I went to Sacred City last night and had a member showcase event at Solely Therapeutic Massage. It was awesome, and I had such a nice time there connecting with the community. It was like an all-natural high. I actually performed there, kind of an educational stand-up comedy routine, talking about death and dying and rebirth and living other lives, astral travel, all of that. It was awesome. There were people there who played music, did a magic show, a comedy routine, danced, and taught us how to do some dancing. There was a woman there, Courtney, who did some health consulting and coaching. It was amazing. Angela and Lindsay put on just a beautiful performance.
Turning 220 Old Videos Into Blog Posts
Looking at this event, and then looking back through yesterday, I realized something. I was also working on my website, jerrybanfield.com, where I went through and ran 220 of my old videos. I now have 506 blog posts on my brand new website that I put up in the last week, and I went through and ran all 220 of these posts through there yesterday — all my old crypto reviews.
So I realized that one of the best things I did in the past was do daily vlogs, where I would just talk about, "Hey, this is what's going on in my life today." I loved doing that. If I had to go back in time and ask what I wish I'd created every single day, I wish I'd just done a vlog every day. So I realized my main Jerry Banfield channel — this life channel — needs to be just like a vlog. I already have a channel to talk dating, YouTube, crypto, money, and games, and I can always make a seventh channel if I need to. But when I look back and take inventory, which is a principle in AA, I went back and took inventory of all of this, and it was awesome.
If you want to see all these old deleted videos, they're now turned into blog posts. I may upload some of them as unlisted and then put them inside my membership. If you'd like to get closer with me and see all of this, that's what the Jerry Banfield Family at jerrybanfield.com is for. Here's October 25th, 2024 — I looked back through here, and it's talking about playing tennis and daily entries, AA, going to my AA meeting, and what I was going through with my wife, my now ex-wife at the time. This vlog is awesome. This post reminds me that I now take for granted that I'm the best at shooting three-pointers I've ever been in my whole life. But it was the end of December 2024 when I started shooting three-pointers, and for my whole life before that I thought I sucked at shooting three-pointers. I had to be down in the middle of the court. I mean, I'm 5'11", so at least in a pickup game I've got decent height for a basic white dude. But I'm really grateful — taking inventory yesterday helped me see I need to do vlogs.
Every day when I wasn't making YouTube videos, I did this daily autobiography series. I'm going to go through there with the AI and turn all of those into blog posts on my website too, so that my website is my code, my content, my permanent record of all the stuff I've created — something that can't be censored, can't be taken down, and doesn't have terms and conditions it's subject to. So I did that yesterday. It was the main thing I did earlier in the day, and it helped me realize I need to get back to daily vlogs. All this Jerry Banfield channel should be for is daily vlogs. So that's what I'm doing now. If you enjoy these life updates, you can watch my newest videos here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLYdzdbaAV2ZlkL_ScTpiwbKJlkcvIihQe.
Tennis, Footwork, and the Joy of Playing
So the highlight of my day yesterday — I mean, I saw my kids, too. I picked my kids up from camp yesterday, and they had a little award ceremony. But the day began by playing tennis. I went and played tennis with my friend Jason, who I've talked a lot about in the books and the autobiographies, and those will be up on the website and blog soon. I played tennis with him, and he started off beating me like five to nothing in the first set. I came back, and we've probably played 60 times by now, and he's probably won 55 of them. He probably won the first 20 or 30 matches we played, and then there was quite a while where I didn't win much again. But I've actually won the last two matches against him, which has been amazingly satisfying.
The biggest thing I did is I leaned into just learning and studying the game, instead of demanding that I win and focusing on the outcome. I focused on the joy of playing, the joy of being there with him, and learning and studying right now. Lately I've been focusing on my footwork a lot — where are my feet, where are my feet, move my feet. Because I play a lot of video games, looking at and hitting the ball is actually much more natural for me in tennis. I'm used to what my eyes are doing, but my feet have just felt like this alien thing where I have to almost always be focusing. I'm paying so much attention to my footwork lately. Where is this foot stepping? Where's that foot stepping? Where's my momentum when he goes to hit the ball — am I mid-step, or am I grounded so I can be ready to move? Where are my feet positioned so I can move to where I need to go? In the second set, he ended up whooping me 6–2, but then I won the tiebreaker. We played two and a half hours, nice and sweaty, got my shirt off, and I got some sun.
Picking My Kids Up From Camp
Then I went to pick my kids up. They were at a marine camp at Eckerd College, and I had such a beautiful time just watching them get their rewards and being around the other kids and parents. Then I brought them home, and all of us showered — I showered last. They were like, "We've been in the saltwater, we need to shower first." Then they played video games for like four hours while I worked on all these blog posts. Really the AI worked on them, but I copied all the videos — hundreds of videos — over from my archive. I'm so grateful I've got all these videos now. I dropped 666 videos exactly that I made in 2024 into the folder, averaging a little less than two videos a day.
Looking back at these videos, I had limited my videos to like five minutes, but really some of these 10, 15, 20-minute videos make a much better blog post. If you're going to watch one of my videos, there's no reason I have to limit it specifically to five minutes. Some of these blog posts are amazing. This one is from April 10, 2021, which was in the 2024 re-upload folder — it's an incredible blog post with a ton of information from an hour-and-a-half discussion we had on a livestream. I just love that this is now there indefinitely. My Jerry Banfield custom AI is now trained on all of these posts and videos too. So if you go ask it what I think about mind over medicine, it will just crank out a response based on a video I already did about it. I love this.
I took a lot of time working on making my website, packing my website with value. I probably have 500 or 1,000 more videos that I've filmed over the years, and I'm going to get all of that on this website. Now all my new videos automatically go through this workflow and are added to my website. It's taken me a while to set all this up, but I built something now that is there indefinitely. Some of the posts are getting immediate clicks in Google search, which is awesome.
Making Amends to My Ex-Wife
So I did that while the kids were there. My ex came over to pick them up, and I said, "Look, yesterday I was a bit frustrated." I'd gotten a little frustrated with her the day before because the kids were there like an hour later than I thought we'd all agreed they were going to be. So I told her, "Look, yesterday I got a little frustrated." And then I thought about it. As soon as we decided to get separated, I made amends to her for the things I did in the marriage. I wrote out a two-page thing saying, "Look, this was wrong that I did in the marriage" — getting crushes on other women, that was wrong, and so on. I made a two-page letter, and I think I actually wrote about that, so it will be on the blog soon, probably from mid-October 2025.
She's never done any such thing for me. But then again, she has done a lot of other things. She's helped me, she's believed in me, she's helped me set up my life, she's given me a bunch of furniture and stuff that I have in my house now. She's been super cooperative, helping with the kids. She's never gone through and admitted her wrongs in the marriage, but there are things she's done that have made amends. So I criticized her a couple of days ago — "You've never looked at me and said, here's what I did that was wrong in the marriage." I told her I'd be the most important, most affected person to do that with. But then I got frustrated, because, of course, trying to tell somebody what they're doing wrong is often not the way to get them to do what you'd like them to do. So I was more frustrated after that.
A Call to My AA Sponsor
I called a guy in AA who's like my backup sponsor. He explained his experience. He said his ex-wife did much worse stuff than mine, and he laid it out in detail. He said, "You think she's ever made amends for any of that stuff? Thirty years — has she made any of it? No, none of it." But, he said, it's not about her, because he is the one who needs to take care of himself and be a decent human being. Same thing with me. In my experience, I'm the one working the program in Alcoholics Anonymous. I'm the one who needs to take care of my life and make amends.
Yoga, Crying It Out, and Feeling Restored
So I did that, and I felt a lot better after. I went to a yoga class at 4 p.m. and cried my heart out. Coming into yesterday, I felt so much better. I felt restored to sanity. That put me in a position where I had a nice time with my kids, and I made amends to my ex. If I'd been doing daily vlogs, I would have covered this stuff before. After the kids — my ex picked them up perfectly on time — I went to Sacred City.
Performing at Sacred City
I was so excited to go to this, because my friends Angela Hutchinson and Lindsay Dorio, who I did the roast with on my channel previously, were hosting. It was so funny. Lindsay made me laugh — she was saying some random thing, like "type shit," or whatever y'all are saying, and I was just cracking up about the way she said it. She had this outfit on, dressed up like a man. It was hilarious. Well, she had a dress on, but then she had like a trucker mustache look on her head. It was so funny.
I got up there, and I was the first one to perform. I performed an awesome opening set — and opening is often the hardest thing to do. People were laughing, people were feeling deep truths, and I got a lot of compliments and feedback. I really enjoyed watching everybody else perform, too. There was one woman who came up and sang — she just freestyle sang over a random instrumental, and it was so beautiful. One woman had us all up there dancing. There was a woman there that I'd asked if she was going to go, and I met her there, and we sat next to each other and had a nice time.
Community, Dopamine, and Real Life
At the end of the night, the one thing I've learned doing events like at Sacred City is that sometimes the event is so nourishing, so fulfilling, that you get all-naturally high from it. All your dopamine fires off. This, to me, is what's really healthy — that we should be having fun in community and firing our dopamine off with each other in real life, instead of doing it at home watching videos. There's a place to watch videos. There's a place to watch and read blog posts. That's why I create content. I'm not saying you should never do it. But it matters so much to have a community you vibe with and real people in real life. Last night was so nourishing.
Afterwards, I kept talking to this woman, and I'd gotten a little excited about her before. But then I thought, you know, I don't know if this is quite the right connection. There was also a woman I went out with a few weeks ago, and it didn't seem like it went very well. I texted her, and it sent as a green text instead of a blue one, and she didn't respond the rest of the day. Okay. Then I went over to a guy's house that I'd had dinner with afterward from Sacred City, and we were stacking rocks. The guy's a millionaire with a house with murals on it and nice cars in the driveway. It's actually just down the street from my ex's house, a few blocks away. I had fun there, but it got to be after 11 o'clock, and that's my bedtime. I go to bed after 11, I don't care what's going on. They were ordering food too — burgers — and I don't eat at night, and I don't eat meat or animal products, and it was after 11, so I was out. It was really nice to see his house and hang out with some of the people there.
Feeling Sad and Lonely After a Great Night
I came home, and I felt kind of sad and lonely. But I thought, you know what? That's okay. Remember, you just had a hell of a lot of fun. Sometimes after you have a hell of a lot of fun, you're going to feel a little sad and lonely. It's not anybody's fault. There's nothing wrong. That's just okay. That's just normal. That's just life. So I went to bed. My Claude was working through finishing up these blog posts, so I helped it continue progressing and used all the token limit overnight.
Then I woke up this morning, and I was still sad. I thought, well, remember, you had so much fun last night. Your brain just might not have all the dopamine in it. It's reloading. Don't worry about it.
Adding Value by Sharing My Honest Life
I also got up and really focused on this: I need to make sure I'm giving value. One thing I realized I can do to make sure I'm giving value is to share my honest life experience. Because one way I can give value is to let you know you're not alone with your experiences — the kinds of things you're thinking are the same kinds of things I might be thinking and going through. That's what I love. The vlog videos are really great for giving people the value of a real, authentic, raw human experience, so that you can relate, see that you're not alone, and learn some different points of view kind of naturally.
So I woke up this morning and went straight to my AA meeting. The woman who texted me yesterday and didn't respond blew me up with like 20 or 30 texts this morning, little short ones. She invited me to do three different things with her today, so I'm going to go meet her in like 20 minutes and see her again. I'd had a huge, positive emotional reaction when I first met her. Then a week of being excited, but when we went out on what I thought was a date, she seemed totally closed off and not interested — but she was there. After that, I invited her to something else, she didn't respond, and I lost enthusiasm. I don't know what I was thinking, not sure what that was. A few weeks went by, and all of a sudden I'm so interested to just see what's going on with her. My focus is: Can I have fun with her today? Can I have a good time with her? Can I add value to her life? Can I be honest? And then see — is there any potential that we'd want to build a life together, or not?
My Morning AA Meeting and Delivering Value First
After my AA meeting today — I was so sad when I went in, but after it, I left feeling cheered up. I left with clear guidance: you need to always deliver value. Make sure you deliver value to people. Make sure you help give to others first and foremost. Don't be like those YouTubers tricking people into watching their video that doesn't give you anything useful. Make sure you give as much value as you can every day, and stick to that, and life is going to go really well. I do that well in Alcoholics Anonymous — I show up, I'm trying to help somebody else more than I'm trying to get anything for me. So I'm applying that in my business today.
I'm really grateful that I've remembered I've got to do daily vlogs. When I first started out on YouTube again this year, I was doing daily vlogs, but the way I was titling them was off. Now I've got this new AI workflow to generate great titles out of my videos. And it's not about how many people watch. It's about this being good for me — a way for me to give value. This is absolutely something I just need to do: talk about my real life every day. For anyone who watches my other channels, I think that'll be some of the best I can offer.
Building a Life You Don't Have to Escape From
So thanks for watching. If you enjoyed this and you'd like to get closer with me — if you'd like to build a life you don't have to escape from, but a life you've got to be a part of — then I'd love to hear from you. If you've got wealth and health and relationships, and you're on the cutting edge with things like technology, AI, and crypto, I'm here. That's what the Jerry Banfield Family is for. I'm super grateful — somebody just joined yesterday, and I invited Joe Parys, Blockchain Pill, and a couple of other close friends to be in there as a foundation. We're setting up weekly group calls, and my AI is trained on all of these blog posts and videos, so you can just ask it questions and get instant answers. You can also watch my newest life vlogs here: https://www.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLYdzdbaAV2ZlkL_ScTpiwbKJlkcvIihQe. Hope to see you again soon.