Good evening, everyone. It's January 10th, 2025, my 4,974th day on YouTube. I'm a full-time YouTuber, and I have been for a really long time. This is what I did today. I'll put the most clickbait crap I can think of on the title and see if you'll watch it. I think you'll enjoy my life. Maybe you'll hate it. It's fine. Whatever. I'm really grateful I have such a wonderful life, and every day I try to share that with others. I'm glad you're one of the people who might be willing to receive it.
Helping others is the secret
I went to my Alcoholics Anonymous meeting today, and we talked about how helping others is the secret to staying sober yourself. To me, this really applies to everything else. If you want to be healthy, helping others be healthy will often be the best way to keep yourself there. If you want to be a good parent, help other people with their kids. If you want to have money, help other people be wealthy. That, to me, is how the world works. I'm helping other people be wealthy by making videos about Internet Computer Protocol, because in my experience it's the best investment I've seen since Bitcoin in 2014. Today I sent out some free coupons to a few people I'd love to talk with, including Aaron Bremster and Six Figs. I'd been meaning to do that for a while, and today I had some extra time.
I went to yoga this morning, so I got up a little after seven. I got the kids ready for school, although Laura does most of it. Then I went in and recorded a music video. I think this morning is all I did. It's funny how quickly you forget what you did this morning, and yet you're so sure you know what happened 20 years ago. At this point, 20 years ago is just a story. You're literally making up whatever happened before. Have you ever seen pictures of yourself where you think, I don't remember that at all? And not like a drunk blackout, either.
Share the specifics, find the answer
At the AA meeting today, I shared how much I appreciate it when people share specifically what's going on. Does this guy have ADHD? How does he change topics so much? Well, it keeps it interesting, doesn't it. If you tell me you're having a specific health problem, then maybe I've read a book or something that can help with that. I came into an AA meeting one night and said, I'm tired of getting these snotty, stupid little head colds. There's got to be a thing I can learn to do or a book I can read to help fix this. The first guy I told that to said, yeah man, just read this book called Breath by James Nestor. It literally changed the way I breathe, and I don't get little head colds anymore.
Think about how amazing that is. I've had hundreds of those colds in my life, and I don't get them anymore. I read a book and did what it said. One thing I did as part of reading that book is use mouth tape to tape my mouth shut at night so my body doesn't sneak in mouth breathing while I sleep. I also slowed down my breathing intentionally. The animals that live the longest tend to breathe the slowest, with the longest in-breaths and out-breaths, whereas the animals that die the fastest tend to either mouth breathe or breathe very quickly. I'm breathing like an elephant today instead of panting like my dog.
Why losing hurts more than winning feels good
After the AA meeting, I went and played tennis, and I got my butt whooped 6-0, 6-1. I got frustrated, and it's not really about the way I'm playing. It's the feeling that I'm out of control with my focus. Why do I take all the shots I hit nicely for granted, or get the tiniest amount of joy when I hit a shot that lands in and my opponent can barely return it or misses it completely, but I feel so much misery when I dink a shot into the net? Why do I feel so much worse screwing it up than I do getting it right? That's human psychology right there.
It's like how I give the kids $10 and fine them a dollar, and the dollar fine hurts them much worse than the $10 gives them joy. Maybe that's why Elon Musk wants to regulate the algorithm to down-regulate negative content. That said, negative content can have its place and its time, like all my negative crypto videos saying that everything but ICP is a meme coin.
Finding people I vibe with
I went to yoga this morning, and I love doing yoga. There are so many beautiful girls there, and there are guys too that I vibe with. One thing that tends to be a bit challenging for me is finding guys I vibe with, and the yoga studio seems to have the most of them. Even in AA meetings, a lot of the guys are not people I would hang out with or be friends with. I've sponsored a guy for five years, and I don't think we've ever done anything outside of going to AA meetings and meeting at my house to work the steps. I don't think we've ever been out to lunch, and maybe I should fix that. I have a sponsor, and we've been out to lunch a few times, and I've worked with him for about a year. I went out and did things with my last sponsor too. But I don't vibe with a lot of the guys at AA, whereas the yoga guys I do tend to vibe with.
There was a guy at yoga today, and Laura had asked me a couple of days ago if we could just pay somebody to do things like the baseboards in the house. The baseboards are still off from the hurricane, back in September or October, whenever we got that one-two hitter of Helene and Milton. It was a good time. But the baseboards are still off. I said, I'll just do it. I'll buy a table saw, measure it, cut it to 45-degree angles and hammer the baseboards in. How hard can it be?
I talked to this guy at yoga, and that's exactly what he does. He said, I love doing baseboards, and they're more difficult than you'd think, and that's why I love doing them. Talking to him, I thought, all right, we're going to do this. You just come over and fix the whole house. I came home and told Laura, you were right and I was wrong. We got money from the insurance company and an SBA loan, so let's just do it. I'll sit or stand here and earn $300 an hour doing calls with people on ICP and $100 per coin in my mastermind. I'll make that money, and then we'll pay somebody who's good at doing stuff around the house to make it look nice.
The fence, and my own irrationality
I fixed the fence and saved probably $500 or $1,000 by doing it myself. It was fun, but it was a pretty easy repair too. I fixed Laura's parents' fence with my father-in-law. It's a little crooked and jacked up, but it's strong. Definitely strong. I've got crossbars overlapping, and it's screwed in with one-to-three-inch screws, so that thing's not falling down where I fixed it. It does look like I did it, though. I'm not a pro fence guy.
I was going to say I digress, but the whole thing is one long digression. I would love to listen to somebody else's vlogs like this, though. I just don't know who to listen to. It's amazing how there are simple things you want to do that you never get around to. I've been wanting to watch pro tennis players to learn how they swing. Have I Googled it? Have I searched for a video on it in months of playing tennis? Not once. Sometimes my own irrationality really bothers me. Why, bro? You paid $280 twice for a tennis coach, you paid $240 five or six times by now, thousands of dollars for this racket club membership and coaching clinic, but you haven't watched one free video on how to swing a tennis racket, with no ads, because you already paid for it. It's okay. It's fine. As long as you can laugh at and be comfortable with your own irrationality and see it, at least there's hope. You don't have to be like that forever.
I was also hoping to do some of these vlogs earlier in the day, but it's nine o'clock and I'm still trying to walk the dog, shower, and go to bed with Laura around ten. So I'm cramming it all in. Maybe this vlog won't go on for 20 minutes.
Grateful for this life, and the lives that didn't go this way
I was thinking today how grateful I am to have this life and these kids here. I don't know how many lifetimes I didn't get to raise a family properly for one reason or another. I've had some very powerful dreams that felt like other realities. I remember one dream one night where we were all on this planet that was kind of like Earth, but it wasn't Earth. We were watching this white comet-looking thing come down fast and hard, and we realized maybe it's a meteor. Then it hits and goes off like a nuclear bomb. We don't die right away, we all start running, and then annihilation. And I wake up. I wonder how many scenarios there were like that, where I didn't get to really enjoy all this time with the family.
I was kind of thinking the opposite too. It's sad how this will all be so gone and forgotten one day, like it never happened. Well, it's happening now. I teared up a little bit thinking about all of it, because I don't need this body to live. I live in many bodies. I create all bodies. I am God. This is my universe. I've created many lifetimes before where things didn't go so well, and how nice that this one is going well. You're like, whoa.
We went to the store with my mom at Whole Foods tonight, which was a fun way to hang out with her. My mom also spent the afternoon with my daughter. My wife and I played frisbee today while my son was doing soccer, and it was so much fun. I love how cute my wife looks when she's running around throwing a frisbee. She struggled with catching, and I struggled for quite a while with throwing. The inside of my arm is sore from it all, actually. I did power yoga this morning, then tennis, and then played frisbee.
Physical activity changes everything
I love noticing how much physical activity I get in a day. I know it is hard if you have gotten stuck in a negative reinforcement loop where you are so unhealthy that you can barely move, but physical activity is where so much of this turns around. I was talking to a guy on the phone recently who is struggling with dating. He is overweight and he is in pain. I went out to eat with him, and I could see it plainly: look how you eat. Of course you are overweight. And then physical activity becomes more difficult, and then you do not feel good about yourself, and then women do not want to go out with you and date you because you do not feel good about yourself, because you will not change your diet.
In my experience, when you eat a whole plant-based diet, having a body that is physically fit is a lot easier. That said, I weighed myself the other day after switching to not eating at night. I cut my eating off at about 4 p.m. today. The scale says my body is 170 pounds, 19% body fat, with 128 pounds of muscle. I look at that and think this body can do just about anything. I am going to weigh 170 with 19% body fat and around 130 pounds of muscle, and I find myself asking, would I have to do something drastic to change that?
Then again, I sometimes think I should trim a little body fat and get down to 15%. But first, why? And second, am I really going to stop eating the things I enjoy? Today I cut up an apple and put cinnamon and sugar on top of it, and it was delicious. Do I need to cut that out, or are we being too nitpicky here? The body works great. It feels great. And the mind is extremely effective.
Giving what I have to people who are ready to receive it
I shared at a meeting that one frustration for me has been that I have so much to give, but many people are not prepared to receive it. It is like first thing in the morning when you are just waking up and somebody comes in, turns on a bright light, and the sun hits you in the face. You want to say, stop, stop, I cannot handle that much right now. I have learned that I need to share my message and share what I have with the people who are prepared to receive it, and to be prepared to receive what I want too.
There are messages I was not prepared to receive until I finally was. There were lots of messages that I should get sober. I finally heard it when my wife said it the last time, after everyone else had already made it clear that I should stop drinking too. I shared at my A meeting that I swear it takes 30 or 40 times for people to tell me things I do not want to hear before it sinks in. And I am glad it does, because I am really happy with my life today. That is what I have to give. What I have to give is where I am at, and you get a real raw look at that in my videos.
It is okay if some people just want to be miserable and suffer, if they do not want happiness and they do not want health. I have got that to offer, but I can only give it to someone who will receive it. That is also why I generally do not read my YouTube comments, although I do a bit more on this smaller channel.
Wrapping up the day
I think I have covered the highlights of the day. Laura is running a marathon at Disney this weekend, so I am really excited about that tomorrow. If I have time, I will fit in a vlog on the road, and I have all my crypto videos scheduled out through Monday. I made three songs today, which was so much fun. I listened to them in the car with the family. Yes, there was some weird, creepy music at certain points, but that is part of the adventure, and I love treating my music as an adventure. If you want to follow more of this raw, day-to-day look at how I am living, you can find it all in my Life playlist. I hope you will give it a try.