I went through 100 of the biggest crypto YouTubers and applied one simple test: do they cover Internet Computer Protocol honestly, or are they frauds?
- [I Gave Away $1,000 in Bitcoin and the Video Bombed](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-gave-away-1-000-in-bitcoin): Jerry Banfield on a $1,000 Bitcoin giveaway that flopped, why generosity still wins, and how cheaters seem to fill the top of crypto, gaming, and YouTube.
- [I Fired Myself: Quitting Crypto Hype for Real Education](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-fired-myself-quitting-crypto-hype): Why I'm done with ICP price predictions and hype videos, owning my worst calls, and pivoting to real crypto education, interviews, and comedy.
- [Hyra Network Review: Why This Crypto Looks Like a Scam to Me](https://jerrybanfield.com/hyra-network-review-why-this-crypto): My honest review of Hyra Network, the red flags I found in its layer three claims, botted accounts, fake AI content, and mismatched docs.
- [Hurt People Hurt People: Healing a Triggered Moment](https://jerrybanfield.com/hurt-people-hurt-people-healing): How I handled a hurtful comment from my wife by feeling it, naming it, and letting it go, plus lessons on comparison, sample size, and perspective.
- [How Crypto Exchanges Like Binance and Coinbase Make Money](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-crypto-exchanges-like-binance): How centralized crypto exchanges like Binance, Coinbase, OKX, and Bybit work, make money on fees, and why I believe paper Bitcoin is a real risk.
- [Fasttoken (FTN) Honest Review: Why I Think the Price Goes to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/fasttoken-ftn-honest-review-why-i-think): My honest review of Fasttoken (FTN) and the Bahamut blockchain, why I believe it's a worthless EVM copy headed to zero, and why I trust ICP instead.
- [Exposing XDC Network: Why I Believe It's Headed to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/exposing-xdc-network-why-i-believe-its): My honest expose of XDC Network: locked supply, weak tech for real-world assets, low transactions, and inactive forums, compared to ICP.
- [Exposing Taraxa (TARA): An Honest Review and Price Outlook](https://jerrybanfield.com/exposing-taraxa-tara-an-honest-review): My honest review of Taraxa (TARA): suspicious bot transactions inflating TPS, a thin engineering team, and how it stacks up against ICP.
- [Exposing Stellar XLM: An Honest, Critical Review](https://jerrybanfield.com/exposing-stellar-xlm-an-honest-critical): My honest review of Stellar XLM: why I see it as overvalued, a copy of XRP, plagued by centralization, supply dumping, and manipulated price pumps.
- [Enjin Coin Review: Why I Predict Its Price Is Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/enjin-coin-review-why-i-predict-its): My honest, real-time research on Enjin Coin: branding, bot-inflated X numbers, a ghost chain, an abandoned channel, and why I rate its value zero.
- [Dear ZetaChain ZETA Holders: Why I Won't Invest](https://jerrybanfield.com/dear-zetachain-zeta-holders-why-i-wont): After 11 years in crypto and 15 minutes researching ZetaChain, here is why I see no reason to buy ZETA and what concerns me most about the project.
- [Dear XRP Holders: What Nobody Is Telling You](https://jerrybanfield.com/dear-xrp-holders-what-nobody-is-telling): Why I sold my XRP for ICP: tokenomics, insider holdings, the $10,000 math, and the technology I believe makes XRP irrelevant.
- [Dear SPX6900 Holders: An Honest Crypto Reality Check](https://jerrybanfield.com/dear-spx6900-holders-an-honest-crypto): My honest take on the SPX 6900 meme coin: branding, opportunity cost, and why I think most meme coins lose money. Not financial advice.
- [Dear Kaspa Holders: Why I'm Worried About the Tech](https://jerrybanfield.com/dear-kaspa-holders-why-im-worried-about): After 11 years in crypto, here's my honest take on Kaspa's narrative, mining, funding, and tech compared to Internet Computer Protocol.
- [Dear Hyperliquid Holders: My Honest Crypto Concerns](https://jerrybanfield.com/dear-hyperliquid-holders-my-honest): After 11 years in crypto, here are my honest concerns about Hyperliquid: unproven valuation, anonymous team, decentralization claims, and what Grok's research reveals.
- [Dear Dogecoin Holders: Why I Sold and What I Hold Instead](https://jerrybanfield.com/dear-dogecoin-holders-why-i-sold): I held Dogecoin, then sold it. Here's why I see it as an outdated copy with no real utility, and why opportunity cost matters in crypto.
- [Dear Dogecoin Holders: Why I Sold My DOGE in 2023](https://jerrybanfield.com/dear-dogecoin-holders-why-i-sold-my-doge): Why I dumped my Dogecoin: no innovation, no roadmap, no staking, infinite supply, and why I hold Internet Computer instead. My honest take, not financial advice.
- [Dear Chainlink LINK Holders: Why I Sold My Link](https://jerrybanfield.com/dear-chainlink-link-holders-why-i-sold): Why I sold my Chainlink LINK: centralization, weak token utility, no real DAO, and why I believe ICP makes oracles obsolete. Not financial advice.
- [Dear Cardano Holders: Why I Sold and Moved to ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/dear-cardano-holders-why-i-sold): As a former Cardano holder with 11 years in crypto, I explain why I sold ADA, the tech limits I see, and why Internet Computer Protocol won me over.
- [Dear Bittensor TAO Holders: Why I Won't Invest](https://jerrybanfield.com/dear-bittensor-tao-holders-why-i-wont): My honest research on Bittensor TAO: supply dumping, unclear token distribution, no real decentralization, no AI training, and why I hold ICP instead.
- [Dear Bitcoin Holders: Why I No Longer Hold Bitcoin](https://jerrybanfield.com/dear-bitcoin-holders-why-i-no-longer): Why I believe Bitcoin has been taken over by centralized third parties selling fake coins, and why I moved to Internet Computer Protocol instead.
- [Day 5,025 on YouTube: Patio, 11 Videos, and an AA Meeting](https://jerrybanfield.com/day-5-025-on-youtube-patio-11-videos): My March 2, 2025 daily life: finishing the backyard patio, filming 11 videos, shooting threes, and a meaningful AA meeting and family time.
- [Day 5,011: Family Time, Board Games, and Charging for Crypto Videos](https://jerrybanfield.com/day-5-011-family-time-board-games): Jerry Banfield reflects on a day with family, board games, paying the kids to work, why he's done covering crypto projects for free, and valuing loved ones.
- [Crypto for Absolute Beginners: Use the Tech Before You Buy](https://jerrybanfield.com/crypto-for-absolute-beginners-use): My honest take for crypto beginners: never buy a coin you haven't used, why I hold Internet Computer Protocol, and how exchanges manipulate prices.
- [Coin Bureau Exposed: Why I'll Never Watch It Again](https://jerrybanfield.com/coin-bureau-exposed-why-ill-never-watch): My honest take on Coin Bureau: the ICP FUD, the endless contradictory hype, the lack of transparency, and why I see it as deceptive and useless.
- [Building a Patio, Paying My Kids, and Chasing Crypto Views](https://jerrybanfield.com/building-a-patio-paying-my-kids): A day building my first brick patio, paying my kids $20 an hour, and wrestling with clickbait versus useful crypto content on YouTube.
- [BitGet Token (BGB) Exposed: Why I'd Never Hold It](https://jerrybanfield.com/bitget-token-bgb-exposed-why-id-never): After 11 years in crypto, here's why I think the BitGet token is a trash coin: zero exchange ownership, extreme centralization, and high risk.
- [Bitcoin: The Ugly Reality Underneath the Doctrine](https://jerrybanfield.com/bitcoin-the-ugly-reality-underneath): Why I sold all my Bitcoin: centralized mining, paper Bitcoin, anonymous founder keys, and how the hype became a cult-like doctrine instead of an investment.
- [Bitcoin Mining: What You Really Need to Know](https://jerrybanfield.com/bitcoin-mining-what-you-really-need): I explain how Bitcoin mining actually works, who controls the hash rate, why I see proof of work as wasteful, and why crypto is moving to proof of stake.
- [Berachain Review: Why This $4B Crypto Looks Like a Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/berachain-review-why-this-4b-crypto): My honest review of Berachain: locked tokens, anonymous bear founders, bot-driven hype, and why I believe holders are set up to get dumped on.
- [Axelar Realistic Crypto Price Prediction: Why I Say $0](https://jerrybanfield.com/axelar-realistic-crypto-price-prediction): My honest review of Axelar (XLR): weak cross-chain tech, hidden teams, easily inflated metrics, and why I would never invest in it.
- [Avalanche AVAX in a Nutshell: Why I Sold It for ICP](https://jerrybanfield.com/avalanche-avax-in-a-nutshell-why-i-sold): My honest take on Avalanche AVAX: weak transactions, token unlocks, a thin team, and why I pulled my stake and moved into Internet Computer.
- [An Open Thank-You to Suppoman: Crypto, Gaming, and Showing Up](https://jerrybanfield.com/an-open-thank-you-to-suppoman-crypto): I thank Suppoman for bringing me back to crypto, encouraging my gaming videos, and showing me the value of small, intimate live streams.
- [AIXBT Realistic Crypto Price Prediction: Why I Think It's $0](https://jerrybanfield.com/aixbt-realistic-crypto-price-prediction): My honest review of the AIXBT coin: a Base token propped up by a handful of wallets, centralized tech, bot followers, and shallow narratives I'd never invest in.
- [A Ton of Bricks, Tennis, and Rethinking YouTube](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-ton-of-bricks-tennis-and-rethinking): A day in my life: hauling 2,000 pounds of bricks with my son, fixing my RAV4, playing tennis, and rethinking how I make YouTube videos.
- [A Day in My Life: Tennis, Crypto, Music, and Prison Stories](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-day-in-my-life-tennis-crypto-music): Jerry Banfield shares a day in his life: cancelling his tennis club, how compromised crypto is, making music for fun, and working as a prison correction officer.
- [A Day in My Life: ICP Crypto, AA, and Owning My Reality](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-day-in-my-life-icp-crypto-aa): A behind-the-scenes vlog: my AI video workflow, making two ICP crypto videos before lunch, AA reflections, and why I think the rest of crypto is disgusting.
- [A Day in My Life: Crypto Videos, Tennis, and Telepathy](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-day-in-my-life-crypto-videos-tennis): My March 13, 2025: filming crypto reviews faster than ever, a $300 call, washing the dog, a tennis clinic in the zone, and the telepathy tapes.
- [99% of Crypto Is Theft. Only 1% Is Real.](https://jerrybanfield.com/99-of-crypto-is-theft): After 11 years in crypto, my honest take: 99% of it is theft pushed by hype and bots, and roughly 1% provides real value. Here's what I've seen from the inside.
- [Monero (XMR): Nice Price Chart, But Are the Transactions Really Private?](https://jerrybanfield.com/monero-xmr-can-i-trust-the-transactions-are-private): A real-time research review of Monero (XMR): one of the nicer price charts in crypto, but quantum risk and third-party wallets undermine the privacy. Why I wouldn't hold it. Not financial advice.
- [How to Withdraw Crypto From Coinbase to NNS and OISY Wallets](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-to-withdraw-crypto-from-coinbase-to-nns-and-oisy): How to take your crypto off Coinbase into the two wallets I use — the Network Nervous System and the OISY private browser wallet — so you actually control your BTC, ETH, SOL, and ICP.
- [How to Buy More Crypto and Pay Less Fees on Coinbase](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-to-buy-more-crypto-and-pay-less-fees-on-coinbase): Most people get scraped on Coinbase fees. Here's how I use advanced post-only limit orders to buy more crypto for the same money — plus the bigger fee-saver almost nobody thinks about.
- [The Most Dangerous Time in Bitcoin History](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-most-dangerous-time-in-bitcoin-history): AI hacking, AI out-earning mining, the energy narrative, and quantum computing are converging on Bitcoin at once. Why I think it's the worst time to hold it.
- [Pendle Finance Is One Hack Away From Collapse](https://jerrybanfield.com/pendle-finance): Pendle Finance is a complex, interconnected DeFi yield maze with no listed team — exactly the kind of system AI-driven hacking could cascade to zero. My review.
- [Lab Has Some of the Worst Fundamentals in the Top 50](https://jerrybanfield.com/lab-extremely-dangerous): Lab is another Hyperliquid-style exchange coin: a ~$10B valuation with 22,000 holders, no team, and governance votes in the dozens. My honest review.
- [Humanity (H) Review: A $6 Billion Coin With a 404 Team Page](https://jerrybanfield.com/humanity-review): Humanity is a six-month-old coin valued near $6 billion whose own team page is a 404. A brutally honest review — and why five minutes of research saves you.
- [HYPE Is the Most Dangerous Altcoin in the Top 20](https://jerrybanfield.com/hype-is-the-most-dangerous-altcoin-in-the-top-20): Hyperliquid outperformed ICP this year, but even its supporters admit it isn't decentralized — and it's valued near $33B. Why HYPE looks dangerously overvalued.
- [Why I'd Never Hold Pump.fun](https://jerrybanfield.com/destroying-pump-fun): Pump.fun has no real business beyond meme-coin gambling and $879M waiting to dump on retail. My honest review — and why you could just build your own on ICP.
- [Fractal Bitcoin Is a Scaling Solution Nobody Needs](https://jerrybanfield.com/destroying-fractal-bitcoin): Fractal Bitcoin borrows Bitcoin's branding, has junk tokenomics, and is down 98%. Why ICP's chain-key Bitcoin already makes a me-too scaling coin pointless.
- [BankrCoin (BNKR) Is an AI Trading Trap](https://jerrybanfield.com/bankrcoin-bnkr-is-an-ai-trading-trap): BankrCoin is another me-too AI-agent token on Base: no team, borrowed infrastructure, a $150k drain last month. My honest review of why BNKR is a trap.
- [Allora (ALLO) Looks Like an AI Hype Trap](https://jerrybanfield.com/allora-allo): Allora markets itself as decentralized AI, but I see no team, weak tech, and all marketing. My honest review of why ALLO looks like more risk than reward.
- [The Meme Coin That I Couldn't Kill](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-meme-coin-i-couldnt-kill): I made a meme coin with my own name, tried to destroy it twice, and got trapped between greed and virtue as it took on a life of its own.
- [How Play To Earn Gaming Fooled Me](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-play-to-earn-gaming-fooled-me): I went all in streaming a crypto card game and learned from the inside how play-to-earn and exchange fraud drain everyone.
- [Why I Walked Away From Crypto YouTube Lies](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-walked-away-from-crypto-lies): I built a crypto channel by hyping coins I didn't believe in, then told the truth and found the one blockchain that was real.
- [How Crypto Made Me Feel Like the Villain](https://jerrybanfield.com/crypto-made-me-the-villain): Crypto made me rich and made me the villain; after the crash I burned out, faced bankruptcy, and deleted my whole studio.
- [How I Hyped Crypto I Knew Was Junk](https://jerrybanfield.com/hyping-crypto-for-views): I grew a crypto channel fast by hyping coins I knew were junk, riding bots while my viewers got drained.
- [The Day I Turned Down $5,000 in Easy Crypto Money](https://jerrybanfield.com/turned-down-5000-in-easy-crypto-money): On December 28, 2024, I could have made $5,000 buying a meme coin I knew would pump after my video. Here's why I said no and chose my reputation.
- [The Biggest Crypto Lie 99% of Bitcoin, ETH, and ICP Holders Believe](https://jerrybanfield.com/biggest-crypto-lie-decentralization): After 10 years inside crypto, I think decentralization is the biggest lie. Bitcoin, Ethereum, and even ICP are centralized, my honest opinion.
- [You're Not Safe in Crypto Until You Spot the Fraud Yourself](https://jerrybanfield.com/youre-not-safe-in-crypto): How I research any crypto coin in 5-10 minutes to spot the fraud myself: the team, the chain explorer, and why I keep coming back to ICP. Not advice.
- [Diamante Is Clearly Not the Greatest Crypto Blockchain Launch](https://jerrybanfield.com/diamante-is-clearly-not-the-greatest): My one-star review of Diamante: no team listed, an Amazon Web Services backend, and an airdrop trap. Why I think the 'greatest blockchain' claim is a scam.
- [Get Honest About Your Crypto Investing Skill](https://jerrybanfield.com/get-honest-about-your-crypto-investing): My honest take on assessing your real crypto investing skill, the four levels of competence, and why most of us start as beginners.
- [Why I'll Never Invest in Crypto Gaming Coins](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-ill-never-invest-in-crypto-gaming): After losing thousands on crypto games like Gods Unchained, here's why I'll never invest in crypto gaming coins, and where I put my money instead.
- [MultiversX (EGLD) Exposed: Why I Sold Mine and Think It's Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/multiversx-egld-exposed): My critical review of MultiversX (EGLD): the founder's claims I think are provably false, NFTs that aren't on chain, a ghost-chain explorer, and why I sold.
- [MINA Protocol Review: Why I Think Its Price Is $0](https://jerrybanfield.com/mina-protocol-review-price-is-0): My honest MINA Protocol review: a 22KB ghost chain, no listed team, possibly inflated GitHub commits, and why I think its price is heading to zero.
- [MASA Review: Why I Believe This Fake AI Coin Is Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/masa-fake-ai-coin-review-going-to-zero): My honest review of MASA, the self-described decentralized AI and LLM network, and why I believe this fake AI coin is going to zero.
- [The 'Crypto Is Freedom' Lie](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-crypto-is-freedom-lie): Why I believe 'crypto is freedom' is a lie: centralized ETFs, third-party wallets, manipulated markets, and why true freedom is found within, not in a coin.
- [Polkadot (DOT) Crypto Review: Why I Think It's Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/polkadot-dot-review-going-to-zero): My honest Polkadot (DOT) review: outdated tech, a three-person team, off-chain workarounds, and why I think this $8.5B coin is going to zero next to ICP.
- [Core (CORE) Crypto Review: Why I Think It's Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/core-dao-crypto-review-going-to-zero): My honest review of Core (CORE / Core DAO): off-chain infrastructure, hyped Bitcoin-scaling claims, thin on-chain activity, and why I think it goes to zero.
- [Celestia (TIA) Crypto Review: Why I Think It's Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/celestia-tia-crypto-review): My critical Celestia (TIA) crypto review: weak team, off-chain IPFS docs, and barely any on-chain activity, why I think it's going to zero.
- [The Sandbox (SAND) Crypto Review: Why I Think It's Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-sandbox-sand-crypto-review): My honest review of The Sandbox (SAND): fake Web3, off-chain assets, a poll-only DAO, and why I think this gaming token is going to zero.
- [Fantom (FTM) Crypto Review: Why I Think It's Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/fantom-ftm-crypto-review-going-to-zero): My honest review of Fantom (FTM): why I think the Sonic migration sends FTM toward zero, and how it compares to Internet Computer. My opinion, not advice.
- [Shiba Inu (SHIB) Review: Why I Think It's Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/shiba-inu-shib-review-going-to-zero): My honest Shiba Inu (SHIB) review: a no-utility ERC-20 meme coin, manipulated market cap, anonymous team, and why I think the price is going to zero.
- [Cosmos (ATOM) Crypto Review: Why I Think This Outdated Chain Is Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/cosmos-atom-review-going-to-zero): My honest Cosmos (ATOM) review: down 30% with no network effect, a splitting team, and tech I see as outdated next to ICP. Why I think it's going to zero.
- [Tron (TRX) Review: Why I Think It's Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-think-tron-trx-is-going-to-zero): My honest Tron (TRX) review: an Ethereum copy run on marketing and Justin Sun, why I think it's going to zero, and why ICP is the superior bet.
- [Polygon (MATIC/POL) Crypto Review: Why I Think It's Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/polygon-matic-pol-review-going-to-zero): My honest review of Polygon: a copycat Ethereum L2, a greedy MATIC-to-POL upgrade, faked activity, and why I believe both tokens trend to zero.
- [PEPE Crypto Review: Why I Think This Meme Coin Is Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/pepe-crypto-review-going-to-zero): My honest PEPE crypto review: a useless meme coin by its own website, an ERC-20 gas trap, and why I think this going-to-zero pump is over. My opinion only.
- [Loopring (LRC) Crypto Review: Why I Wouldn't Hold This ERC-20 Token](https://jerrybanfield.com/loopring-lrc-crypto-review): My honest Loopring (LRC) review: an ERC-20 token with no on-chain ownership, flat transfers, and why I think ICP does decentralized exchanges better.
- [Litecoin (LTC) Crypto Review: Why I See It Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/litecoin-ltc-crypto-review-going-to-zero): Why I see Litecoin (LTC) on its way to zero: a first-generation Bitcoin copy that had its time, with two developers and far better options available.
- [LayerZero (ZRO) Crypto Review: Why I Think It's Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/layerzero-zro-crypto-review): My honest LayerZero (ZRO) crypto review: off-chain infrastructure, no roadmap, heavy token dumps, and why I think this one-trick pony is going to zero.
- [Theta Network (THETA) Crypto Review: Why I See It Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/theta-network-theta-crypto-review): Theta Network (THETA) claims to be an AI and DePIN blockchain, but in my opinion it's a me-too altcoin running on AWS that I see going to zero.
- [Quant (QNT) Crypto Review: Why I Think It's Heading to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/quant-qnt-crypto-review): My honest Quant (QNT) review: an ERC-20 token where holders own nothing, almost no usage, and chain fusion on ICP makes it irrelevant. Why I think it's going to zero.
- [Pi Network (PI) Crypto Review: Why I Think It's Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/pi-network-pi-review-going-to-zero): My honest review of Pi Network (PI): no mainnet after years, a $3T fake valuation, worthless mining, and bot-driven hype. Why I think PI is going to zero.
- [Toncoin (TON) Crypto Review: Why I Think It's Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/toncoin-ton-crypto-review-going-to-zero): My bearish Toncoin (TON) review: a $20B unlock overhang, NFTs and sites on IPFS off chain, no transparent team, and why I think it's going to zero.
- [Sui (SUI) Crypto Review: Why I Think This Fake Web3 Copycat Is Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/sui-crypto-review-going-to-zero): My honest Sui (SUI) review: a $9B fully diluted cap, off-chain NFTs faking Web3, no team transparency, and why I think the price is going to zero.
- [Hedera (HBAR) Crypto Review: Why I Think It's Trending to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/hedera-hbar-crypto-review-going-to-zero): My honest Hedera (HBAR) review: weak tech, an inflated transaction count, no transparency, and a governance council that crushes the token's utility.
- [Chainlink (LINK) Crypto Review: Why I Think It's Heading to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/chainlink-link-review-going-to-zero): My honest Chainlink (LINK) crypto review: why I believe oracles are becoming irrelevant, the token has no real ownership, and LINK is heading to zero.
- [Arweave (AR) Crypto Review: Why I Think It's Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/arweave-ar-review-going-to-zero): My bearish Arweave (AR) review: overpriced permanent storage, no transparent team, and an AO world computer I think is an ICP knockoff on AWS.
- [XRP (Ripple) Crypto Review: Why I Think It's Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/xrp-ripple-crypto-review-going-to-zero): My honest XRP (Ripple) crypto review: bad tokenomics, flat ledger growth, a late stablecoin, and why I think XRP is going to zero. My opinion only.
- [Render (RENDER) Crypto Review: Why I Think It's Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/render-crypto-review-going-to-zero): My honest review of Render (RENDER): a centralized, off-chain Solana payment token I believe is drastically overvalued and trending to zero.
- [Kaspa (KAS) Crypto Review: A Ghost Chain I Think Goes to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/kaspa-kas-crypto-review-a-ghost-chain): My honest Kaspa (KAS) review: why I think this proof-of-work ghost chain is overvalued, copies Kadena, and is likelier to go to zero than beat Bitcoin.
- [JasmyCoin (JASMY) Crypto Review: Why I Think It's Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/jasmycoin-jasmy-review-going-to-zero): My honest JasmyCoin (JASMY) review: no real product, no real ownership, and a concentrated, likely manipulated token I think is going to zero.
- [Solana (SOL) Crypto Review: Why I Think It's Going to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/solana-sol-crypto-review-going-to-zero): My honest Solana (SOL) crypto review: weak on-chain tech, hardly any engineers, and why I think the price is heading to zero. My opinion, not advice.
- [Cardano (ADA) Crypto Review: Why I See the Price Trending to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/cardano-ada-crypto-review-going-to-zero): Why I sold all my Cardano and see ADA's price trending to zero: no users, slow tech, an anonymous team, and why I moved my money into ICP instead.
- [You Secretly Want Your Crypto to Go to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/you-secretly-want-your-crypto-to-zero): My honest take on the self-sabotaging part of us that loves to struggle, why I've taken my own crypto to zero, and what it means for how you invest.
- [My Weirdest Moment in Bitcoin: I Tried to Pull a $6 Million Private Key Out of Thin Air](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-weirdest-moment-in-bitcoin): The weirdest thing I've done in ten years of crypto: trying to pull a lost wallet's Bitcoin private key out of the ether with a pendulum.
- [Find Value in Crypto Where Others See Trash and You'll Instantly Be Rich](https://jerrybanfield.com/find-value-in-crypto-where-others-see): My take on finding value in crypto others dismiss as trash. From a WWII shipping magnate to ICP and Facebook ads, it's all about your mindset and filters.
- [The Courage to Be Disliked in Crypto](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-courage-to-be-disliked-in-crypto): Why I'm doubling down on the courage to be disliked in crypto, dropping approval seeking and making only evergreen videos I'd still watch in 10 years.
- [How to Keep Your Crypto Safe](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-to-keep-your-crypto-safe): My 10 years of crypto safety lessons: get off exchanges, use one wallet, guard your recovery phrase, avoid DM scams, and never sell too early.
- [From $0 to Crypto Millionaire Without Buying Bitcoin or Altcoins](https://jerrybanfield.com/from-0-to-crypto-millionaire): I changed my identity to crypto millionaire first, then watched it show up in my portfolio - my mindset-first path through Bitcoin and all-in on ICP.
- [Arcblock (ABT) Crypto Review: I Have Serious Concerns](https://jerrybanfield.com/arcblock-abt-crypto-review): My Arcblock (ABT) review: an ERC-20 since 2018 with empty docs, no team listed, and concentrated supply. In my opinion, a very high risk of going to zero.
- [What to Do After a Crypto Rug Pull](https://jerrybanfield.com/what-to-do-after-a-crypto-rugpull): After getting rug pulled in crypto, here is what I learned: stop chasing high risk, look for asymmetric risk, and why it led me to Internet Computer.
- [My Day in Bitcoin Addiction Treatment: Crypto Can Destroy Your Life](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-day-in-bitcoin-addiction-treatment): My honest story of cryptocurrency addiction, how it destroyed my finances and business, and the simple treatment that gave me a sane approach to crypto.
- [You're Not Poor, You're Getting Robbed](https://jerrybanfield.com/youre-not-poor-youre-getting-robbed): Why I believe you're not poor, you're getting robbed by inflation and the money matrix, and the way I see to break free with Internet Computer Protocol.
- [The Huge Lies Crypto YouTubers Are Telling You](https://jerrybanfield.com/huge-lies-crypto-youtubers-tell): The huge lies crypto YouTubers tell you, from my own experience as a former one: fake decentralization, hidden bags, course scams, and how to spot them.
- [A Warning to Bitcoin Miners](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-warning-to-bitcoin-miners): Why I think investing in Bitcoin miners is dangerous: the halving, mining economics, and why the Internet Computer is vastly more efficient.
- [How to Do Your Own Research (DYOR) in Cryptocurrency](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-to-do-your-own-research-dyor): How I do my own research in crypto after 10 years: start with the technology, actually use it, ignore the hype, and watch who you listen to.
- [A Tough-Love Take on Why Your Crypto Investing Sucks (and How to Improve)](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-your-crypto-investing-sucks): My blunt, first-person take on why most crypto investing fails, the few things I think actually matter, and why I went all in on Internet Computer.
- [Airdrops in Crypto: Everything You Need to Know](https://jerrybanfield.com/airdrops-in-crypto-everything-you-need): Why I think crypto airdrops are a waste of time in 99% of cases after 10 years in crypto, plus how to get free ICP just by using something you already use.
- [Gala Music (GALA) Honest Review and Price Prediction: Why I Think It Goes to Zero](https://jerrybanfield.com/gala-music-honest-review-goes-to-zero): My honest Gala Music (GALA) crypto review and price prediction: a top-heavy ERC-20 token, no real Web3, and why I think it heads to zero.
- [Sei (SEI) Crypto Review: A Warning for Holders](https://jerrybanfield.com/sei-crypto-review-warning-holders): My honest, bearish review of Sei (SEI): why I think this $7B Layer 1 is a Solana copy with bot followers, no team page, and big downside risk.
- [TitanX (TITANX) Honest Review: Why I'd Never Touch This Coin](https://jerrybanfield.com/titanx-honest-review-why-id-never-touch): My brutally honest TitanX (TITANX) review: a centralized, no-utility coin in the HEX and ZEN mold that I'd never touch, and why I think it's garbage.

## YouTube & Content Creation
- [The Best AI YouTube Workflow Ever](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-best-ai-youtube-workflow-ever): How I use ChatGPT, Gemini, and Claude to turn one recording into a YouTube upload, blog post, and metadata across six channels in three hours a day.
- [Why I Pay $400 a Month for ChatGPT and Claude](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-pay-400-a-month-for-chatgpt): Why I pay $400 a month for Claude Max and ChatGPT Pro together: running two heavy AI tasks at once to build games, websites, and six YouTube channels.
- [I Know Too Many Ways to Make Money On YouTube](https://jerrybanfield.com/ways-make-money-youtube): Why, after a hundred ways to make money online and a billion views, I went all in on one thing as a YouTuber: a paid Skool community with recurring income.
- [Everyone Should Start a YouTube Channel Even If Nobody Watches](https://jerrybanfield.com/everyone-should-start-a-youtube-channel): Why I believe everyone should start a YouTube channel for character development, not money — 15 years of lessons on facing fears, growth, and going pro.
- [I Built a Content Empire, Deleted It, and Finally Understand Creation](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-built-a-content-empire-deleted): Jerry Banfield built a billion-view content empire, deleted it all, and shares why helping people beats chasing views, money, and guru programs.
- [Your 50-View YouTube Video Might Be Worth $100](https://jerrybanfield.com/your-50-view-youtube-video-might-be): Why every thumbnail is a free display ad: how a discreet call to action on low-view videos can turn thousands of wasted impressions into paid one-on-one calls.
- [Small YouTubers Stop Making Videos. Go Live for 30 Minutes Instead.](https://jerrybanfield.com/small-youtubers-stop-making-videos-go): How I grew six brand-new YouTube channels from zero to millions of impressions and real revenue by going live 30 minutes a day instead of uploading videos.
- [Thousands of Views, $1,500 Paychecks: The Creator Dream Is Alive with Jerry Banfield](https://jerrybanfield.com/thousands-of-views-1-500-paychecks): After deleting all my channels, I rebuilt from scratch and got 147,000 views and $1,500 in 100 days. Here's exactly how I did it and why the creator dream is alive.
- [Can I Turn My Skills Into a $10,000 a Month Local Business](https://jerrybanfield.com/can-i-turn-my-skills-into-a-10-000): My theory and plan for turning my online skills (YouTube, AI, content creation) into a $10,000-a-month local business in St. Petersburg.
- [Making Money After You Quit the Thing That Made You Rich](https://jerrybanfield.com/making-money-after-quitting): After deleting millions of followers and the income that came with them, here's how I'm rebuilding a way to make money with integrity, on faith.
- [I Tested Every YouTube Format. Live Streams Won.](https://jerrybanfield.com/tested-every-youtube-format): I ran shorts, long form, and live streams across six brand new YouTube channels for a year. Here is the data on why live streams won.
- [YouTubers Follow the Cult of Done Manifesto](https://jerrybanfield.com/youtubers-follow-the-cult-of-done): Why the Cult of Done Manifesto is the YouTube philosophy I live by: create constantly, laugh at perfection, and just get your videos done.
- [Most YouTubers Waste Their Impressions](https://jerrybanfield.com/most-youtubers-waste-their-impressions): Most YouTubers obsess over views and waste their impressions. Here's why making every title and thumbnail communicate value builds lifelong fans.
- [YouTube's New AI Custom Feed Changes Everything](https://jerrybanfield.com/youtubes-new-ai-custom-feed-changes): YouTube's new Your Custom Feed uses AI to surface ultra-niche videos on demand, and it's a game changer for small creators trying to get discovered.
- [The YouTube Growth Formula I Found Launching 6 New Channels](https://jerrybanfield.com/youtube-growth-formula-6-new-channels): After launching 6 new YouTube channels and tracking 141 uploads, here's the growth formula my data shows: shorts as the foundation, short clips to compound, live streams to convert.
- [Turn Your YouTube Videos Into Blog Posts With AI for Free Traffic](https://jerrybanfield.com/turn-youtube-videos-into-blog-posts): I built an AI pipeline that turns my YouTube videos into blog posts for free Google traffic — here's the workflow, the early proof, and why every creator should do it.
- [YouTube as an Amateur vs Professional: What I Learned](https://jerrybanfield.com/youtube-as-an-amateur-vs-professional): Why you should start YouTube as an amateur having fun before going pro, the trap of over-optimizing, and the hard truth about depending on YouTube income.
- [Winning the War of Art: Breaking Through Creative Resistance](https://jerrybanfield.com/winning-the-war-of-art-breaking-through): How I push through creative resistance to keep making videos, why creation is a grind, and the journey of selling and buying back my whole studio.
- [Why I'm the Right YouTube Coach for Experienced Creators](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-im-the-right-youtube-coach): After 10+ channels since 2011, here's what I've learned about coaching real YouTubers: stop niching, grind out content, and ignore generic advice.
- [Why I'm Focusing All My Energy Back on YouTube](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-im-focusing-all-my-energy-back): Day 5,017 on YouTube: why I'm dropping X and Twitch to focus on what I'm good at, being present as a dad, and thriving through the hurricanes.
- [Why I Rebuilt My Deleted YouTube Channels and Segmented My Content](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-rebuilt-my-deleted-youtube): Day 5,013 on YouTube: I created three new channels, segmented my crypto, gaming, and vlog content, reopened Twitch, and reflected on tennis and role models.
- [Why I Deleted 30 Million YouTube Views for a Fresh Start](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-deleted-30-million-youtube-views): Why I deleted over 30 million YouTube views and thousands of videos, what a guidelines violation taught me, and how I rebuilt with variety content.
- [Why Getting What You Want Can Wreck You](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-getting-what-you-want-can-wreck-you): Why I grind out daily videos, what counting three-pointers taught me, and how getting everything I wanted once destroyed my whole reality.
- [Why 99% of YouTube Views Are Worthless](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-99-of-youtube-views-are-worthless): My honest take on why YouTube views don't equal value, how bots and the algorithm reward worthless content, and why I'm going back to basics.
- [What I'd Do Differently With Udemy, Facebook Gaming, and Crypto](https://jerrybanfield.com/what-id-do-differently-with-udemy): After getting banned and burned out, I learned that consistency beats domination. Here's how I'd approach Udemy, Facebook Gaming, and crypto again.
- [What I Do on YouTube When I Have Zero Inspiration](https://jerrybanfield.com/what-i-do-on-youtube-when-i-have-zero): On an uninspired day I reflect on music, tennis, gaming, rest, and the one habit that breaks the creative block: just record something.
- [What 14 Years as a YouTuber Taught Me About Intention](https://jerrybanfield.com/what-14-years-as-a-youtuber-taught-me): After 14 years, 10,000+ videos, and thousands of streaming hours, here's the number one lesson I learned: chase how you feel, not views and money.
- [Valentine's Day 2025: Sponsorships, ICP, Tennis, and Music](https://jerrybanfield.com/valentines-day-2025-sponsorships-icp): Jerry shares his Valentine's Day 2025: a sponsorship proposal, dreaming about moving, tennis with friends, focusing Twitch on music, and feeling rich on ICP.
- [Self-Sabotage, The Mountain Is You, and Uprooting](https://jerrybanfield.com/self-sabotage-the-mountain-is-you): How I recognized uprooting self-sabotage in my life and business, why I kept deleting my work, and how I plan to let success stay.
- [Opportunity Cost: What I'm Willing to Give Up](https://jerrybanfield.com/opportunity-cost-what-im-willing-to-give): A daily reflection on opportunity cost, boundaries, and choices: the conversation I had with my daughter about wanting things and what we trade for them.
- [OBS Multistreaming Made Easy and Free in 2025 with AITUM](https://jerrybanfield.com/obs-multistreaming-made-easy-and-free): How I multistream to Twitch, YouTube, Kick, and TikTok for free using OBS and the AITUM multi-stream and vertical plugins, set up step by step.
- [New YouTubers: Publish One Video a Day to Win Long-Term](https://jerrybanfield.com/new-youtubers-publish-one-video-a-day): My advice to new YouTubers from 14 years and thousands of videos: publish daily, don't niche, sell coaching not courses, and build for the long term.
- [My March 7th Vlog: Returning to Twitch, Crypto Calls, and a Date Night](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-march-7th-vlog-returning-to-twitch): Jerry Banfield's March 7, 2025 vlog: why he's streaming on Twitch again, a crypto coaching call, AA reflections, and an unexpected date night with Laura.
- [Is TikTok Worth Your Time in 2025? In My Experience, No](https://jerrybanfield.com/is-tiktok-worth-your-time-in-2025): Why I deleted TikTok and put my time into YouTube: the views-vs-impressions trick, dead content, low conversions, and fair monetization.
- [Is 10,000 Views a Day Enough on YouTube?](https://jerrybanfield.com/is-10-000-views-a-day-enough-on-youtube): After 5,005 days on YouTube, I ask when views are finally enough, why I set 10,000 a day as my line, and how that frees me to have fun creating.
- [I'm Done Trying to Be Someone Else](https://jerrybanfield.com/im-done-trying-to-be-someone-else): Why I stopped copying everyone else, what getting sober taught me about authenticity, and how the regrets of the dying changed how I live.
- [I Created 10 New YouTube Channels and Then Deleted Them](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-created-10-new-youtube-channels): Why I built 10-plus niche YouTube channels chasing the algorithm, deleted them, and came back to one variety channel where I can do everything.
- [How I Measure Success as a YouTuber Without Views or Money](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-i-measure-success-as-a-youtuber): After 14 years online, I stopped measuring success by views and money and started measuring it by whether creating leaves me feeling good.
- [How I Auto-Post New YouTube Videos to X with Zapier and Buffer](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-i-auto-post-new-youtube-videos-to-x): How I automatically post my new YouTube videos to X using Zapier and Buffer, including the setup steps, costs, and warnings I learned firsthand.
- [Have Fun First as a Creator and Accept the Views You Get](https://jerrybanfield.com/have-fun-first-as-a-creator-and-accept): After 14 years creating content, I've learned the one non-negotiable is having fun first. Chasing views and money instead is how I kept going wrong.
- [Focus on Your True Fans, Not Views, Money, or Minutes Watched](https://jerrybanfield.com/focus-on-your-true-fans-not-views-money): Why I stopped chasing views and started making content my most loyal YouTube and Twitch fans actually love, and the one metric that matters.
- [Everything I'm Frustrated About as a YouTuber and Streamer](https://jerrybanfield.com/everything-im-frustrated-about): I take an honest inventory of 14 years of self-sabotage on YouTube, Twitch, Udemy and crypto, and what I'm finally changing about how I create.
- [Dear Busy Works Beats: A Thank You and a Wish for More Music](https://jerrybanfield.com/dear-busy-works-beats-a-thank-you): Why Busy Works Beats is my YouTube role model after 10 years, my wish for an instrumental music playlist, and what his consistency taught me about the grind.
- [Day 5,018: Patios, Free Couches, and a Nine-Minute Mile](https://jerrybanfield.com/day-5-018-patios-free-couches-and-a-nine): My February 23, 2025 vlog: laying patio bricks with my son, wiping my streaming PC, running my fastest mile in a decade, and getting a third free couch.
- [Day 5,014: Six YouTube Channels, 6,000 Twitch Followers, and Loving Myself](https://jerrybanfield.com/day-5-014-six-youtube-channels-6-000): Inside my day building six YouTube channels, hitting 6,000 Twitch followers, ICP giveaways, tennis, the brick patio, and why I segment my audience.
- [Criticism Is a Sign of Success You Can Mostly Ignore](https://jerrybanfield.com/criticism-is-a-sign-of-success-you-can): Why heavy criticism means a content creator is making a real difference, how I filter feedback, and why I never apologize publicly to haters.
- [Choosing Music: My 5,007th Day on YouTube](https://jerrybanfield.com/choosing-music-my-5-007th-day-on-youtube): On my 5,007th day on YouTube I figured out music is what I really want to create, why I'm pivoting Twitch, and why I'm dropping clickbait vlogs.
- [An Actual Day in My Life as a Full-Time YouTuber](https://jerrybanfield.com/an-actual-day-in-my-life-as-a-full-time): A raw, filmed-on-location day in my life as a full-time YouTuber: the quantity vs quality grind, a new vlog format, doubts, and a reality check.
- [After 14 Years and 10,000 Videos, I'm Deleting My Last Channel](https://jerrybanfield.com/after-14-years-and-10-000-videos-im): After 14 years and thousands of videos, I'm deleting my last YouTube channel to unplug from the internet and help people in person.
- [A Friend Had to Unfollow Me, and It Made Me Rethink Everything](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-friend-had-to-unfollow-me-and-it-made): A friend told me she had to unfollow me because my public persona made it harder to know me in person. Here is what that taught me about identity and truth.
- [A Day on My 5,010th Day on YouTube: Crypto, Hot Yoga, and Ice Cream](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-day-on-my-5-010th-day-on-youtube): My daily report: making crypto videos, hot yoga, MIDI tools, fixing rain barrels, and choosing family ice cream over the fear of getting fat.
- [A Day in My Life: Twitch, Yoga, and Saying Hell Yes or No](https://jerrybanfield.com/a-day-in-my-life-twitch-yoga-and-saying): A March 2025 daily diary from Jerry Banfield on returning to Twitch, family life, crypto resentment, and why life should be hell yes or no.
- [Why I'm Quitting Twitch After 9 Years and 6,000 Followers](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-im-quitting-twitch-after-9-years): After nine years and thousands of streams, I'm leaving Twitch to focus on YouTube. Here's the revenue, the numbers, and the reasoning behind it.
- [14 Years and 10,000 Videos on YouTube: What I Learned](https://jerrybanfield.com/14-years-and-10-000-videos-on-youtube): After 14 years and 10,000+ videos across YouTube, Twitch, and Kick, here's what I learned about burnout, bots, and making content that actually satisfies you.
- [I'm Starting Over on YouTube. Here's My Exact Plan.](https://jerrybanfield.com/im-starting-over-on-youtube-my-exact-plan): I deleted all 15 of my YouTube channels and started over with 5 new ones. Here's my exact business plan, monetization model, and daily workflow.
- [Is Starting a New YouTube Channel in 2026 Worth It? My Results](https://jerrybanfield.com/is-starting-a-new-youtube-channel-in-2026-worth-it): I deleted 15 channels and a billion views, then started 5 from zero. Here is why 2026 is the best time I have ever seen to begin.
- [The Top 500 YouTube Channels Teach This One Lesson](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-top-500-youtube-channels-teach-this): The top 500 YouTube channels by views teach one lesson the gurus gloss over: quantity beats quality. Why the most-viewed channels grind out videos — and why you should too.
- [No Title or Thumbnail Will Get Your Small YouTube Channel Views](https://jerrybanfield.com/no-title-or-thumbnail-small-youtube-channel): I deleted hundreds of thousands of subs, started over, and learned why titles and thumbnails won't grow your small YouTube channel.
- [My Set-It-and-Forget-It YouTube Upload System for 6 Channels](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-set-it-and-forget-it-youtube-upload-system): My set-it-and-forget-it system for six YouTube channels — one video a day each, batched, cross-promoted for session time, and funneled to one offer so I can schedule ahead and take days off.
- [You Only Need 1 View a Day to Go Full-Time on YouTube](https://jerrybanfield.com/you-only-need-1-view-a-day-to-go-full-time-on-youtube): I show how one YouTube view a day, one $99 call, and weekly coaching can take me full-time without a course.
- [My 2026 YouTube Equipment List ($10,262 in Gear)](https://jerrybanfield.com/youtube-equipment-2026): My full 2026 YouTube equipment list — about $10,262 of gear I use to film six videos a day, from the PC and Sony FX30 to mics, monitors, lighting, and capture.
- [My 2026 OBS Settings for Recording and Streaming](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-obs-settings-2026): I walk you through my exact 2026 OBS settings for recording and live streaming six YouTube videos a day with no plugins.
- [My 2026 YouTube Studio Tour: How It's All Connected](https://jerrybanfield.com/studio-tour-2026): A full tour of my 2026 YouTube studio showing how everything connects — PC, mics, the Sony FX30, lighting, green screen, Stream Deck, and consoles.
- [Inauthentic Content: Proactive Steps to Avoid This YouTube Flag](https://jerrybanfield.com/inauthentic-content-avoid-this-youtube-flag): YouTube has been flagging inauthentic content, so I show you how I keep all my channels human to avoid the flag and stay monetized.
- [Most YouTube Advice Is Built for Views, Not Income](https://jerrybanfield.com/most-youtube-advice-is-built-for-views-not-income): I make more from tiny channels by sending viewers to paid calls instead of chasing views, and here is exactly how I do it.
- [My New Rule for YouTube Video Length](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-new-rule-for-youtube-video-length): After talking with Gemini about whether long videos hurt the algorithm, I set a new rule: a five-minute max. Here's why completion rate beats watch time and short, specific videos win.
- [How to Use Niche YouTube Channels to Promote Each Other](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-to-use-niche-youtube-channels-to-promote-each-other): I run six niche YouTube channels and cross-promote them inside my videos to funnel viewers between audiences. Here's exactly how I do it.
- [Google Ads YouTube Tutorial: Promote Your Channel the Right Way](https://jerrybanfield.com/google-ads-youtube-tutorial): I walk you through my exact Google Ads setup to promote a YouTube channel locally without garbaging up my organic traffic.
- [How I Increased CTR, Views, and Satisfaction With a Few Small Changes](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-i-increased-ctr-views-and-satisfaction): A few simple changes took me to a 10% click-through rate across six channels: a five-minute max, ongoing story arcs, and a little humor. Here's exactly what I changed.
- [Google Ads Poisoned My YouTube Organic Traffic for Weeks](https://jerrybanfield.com/google-ads-poisoned-my-youtube-organic-traffic): I spent $418 on Google Ads to promote my YouTube videos and it poisoned my organic traffic for over two weeks. Here's the analytics nobody warns you about — and why I'll never do it again.
- [AI Can Make You a Millionaire If You Change How You Think](https://jerrybanfield.com/ai-can-make-you-a-millionaire): The exact Claude, ChatGPT, and Gemini workflow I use to run my channel — and the mindset shift that had to come first before AI could make any of it work.
- [Jerry Banfield Crypto Reviews is Now Jerry Banfield Money](https://jerrybanfield.com/crypto-reviews-to-money): I'm rebranding from Jerry Banfield Crypto Reviews to Jerry Banfield Money — why daily coin reviews stopped working and where I'm taking this channel next.
- [Zooming In on My Best Offer](https://jerrybanfield.com/zooming-in-on-my-best-offer): A comment told me to stop selling my time and focus on delivering the promise. It led to one clear offer — a community — that represents a whole life transformation.
- [Your Upload Schedule Is Not the Problem](https://jerrybanfield.com/your-upload-schedule-is-not-the-problem): Posting more isn't what grows a channel. The real formula is live streams plus clips, published at the same time daily — and never competing with yourself.
- [The Biggest Problem for Most Creators](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-biggest-problem-for-most-creators): Most creators' content vanishes within 24 hours. The fix: train a custom AI on everything you've ever made so your experience stays searchable forever.
- [My Current Income, Expenses, and Business Plan](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-current-income-expenses-and-business-plan): Radical transparency: I make about $1,000 a month, borrow $5,000 more, and owe on a negative net worth. Here's the exact plan to reach $10,000 a month.
- [I Pay for Claude, ChatGPT, and Gemini for God-Mode Business Advice](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-pay-for-claude-chatgpt-and-gemini-for-god-mode-business): How I run Claude, ChatGPT, and Gemini together for branding, business models, and content — and why paid AI is god mode if you're a solo creator with no team.
- [After 10,000 Videos, This Is My Simple YouTube Growth Formula](https://jerrybanfield.com/after-10-000-videos-this-is-my-simple-youtube-growth-formula): After 10,000 videos and a billion views, my whole YouTube system is two steps: one short video a day, then a paid Skool community to monetize and keep fans.
- [One Video a Day: The Simple YouTube Strategy Nobody Wants to Hear](https://jerrybanfield.com/one-video-a-day-the-simple-youtube-strategy-nobody-wants-to): I've uploaded 10,000+ videos since 2011. The whole YouTube growth strategy: one five-minute video a day per channel, scheduled, no excuses. Here's why it works.
- [Deleting Everything To Choose Real Life](https://jerrybanfield.com/deleting-everything-for-real-life): I finally deleted every channel for good, traded the global audience for a local podcast, and started over in real life.
- [Why I Kept Deleting Everything I Built](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-kept-deleting-everything): Paranoia pushed me to wipe thousands of videos and whole channels again and again, destroying the audiences I'd spent years building.
- [How I Became a Top Udemy Instructor and Got Banned](https://jerrybanfield.com/top-udemy-instructor-then-banned): I climbed into Udemy's top ten instructors and went viral on YouTube, then got banned for being too honest about how it worked.
- [How Andre Agassi Helped Me Come Back to Crypto YouTube](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-andre-agassi-helped-me-come-back): Andre Agassi hated tennis but kept playing. His book Open is one reason I came back to making daily crypto and ICP videos on YouTube.
- [What I Learned After Uploading 5,000 Videos to YouTube](https://jerrybanfield.com/what-i-learned-uploading-5000-videos): After 5,000 videos across 10+ channels in 13 years, here is what I learned about consistency, niche channels, dropping the edit, and being raw and real.
- [Why I Love Being a "Failure" on YouTube](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-love-being-a-failure-on-youtube): After 13 years and 5,000+ videos, I'd rather be a happy YouTube "failure" than a swarmed, scrutinized success. Here's why freedom beats views.
- [From a Small Streamer to a Top Facebook Gaming Partner to Demonetized With No Regrets](https://jerrybanfield.com/from-small-streamer-to-facebook-partner): My full Facebook Gaming arc: from small streamer to top partner making $10K a month, to getting demonetized, and why I have no regrets.
- [Why I Deleted 2 Million Followers on Facebook, Instagram, TikTok, and LinkedIn](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-deleted-2m-followers-on-facebook): Why I deleted 2M+ followers across Facebook, Instagram, TikTok, and LinkedIn to focus on YouTube and only stay on platforms that give a fair deal.
- [Being a Big YouTuber Is Not Fun](https://jerrybanfield.com/being-a-big-youtuber-is-not-fun): After billions of impressions and being banned, sued-adjacent, and mobbed by fans, here's my candid take on why being a big YouTuber is not fun.
- [Getting More YouTube Views by Ignoring the Studio Analytics](https://jerrybanfield.com/getting-more-youtube-views-by-ignoring): After 13 years on YouTube, my secret to the most views I've ever had is ignoring the Studio analytics and changing my identity around what I want.
- [Why I Deleted 500 Crypto Videos From YouTube](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-deleted-500-crypto-videos-from-youtube): After 10 years sober and a Neville Goddard study, I deleted over 500 negative crypto videos from YouTube to focus on what I love: ICP and OpenChat.
- [Every YouTuber Should Try vidIQ Coaching](https://jerrybanfield.com/every-youtuber-should-try-vidiq-coaching): After 13 years and 4,000 videos I finally got a YouTube coach on vidIQ, and one question reframed my whole channel strategy around thought leadership.
- [Why You Don't Need to Edit Your YouTube Videos to Go Viral](https://jerrybanfield.com/you-dont-need-to-edit-youtube-videos): I've uploaded 4,000+ unedited videos since 2011. Why you don't need to edit your YouTube videos to go viral: just hit record, talk, upload, and repeat.
- [I'm Quitting Twitch Streaming, Hopefully for Good](https://jerrybanfield.com/im-quitting-twitch-streaming-hopefully): Why I'm quitting Twitch streaming again: an 80/20 analysis showed it was screwing up my video creating, and everything is easier off stream.
- [OBS NDI Source Not Showing? Run OBS as Administrator to Fix It](https://jerrybanfield.com/obs-ndi-source-not-showing-run): If your NDI source isn't showing in OBS, running OBS as an administrator fixed it for me instantly. Here are the exact steps.
- [How to Get So Good at YouTube You Can't Stop Going Viral](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-to-get-so-good-at-youtube-you-cant): After 13 years and 10,000 videos, here's my complete playbook for YouTube: niche channels, long-form value, one-on-one calls, mentors, and Twitch community.
- [My Udemy Story: From Top 10 Instructor to Banned](https://jerrybanfield.com/udemy-story-top-10-instructor-to-banned): How I became a top 10 Udemy instructor earning $663K, then got banned and went viral, and why I'll never sell an online course again.
- [My YouTube Analytics Across 5 Channels With 300K Subscribers (Feb 2024)](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-youtube-analytics-across-5-channels): A channel-by-channel breakdown of my YouTube analytics across 5 channels and 300K subscribers, the ad revenue, and the Twitch-to-YouTube formula.
- [Lessons From Multistreaming 1069 Hours So You Don't Have To](https://jerrybanfield.com/lessons-from-multistreaming-1069-hours): After thousands of hours multistreaming on Twitch, Kik, YouTube, TikTok and Facebook, here's why I now stream only on Twitch and post only to YouTube.
- [How Much YouTube Actually Paid Me: 300K Subs, 3 Channels, 12 Years](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-much-youtube-actually-paid-me): What YouTube actually paid me across 3 channels with 300K subscribers and 12 years of experience, plus the lessons behind the numbers.
- [Top 3 Lessons I Learned as a Twitch Streamer, YouTuber, and Podcaster in 2022](https://jerrybanfield.com/top-3-lessons-i-learned-as-a-twitch): My top 3 lessons from 10 years online: build where there's no algorithm, play a game that's in demand, and stay out of conversational potholes.
- [Why Streaming to 1 Viewer Is Better Than 1000](https://jerrybanfield.com/streaming-to-1-viewer-beats-1000): After thousands of live viewers, I learned why streaming to one viewer beats a thousand: more freedom, less stress, and real connection.
- [How I Handle Trolls and Haters as a Creator](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-i-handle-trolls-and-haters): After tens of thousands of nasty comments, here's how I handle trolls and haters as a Twitch streamer and YouTuber, and the boundaries that saved me.

## Dating & Relationships
- [Dating Is Hard Because You’re Looking for an Exception](https://jerrybanfield.com/dating-is-hard-because-youre-looking): Dating is like a puzzle: find the one person you truly fit with. My puzzle-piece approach to compatibility, kids, and why rejection isn't personal.
- [How I Invite a Woman to Approach Me Without Saying a Word](https://jerrybanfield.com/invite-woman-approach-you): The warm-approach practice I used at yoga yesterday: how I silently invite a woman to approach me first — no cold approach, no apps, no saying a word.
- [How to Help a Woman Approach You Without Saying a Word](https://jerrybanfield.com/help-woman-approach-you): How I silently open my heart so a woman feels safe approaching me first — real stories from my yoga classes, my marriage, and hard lessons learned.
- [Dating Is Hard Because We Haven’t Forgiven](https://jerrybanfield.com/dating-is-hard-because-we-havent): Dating isn't broken — our hearts are. My experience after divorce: forgiving myself, my ex, and everyone I've dated is the key to opening up and connecting.
- [Only Date Average Looking Women](https://jerrybanfield.com/date-average-looking-women): I lived the beauty-first dating strategy for 15 years. Here's the trophy trap, what it cost me, and why compatibility beats a nine or a ten.
- [Women Are Paying Men to Be Boyfriends](https://jerrybanfield.com/women-are-paying-men-to-be-boyfriends): A friend earns $10K a month as a platonic paid boyfriend. Why safe men are in demand, why women must initiate now, and my own safe-man dating strategy.
- [I Woke Up Depressed… Then Fixed My Business](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-woke-up-depressed-then-fixed): How I moved through a depressed weekend with AA, yoga, parties, and ChatGPT Pro, then found my one offer: one-on-one calls promoted on every thumbnail.
- [I'll Never Ask a Woman Out Again](https://jerrybanfield.com/ill-never-ask-a-woman-out-again): Why I stopped chasing, quit asking women out, and decided to let the right woman pursue me instead. My honest dating experience.
- [Who's Supposed to Text First?](https://jerrybanfield.com/who-texts-first): I studied 100 dating videos to figure out who reaches out first, why niceness kills attraction, and why I won't cold approach.
- [Tactics Get You the Date — Not the Marriage](https://jerrybanfield.com/tactics-not-marriage): I studied 100+ dating YouTubers. Most teach attraction tactics that land a date but sabotage a real relationship. Here's the gap I found.
- [Stop Diagnosing Your Dates as Narcissists](https://jerrybanfield.com/stop-diagnosing-narcissists): I watched the dating coaches pushing red-flag and boundary talk, and here's why I think it makes daters paranoid, plus my boundary-vs-comfort-zone rule.
- [Your Standards Are Too High — Mine Were Too](https://jerrybanfield.com/standards-too-high): I studied 100 dating videos and learned my standards were too high. Burn the checklist, take the default second date, and stop waiting for perfect.
- [The Romantic Spark Is a Trap](https://jerrybanfield.com/romantic-spark-trap): I studied 100 dating videos and learned the intense spark is often anxiety and trauma-bonding. Here's why calm, 'boring' love is the real green flag.
- [The Gender War Is a Lie](https://jerrybanfield.com/gender-war-lie): I studied 100+ dating videos and found the red-pill, manosphere, transactional stuff that pits men against women. Here's why the gender war is a lie.
- [Everybody's Doing It Different](https://jerrybanfield.com/everybody-dating-different): I studied dating creators covering asexual, long-distance, over-50, poly, and divorced-dad dating. Here's what actually landed for me.
- [Attraction Gets You In — Regulation Keeps You](https://jerrybanfield.com/attraction-vs-regulation): I studied 100 dating videos and the coaches who nailed the emotional side: attachment, emotional availability, repair, and the safety that keeps a relationship.
- [Be Yourself Is the Best Dating Advice Nobody Understands](https://jerrybanfield.com/be-yourself-is-the-best-dating-advice): Why performing on dates wins short-term but costs you everything. My breakthrough on being authentic, filtering fast, and finding someone who loves the real you.
- [She Didn't Feel the Spark, So I Studied Romantic Chemistry](https://jerrybanfield.com/she-didnt-feel-the-spark): After 20 first dates post-divorce, I kept hearing there's no spark. So I studied romantic chemistry: fun, connection, and intimacy.
- [I'm Seeking a Wife](https://jerrybanfield.com/im-seeking-a-wife): A book written directly to my future wife: who I am today, what I'm seeking in marriage and family, and the life I want to build sober, present, all in.
- [It's Not You, It's the Dating Apps](https://jerrybanfield.com/its-not-you-its-the-dating-apps): I spent a decade in online dating and went back to test Hinge, Bumble, and Tinder. It's not you, it's the apps. Plus 25 ways to date without them.
- [Men Are Going All In on Dating](https://jerrybanfield.com/men-going-all-in-dating): Why I'm all in on dating after divorce, the pain and ghosting I've endured, and how the failures are building me into a stronger man.
- [The Yoga Crush That Shook My Marriage](https://jerrybanfield.com/yoga-crush-shook-my-marriage): A woman at yoga sparked an obsession that exposed everything missing in my marriage, until my sponsor told me to walk away.
- [How I Ruined My Dream Date](https://jerrybanfield.com/ruined-my-dream-date): I finally got a date with a gorgeous girl, then sabotaged it because gaming had fried me, spiraling into self-hatred.
- [What It Actually Means to Be Good at Dating](https://jerrybanfield.com/what-it-actually-means-to-be-good): Jerry Banfield's honest take on what good at dating really means: adding value, having fun, being honest, and building a life over chasing a body count.
- [Everyone Isn't Doing Their Best](https://jerrybanfield.com/everyone-isnt-doing-their-best): Why I flipped the cliche: everyone isn't doing their best, they're doing their worst, and why that mindset is oddly more hopeful.
- [Dating Works Better When You Care](https://jerrybanfield.com/dating-works-better-when-you-care): Jerry Banfield on dating after divorce, why his enthusiasm gets read as desperate, ghosting, and why caring still beats playing it cool.
- [In Dating, Find the One and Ignore the Many](https://jerrybanfield.com/in-dating-find-the-one-and-ignore): Dating is not a numbers game. After months of frustration I learned you don't need the many — you only need one outlier. Here's how I stopped chasing.
- [Why "Just Be Yourself" Doesn't Work in Dating](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-just-be-yourself-doesnt-work-in-dating): Everyone tells me to just be myself in dating, but every time I'm authentic I get rejected. Here's why running the game still works for me.
- [My Exact First-Date System After Meeting on a Dating App](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-first-date-system): After 15 years married and a decade dating before that, here's my exact first-date system from dating apps, tested in person yesterday.
- [Divorced Dad in My 40s Wanting More Kids: What I've Learned Dating Again](https://jerrybanfield.com/divorced-dad-40s-wanting-more-kids-dating-again): I'm a divorced dad in my 40s who wants more kids, and here's what dating again has actually taught me.
- [Dating Apps Are a Bad Deal for High-Value Men](https://jerrybanfield.com/dating-apps-are-a-bad-deal-for-high-value-men): Why I think high value men should skip dating apps and meet women in real life, where my best qualities actually show up.
- [The Approach Shirt That Gets Single Women to Hand You Their Number](https://jerrybanfield.com/single-men-approach-shirt): I show you the shirt I designed to get single women to hand me their number without a single cold approach, and how to make your own.
- [My Third Tawkify Match Didn't Text Back After the First Date](https://jerrybanfield.com/third-tawkify-match-no-reply): I had a great first date from my third Tawkify match, then got no reply to my text. Here's how I felt and what I did.
- [My Third Tawkify Match: First Date Story](https://jerrybanfield.com/tawkify-third-match-first-date): My third Tawkify match and first blind date — the unexpected grief, the excitement, and the downward spiral afterward. An honest, human recap of dating again at 41.
- [Tantra Speed Date Review (St. Pete, Florida)](https://jerrybanfield.com/tantra-speed-date-review-st-pete): My review of Tantra speed dating events in the St. Pete / Tampa / Sarasota area — the format, the bead matchmaking, and why I recommend everyone single try at least one.
- [The Yoga Girl Date Story](https://jerrybanfield.com/yoga-girl-date-story): The story of finally going out with a girl I'd seen at yoga for over a year — and how, out of nowhere, she texted me right after another date.
- [She Didn't Look Like Her Dating Profile and It Really Hurt](https://jerrybanfield.com/she-didnt-look-like-her-dating-profile-and-it-really-hurt): I matched on Hinge, then she looked nothing like her profile. Here's why the deception hurt and what it taught me about my own honesty.
- [Should I Go Back on Dating Apps?](https://jerrybanfield.com/should-i-go-back-on-dating-apps): I'm weighing whether to go back on dating apps after divorce, Talkify, a disappointing massage date, and honest feedback from my ex.
- [A Day in My Life: Full-Time YouTuber and Single Dad Speed Dating in St. Pete](https://jerrybanfield.com/day-in-my-life-single-dad-speed-dating-st-pete): A day in my life as a full-time YouTuber and single dad dating again in St. Pete — power yoga, filming six videos, a coaching call, and a Tantra speed-dating event in Sarasota.
- [I Spent Hours Testing Hinge Preferences. Here's What Works](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-spent-hours-testing-hinge-preferences): I tested Hinge preferences for hours to build the most efficient system. Here's exactly how I use deal breakers, distance, and the 'active today' filter to find the right women in five minutes a day.
- [Men on Dating Apps: Look Your Best or Stick to In Person](https://jerrybanfield.com/men-on-dating-apps-look-your-best-or-stick-to-in-person): Hard truths for men on dating apps: without professional photos, a fit physique, and premium you're wasting your time. Go all in — or skip the apps and meet women in person.
- [Less Matches Is More: A Better Way to Use Dating Apps](https://jerrybanfield.com/less-matches-is-more-online-dating): Fewer matches on Hinge, Bumble, and Tinder is actually better. Here's how I polarize my dating profile around my deal breakers to get warmer leads and stop wasting time.
- [My First-Ever Online Date From Hot or Not in 2004](https://jerrybanfield.com/hotornot-2004-first-ever-online-date): The story of my first-ever online date from Hot or Not in 2004 — how I got catfished off a single headshot and survived a deeply awkward Ruby Tuesdays dinner on Pulp Fiction quotes.
- [A Single Mom Ghosted Me — and My Dating Coach's Response Was Epic](https://jerrybanfield.com/single-mom-dating-ghost-story): I got ghosted by a single mom from yoga, handed my phone to my dating coach, and she had me send a video I never would've thought of. The story and the lesson.
- [Men: Stay Single, Skip Hookups, and Seek an Amazing Woman](https://jerrybanfield.com/men-stay-single-skip-hookups-and-seek-an-amazing-woman): I used to chase body count. Now I treasure my sexuality for a wife and family. Why the quantity approach leaves men empty — and how to hold out for quality.
- [Make Dating Fun Again](https://jerrybanfield.com/make-dating-fun-again): The pain of dating is mostly a story you tell yourself. Lean into the fun, treat it like play, and it becomes one of the easiest ways to enjoy your life again.
- [I Spent $10,000 on Dating to Help Build My Business](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-spent-10000-on-dating-to-help-build-my-business-online): People tell me to stop dating and focus on money. I don't, because dating builds the emotional resilience and inspiration that drive my business. They're one loop.
- [I Spent $10,000 Dating and I'm Still Single](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-spent-10-000-dating-and-im-still-single): I've spent over $10,000 dating since my divorce and I'm still single — but it was worth every dollar. What the money actually bought me: clarity and confidence.
- [Dating a Lot Doesn't Mean You're Desperate](https://jerrybanfield.com/dating-a-lot-doesnt-mean-youre-desperate): Ten-plus first dates and no second dates isn't failure or desperation. Why you might just be a niche flavor, why dating builds character, and why to minimize hookups.
- [You're Not Happy Being Single](https://jerrybanfield.com/youre-not-happy-being-single): Telling yourself you're happy being single is like saying you love being broke. Relationships are wealth — get honest, then do the work. Lessons from both sides.
- [I Can't Date Like I Did 15 Years Ago](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-cant-date-like-i-did-15-years-ago): After divorce I can't date like the hunter I was 15 years ago. Slow is a feature: build calm friendship and long-term attraction instead of chasing the spark.
- [The Night I Learned Listening Matters Most](https://jerrybanfield.com/listening-matters-most): After fifteen years with one person, I learned that being patient, present, and truly heard matters more than any technique.
- [How Gaming Ruined My Dream Date](https://jerrybanfield.com/gaming-ruined-my-dream-date): At 17 I blew my dream date because I'd burned all my dopamine gaming first — the start of two decades sabotaging my real life.
- [I'd Rather Feel the Pain Than Nothing](https://jerrybanfield.com/rather-feel-pain-than-nothing): She closed the door a day after we connected and I cried it out, but I'd rather feel this fully than go numb.
- [I Fell in Love With How I Showed Up](https://jerrybanfield.com/fell-in-love-how-i-showed-up): I met someone real and sober at a Halloween gathering, but what I'm proudest of is how boldly and honestly I showed up.
- [I'd Rather Stay Single Than Settle](https://jerrybanfield.com/rather-single-than-settle): When the woman from yoga doesn't show, I eat a slice of humble pie and decide I'd rather stay single and wait than settle for less than I want.
- [I Walked Right Past Her](https://jerrybanfield.com/walked-past-her-being-direct): I let a beautiful neighbor slip by without a word, and it pushed me to stop hiding behind politeness and start being honest about what I want.
- [I Was Too Arrogant to Raise My Game](https://jerrybanfield.com/too-arrogant-raise-game): I let two women at yoga slip by without a word, admitted my confidence had gone rusty, and finally swallowed my pride to raise my game.
- [Each No Makes Room for the Right Yes](https://jerrybanfield.com/each-no-makes-room-right-yes): Buzzing with energy, I turned down a tempting hookup and drove home alone, trusting that every no I say creates space for the right yes.
- [Addicted to Dating Apps in 24 Hours](https://jerrybanfield.com/addicted-dating-apps-24-hours): Within a day on the dating apps I felt my confidence erode and my mind hijacked, so I deleted every app and chose real life instead.
- [Learning to Flirt Again After Marriage](https://jerrybanfield.com/learning-to-flirt-again): After years of keeping my energy contained, I'm relearning how to relate to women, connection first, flirtation second.
- [I Want Love to Find Me the Real Way](https://jerrybanfield.com/love-the-real-way): Newly single, I'd rather meet someone through yoga or a friend than an app, and my energy is roaring back to life.
- [I Have a High Libido and I Choose Monogamy Anyway](https://jerrybanfield.com/high-libido-and-i-choose-monogamy): A candid day-in-the-life: my high libido, my monogamous marriage, an AA meeting that lifted a dark morning, and why I still choose this life.
- [Tuesday Yoga Crush: The Song That Brought My Music Back](https://jerrybanfield.com/tuesday-yoga-crush-song): On July 9, 2023, a crush from yoga inspired me to make a trap song called Tuesday Yoga Crush, and it brought my creativity back.
- [The Yoga Crush That Reignited My Music and My Marriage](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-yoga-crush-that-reignited-my-music): A diary from November 2, 2024: a yoga crush that won't fade, the temptation to leave, and why I chose to treasure my marriage and reignite my music.
- [The Yoga Crush Rule My Wife Doesn't Remember](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-yoga-crush-rule-my-wife-doesnt): On July 10, 2023, I finally told my wife about my yoga crush, and she didn't remember the rule I thought she'd set on sharing my feelings.
- [She Said 'We're Making It Work,' and I Heard an Opening](https://jerrybanfield.com/she-said-were-making-it-work-and-i-heard): My yoga crush said she was 'making it work' with her girlfriend, and I heard an opening. The honest, conflicted aftermath of January 6, 2023.
- [I Said No to Five Hours With My Yoga Crush](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-said-no-to-five-hours-with-my-yoga): On January 8, 2023, my yoga crush stayed for a five-hour workshop and her girlfriend was out of town. Here's why I went home to my family anyway.
- [I Did My First Headstand, Then Fell Over in Front of My Yoga Crush](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-did-my-first-headstand-then-fell-over): After a month away, my yoga crush was back, sitting in my spot. I nailed my first headstand, fell over, and admitted how unhappy I'd become at home.
- [Crying at Yoga Over a Crush I Created Myself](https://jerrybanfield.com/crying-at-yoga-over-a-crush-i-created): On March 24, 2023, my yoga crush didn't show up, I broke down crying, and I admitted the painful truth: I created this whole situation myself.
- [The Day I Told My Yoga Crush I Couldn't Come Back](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-day-i-told-my-yoga-crush): I told my yoga crush I couldn't keep coming to her Sunday class to protect my family, and the look on her face left me full of regret and questions.
- [My Yoga Crush and a New Year's Resolution to Trust My Intuition](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-yoga-crush-new-years-resolution): On New Year's Day 2023, I wrestled with my yoga crush, set a resolution to live more on intuition, and tried to use it to appreciate my wife.
- [My Yoga Crush, Her Girlfriend, and the Line I Won't Cross](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-yoga-crush-her-girlfriend): On January 29, 2023, my yoga crush sat next to me while her girlfriend sat in the back, and it pushed me to wonder where the line really is.
- [My Yoga Crush Asked What's Exciting in My Life, and I Couldn't Tell Her the Truth](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-yoga-crush-asked-whats-exciting): My yoga crush asked what's exciting in my life. The honest answer was her, and I couldn't say it. A diary of one charged January morning.
- [My Yoga Crush, My Marriage, and Feeling Powerless](https://jerrybanfield.com/my-yoga-crush-and-feeling-powerless): On January 20, 2023, my yoga crush came back after two weeks away, and one detail about her past left me feeling powerless and questioning everything.
- [A Stranger on a Bike Crashed My Yoga Crush and Woke Me Up to My Marriage](https://jerrybanfield.com/bike-crashed-yoga-crush-marriage): A guy on a bike interrupted my favorite hour of the week with my yoga crush, and my irrational anger turned into a hard look at my own marriage.
- [What I Learned Watching 20 Hours of Owen Cook (RSD Tyler)](https://jerrybanfield.com/what-i-learned-watching-owen-cook): My honest review of Owen Cook (RSD Tyler): the lessons that stuck on personal responsibility, money, quitting video games, masterminds, and where we differ on dating.
- [The Future of Dating Is Brighter Than You Can Imagine](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-future-of-dating-is-better): I believe the future of dating is brighter than ever. After failing my way to a happy marriage, here's why character beats height, money, and fear.
- [How to Get Over a Breakup Fast](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-to-get-over-a-breakup-fast): Seven things that helped me get over a breakup fast, from connecting with people to leaning into curiosity and stacking the dating odds in your favor.
- [How I Got Over a Broken Heart: A Personal Story](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-i-got-over-a-broken-heart): My honest story of getting over a broken heart, from a college breakup that nearly ended me to the perspective that heals the pain and makes my marriage strong.

## Gaming
- [I Found the Future of Online Gaming and Made It Myself](https://jerrybanfield.com/ai-gaming-and-content-creation-is-huge): I built my own zombies game with a single AI prompt, hosted it on ICP with payments built in, and why AI gaming plus content creation is a huge opportunity.
- [I'm Scared to Play Crusader Kings III Again](https://jerrybanfield.com/scared-to-play-crusader-kings-again): Jerry faces his fear of Crusader Kings III, fights through the two-hour tutorial, and riffs on dating, divorce, and finding the next woman.
- [Addicted to a Card Game While Helping Mom Move](https://jerrybanfield.com/card-game-addiction-helping-mom-move): I got addicted to a card game while overhauling my health and helping my mom move in next door.
- [Top of Facebook Gaming, but Warzone Became My Drug](https://jerrybanfield.com/top-of-facebook-gaming-warzone-drug): I reached the top of Facebook Gaming, felt Warzone turn into a drug, then cracked the code with retro games.
- [Streaming to Blow Up on Facebook Gaming](https://jerrybanfield.com/streaming-blows-up-facebook-gaming): My raw, broke Warzone streams exploded on Facebook, and I finally landed the partner invite with its ugly NDA.
- [A Trampoline Vision Pulled Me Back to Warzone](https://jerrybanfield.com/trampoline-vision-back-to-warzone): I went all-in on an in-person show, then a vision on a trampoline sent me rebuilding a Warzone setup from almost nothing.
- [I Jumped Back Into Gaming and Bet It All](https://jerrybanfield.com/back-to-gaming-and-the-uthena-bet): I returned to gaming after 18 months away, chased the Facebook partner program, then gambled everything on a new venture.
- [Why I Quit Being a Top Gaming Streamer](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-quit-gaming-streaming): I was one of the biggest live streamers on Facebook and YouTube making almost nothing, so I walked away from games entirely.
- [I Was Convinced I Had a Video Game Addiction](https://jerrybanfield.com/video-game-addiction-diagnosis): I moved in with my ex-wife, decided my real problem was video games, and launched a website to cure it.
- [Where to Begin in Hearts of Iron IV](https://jerrybanfield.com/where-to-begin-in-hearts-of-iron-iv): A brand-new Hearts of Iron IV player figures out where to start: skip Germany, pick a tiny country like Canada, and choose a difficulty.
- [I Spent $2,000 on Marvel Snap, Quit in 2024, and This Is My First Play Since](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-spent-2000-on-marvel-snap-quit-in-2024): I spent $2,000 on Marvel Snap, quit in 2024, and didn't log in for two years. Here's my first game back — the shop, the cube, and the range of emotions.
- [The Hardest Thing in Gaming Is Starting a New Game](https://jerrybanfield.com/the-hardest-thing-in-gaming-is-starting-a-new-game): Why playing a game I've never played is the hardest thing in gaming, and how a new game a day keeps gaming fun for me.
- [Chasing The Win That Hollowed Me Out](https://jerrybanfield.com/chasing-the-win-that-hollowed-me-out): Shadow-banned and desperate, I binged Warzone for three days until I nearly skipped my kids' show, and finally saw what it cost.
- [What Facebook's Partner Badge Really Demanded](https://jerrybanfield.com/facebook-partner-badge-price): I finally got the Facebook partner badge I craved, then discovered its secret NDA and how little the fame actually meant.
- [I Became Famous Playing Call of Duty](https://jerrybanfield.com/famous-playing-call-of-duty): Broke and streaming on a $600 PC, I became one of Facebook's top gamers, then learned the players above me were all cheating.
- [I Hooked a Mother on My Livestreams](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-hooked-strangers-on-livestreams): I tricked a mother into watching me game instead of raising her kids, then broke the same screen cycle with my own children.
- [How I Finally Learned to Quit Playing Video Games](https://jerrybanfield.com/how-i-finally-quit-playing-video-games): After tens of thousands of hours and quitting many times, here is how I finally learned to quit playing video games for good and what I do instead.
- [Why Video Games Are a Poor Substitute for Sports](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-video-games-are-a-poor-substitute): After tens of thousands of hours gaming, I got my tennis membership back and remembered the truth: video games are fake fun and a poor substitute for sports.
- [Are Competitive Video Games Zero-Sum Self-Sabotage or Fun Character-Building?](https://jerrybanfield.com/are-competitive-video-games-zero-sum): I wrestle with whether competitive games like Marvel Snap are zero-sum self-sabotage or fun character-building, and what the opportunity cost really is.
- [Why It's Okay to Play Marvel Snap](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-its-okay-to-play-marvel-snap): Why it's okay to play Marvel Snap. Having fun is proof you're wealthy in time, and the difference between fun and addiction is how you feel about it.
- [Why Losing at Marvel Snap Is Fun](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-losing-at-marvel-snap-is-fun): Why I want to lose more Marvel Snap games: losing makes winning joyful, teaches you the lessons winning can't, and never makes you a loser.
- [I Spent $1000 in Marvel Snap so You Don't Have To](https://jerrybanfield.com/i-spent-1000-in-marvel-snap): I spent $1,000 in Marvel Snap so you don't have to. Here's exactly when to spend, when to stay free to play, and which bundles, gold, and spotlight keys are worth it.
- [Gaming for a Living Is NOT What You'd Expect](https://jerrybanfield.com/gaming-for-a-living-not-what-expected): I made six figures as a pro gamer and walked away. Here's an honest day in my life, from the tube top and camping to the burnout nobody warns you about.
- [Why I Quit Playing Marvel Snap](https://jerrybanfield.com/why-i-quit-playing-marvel-snap): Why I quit Marvel Snap after collection level 1,465 and spending $500 — and why I'm done with all competitive gaming at this point in my life.