This is my journal entry from December 30, 2025 — my real, unedited day, shared just as it happened.
I woke up at like two in the morning, which is not surprising given I went to bed at 8:40. And I start thinking like, what the fuck am I going to do for money and with my business and shit? Like I need to do something drastic. I need to do something that's going to help people. I need to figure this shit out. Like it's time to stop fucking around and really go for it and come up with the best shit I can think of. So I start talking with ChatGPT. I mean, you know, I keep whipping my phone out, thinking about it, putting it down, thinking about it. And this is quite a conversation we have. It ends up being like a three hour conversation. And let me tell you what I started off with. So my initial prompt is that I'm wondering what to do to sell my books. I've been, you know, should I do all this shit on a blog and then sell Zoom calls? But with AI and shit, blogs are dead, but I could get a search history, I've got a domain, et cetera. So I ask it, basically, is it worth setting up a website and doing a blog? Which I fucking know the answer to, all right? 2025 is two decades late to start a blog. Gotta tell you, damn near three. ChatGPT agrees. It says a traditional SEO-driven blog is not worth betting your livelihood in 2025. I have to go with the no shit on that.
And yes, you know, I could just put shit on there, but that's not gonna work. So then I talk about, what about publishing on Medium? And then it says Medium's worth using, but not as a home. Like, fuck, yeah, I already know that. I wrote shit on Medium. It did nothing, all right? So then ChatGPT cranks a whole bunch of shit out. It says, you know, start building a writing-powered relationship machine. I'm like, okay. And I tell it, all right, well, I don't need money for several months. So I need to set up a distribution system for books or coaching or some fucking thing. And it says, you're asking the right question at the right time, which is the main shit it says when I talk to it. And it says, the blog's not a good idea and traffic can grow over time. It says, why don't you do a website and post on Medium? I'm like, all right, I don't think you're really getting my question. I said, what am I doing now that would be most valuable? I mean, I can just sell a book. I can sell 10 books a day or some shit. Can't I do something to sell fucking books?
So then ChatGPT says, you're asking the right meta question now. What action creates both cash now and compounding upside later? It says you're strong in in-person trust, books as physical objects, and your presence and story. And it says you should try and sell books in person while capturing contact info. Well, I'm not sure how to fucking do that very easily because I don't really know where to do that or how to do that very well right now. So then it says, you know, maybe I should publish some shit online, sell books in person, write books. And I'm like, okay, so what do I need to do to sell more books in person? So it gives me a whole bunch of shit that's a fucking turd on a page about QR codes and signups and books. Just fucking go walk around with a book, all right? There you go.
And it says — I'm like, all right, it shouldn't be that hard to sell 10 or 20 books a day. And then it says, why don't you sell your books in a fucking coffee shop or on a park or a waterfront or at a farmer's market? Like, fuck you. Like, that's dumb shit. That's not going to work. And then next I said, I'm willing to go door to door to sell some books, but nobody answers their goddamn door. And it says, well, don't knock. Just don't knock. I'm like, okay. So just — do what does it say? It says leave a handwritten note and a book offer at the door. Like, okay, well, fuck, I was already thinking about doing that. But then I told it I'm going to send a bunch of letters to my neighbors. But that shit didn't work at all in my last neighborhood. And ChatGPT says never ask neighbors to contact you directly, see you in person, do a local meetup — like that's not going to fucking work.
I said, all right, so here's where the conversation has turned. You're like, God damn, thank you, after four fucking minutes, let's get to the point. I said, as expensive as sending these letters has become, I'm thinking I might as well drop fucking books on people's doorsteps. ChatGPT says, you're directionally right, but there's a smart version and a wasteful version. And it says you can waste inventory, annoy readers, et cetera. So it encourages me to just do the letters, and, you know, do a hybrid approach — do letters and book drops near free libraries and shit, don't drop books randomly, et cetera. So I told it, fuck, I could use all the stamps and send the letters to my neighbors, or yeah, I could drop the envelopes of the letter to my neighbors at the doorstep. Now ChatGPT likes this idea. It says, yeah, just drop the letters at your doorstep.
So I go back and forth with it about the details of how to do it. But the details just don't work out. It's like, well, shit, people don't open letters, they're just going to throw them away, then they're going to have to buy a book or ask me for a book. I tell them I could put a thing in to text people. And so I go back and forth about the letters and the details and how I'm going to drop it, where I'm going to fucking stick the letter on their door crack and the workflow for that. And I could print it up. And then it's like, fuck, I could just print a booklet up and put that in an envelope and throw that bitch on the ground. But then that's going to start costing time and money and a dollar. And I could offer multiple books in one letter. ChatGPT says, well, don't do it with multiple books, just promote one book. Like, fuck me.
So we keep going back and forth. And then I get to, well, my bottom line is I want people to read my books. The problem is people are lazy. Even if someone does read and wants one of my books, the likelihood they'll actually take me up on a cold letter and text me to ask for a fucking book is damn near zero. Just because people are lazy. You know, you drop a book on somebody's door — I mean, I'm at my gym giving people a fucking book and they won't even take it. Literally all they have to do is pick the fucker up. So I'm like, shit, ChatGPT's like, you're right that people are lazy. I'm like, no shit.
So I go back and forth and I finally wrap it up with, you know, I will come up with book ideas and shit. I'm like, you know what? I should just drop fucking books on people's doorstep. I should just write a book specifically to drop on people's doorsteps. And there. So I go back and forth about what book to drop. I want to drop a book named Unfat Yourself, which is just what it sounds like. ChatGPT's like, no, that's too offensive, don't do that. I'm like, well, how about from fat, broken, single to some, you know, opposite of that? It's like, no, that's too offensive. So I go back and forth on more ideas and it's finally like, okay, how about you call it How I Finally Got Healthy? I'm like, okay, I think — like if you're going to drop a book on people's fucking doorsteps, you need to have something that is going to have general appeal. That almost anyone could relate to.
And health is an issue almost everybody thinks about or cares about. Or even if they aren't that into health, they might be interested to read somebody else's story and somebody else's journey. So I'm like, because health is something we all share. Especially, you know, I want to drop it in affluent neighborhoods where people have money to like pay for coaching or pay for a book or something. So I want to write it in a way that could be really helpful to anyone and that could change someone's lives. Like, bottom line, I want to drop something off on somebody's doorstep that could change their life. Just sending letters in the mail, promoting my book services is clearly not doing anything. And dropping off a letter promoting my books is obviously not going to do anything. Dropping off a little tiny pamphlet is really not enough to change somebody's life and it looks cheap. So I'm like, you know what? Books end up costing four or five dollars each to print. It's like for four or five thousand, I could drop off a thousand of my books.
Like the main problem I have at this point is distribution. I have books, I need to get them in the hands of people, and if you drop something on somebody's doorstep they're kind of stuck with it. Yeah, you might get people who throw it out or recycle it, but some people, you know, having this book right here that's been given to them might actually really appreciate it and it could really change their life. And it's something that's much higher quality. Like anybody can do some shitty flyer or put a letter in the mail with a stamp on it, or staple together a couple of pages they printed at home. But I've never in my fucking life got a book dropped off on my doorstep. Like that'd be the first time that's ever happened to somebody. And then that would make an impression, especially if it's on a subject that's really important. If you want to grow and get healthier alongside other people doing the same work, come join the Jerry Banfield Family.
And I'm just imagining, like, even if 10% — let's say I dropped off a thousand books, spent four or $5,000 on these books and drop them off at a thousand houses. Let's say 90% of people don't give a shit about the book. They throw it out. They're totally fucking closed-minded. They think they're healthy. They don't want to hear anything I have to say. That's a bit pessimistic, but imagine if a hundred people actually read it and it makes a difference and they give it to a friend and maybe somebody reaches out and says, hey, I'd like you to coach me, or hey, I see you wrote a book, can you help me write a book? Like there could be huge returns. They could ask me, hey, can you come speak at my church? Like all kinds of good shit could get going and it's scalable. If I drop this off at a thousand houses, I just Amazon print all the books — all I have to do is walk around and drop them on somebody's doorstep. I could, if let's say I get a coaching client or I get some nice money back, I could then print a thousand more of them and drop a thousand more of those on people's doorsteps. I need to get my damn books out there.
And what's nice is, a book like this could then promote a whole bunch of other books where I can mention Author in St. Petersburg, I Was Famous on the Internet. I can mention other diary books. I can mention future books like, hey, I'm going to do a book just on sobriety. Like this is a book I could give away at AA, give away at yoga, sell at my gym. This is a book I could be sitting in Crescent Lake Park with working on my books and give it to people as they're walking by. Like this, to me, I need a book that is like my — like, How, Excuses Be Gone? No, that's not it. Your Erroneous Zones was Wayne Dyer. I need some foundational book that I get written, and then I hustle and get that book in the hands of real people. And right now, everything I'm doing is taking too long to get the book in real people's hands. Like people are just — I feel like when people walk into their house, they're in a space where if they saw a book on the doorstep, they probably just pick it up and take it in and put it down on the table and then think about it.
Where I could actually get the book into somebody's house. Everything else I'm trying is coming up with so much resistance. And I feel like health is the broadest subject because a lot of people, you know, money is a subject that is going to be harder to just drop on somebody's doorstep. But, you know, I could do that someday. So I'm really excited and I'm really grateful that I did this exact workflow, that I went to bed early last night and then I woke up in the middle of the night. Where Wayne Dyer likes to say, you know, three in the morning is where inspiration comes — like inspiration came last night in the middle of the night. Like I know exactly what I need to do. If you'd like to help me build this as it grows and create your own work too, come join us in the Jerry Banfield Family.
So I'm glad I know what I need to do. And I've got enough credit where I can just fucking put shit on a credit card, or, you know, a 0% interest credit card, get this book done, fucking throw $4,000 or $5,000 on a 0% interest credit card, just print that shit, distribute all the books, and then hopefully let the cash roll in, baby. I mean, if you put this on the right person's doorstep, they might end up paying me thousands of dollars in coaching or giving me a speaking opportunity worth thousands of dollars, or people might buy a bunch more of my books off of this. Like there's so many — I've got to get these damn books in people's hands. And I'll put a letter in the beginning of the book to give them my phone number and to, you know, explain the context. Like, hey, I wrote this book, I hope it helps you, that's why I put it at your front door, I hope this changes your life, you know, this is my gift to you.
I then go back to sleep at like 6 a.m. and wake up like 8:30. I get up and have some hummus and a carrot and a banana for breakfast, then get over to my gym, get my table and shit set up, get my computer set up. I don't sell any books, but something really cool happens. The woman who works the front desk has seen me a bunch of times there. And she comes over and crouches down next to me and asks me if I have anybody I can refer to the gym to help her out. But she also says, you know, we all just love you here. I'm like, thanks, what do you mean? She's like, well, we have your book in the break room and, you know, we just love you. I was like, oh, that's really fucking sweet. Like, I mean, she's attractive too. I definitely would — she's attractive enough to be like wife material. And I'm like, see, now this is what needs to be happening. Like, I just need to be doing my thing in places where, like, here's a woman that's attractive coming up and being really nice to me. If you're weighing a bold move in your own work or business like this, I'd be glad to think it through with you on a private Zoom call.
And I couldn't even remember her name — I was trying to look at her name tag, but she had a jacket on. So I finally had to ask for it, but she's in my head now. If she's been keeping her eye on me, she's in my head now. I'm like, she was not on my radar before, but she's on my radar now. And you know, that's my ideal relationship would be something like that, where we're just hanging out in the same place. And, you know, she sees me, I see her. She definitely built a spark within me for her. I'm like, damn, I definitely want to go out with her now. But I also don't want to rush anything either. Like I didn't immediately ask her out. And I figure if something is going to happen, maybe she'll just be walking out of work one day. Like I don't know anything about her yet. I don't know if she's single. Don't know if she has kids. Like I don't know anything. But I do know that what happened today, that was really nice. I love that. And that's how I want to meet my future wife, in some scenario like that.
After — I didn't sell any books, but I did give a few out. I had some nice conversations with people and I did a little workout. I did my own kind of like weightlifting HIT workout. Then head home, listen to more of Tucker Max's book, have a nice big salad. And I got my outline ready for this book. So I'm going to get to work dictating it.
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