If you have quit doing something that made you easy money, like I did, whether that was a corporate job, being an influencer, or anything else that used to pay well but now feels unbearable, I think this book will be really helpful for you. If you are in fear about money because there is something you would love to do, like me, but you are not yet sure how to monetize it, this will show you in real time exactly how I am going through that process myself and how I get clear about where I want to go from here. It will be amazing to see how the universe fills in all the details. What a lot of us do not do, and where I have seen so many people struggle, including myself, is quit doing the thing that made us rich without getting very clear afterward. This book is me leading by example, stating clearly my intentions for the future and demonstrating that I have the faith to move forward instead of going back.
If you are new to my books, my name is Jerry Banfield. I have made millions of dollars online selling courses, being an influencer, and getting over a billion views on what I created on the internet. The problem, at least for my bank account today, is that I deleted all of that because it felt absolutely soul-sucking, and I could not stand doing it anymore. From 2011 to 2025, I put most of my working life, along with nearly all my energy and attention, into building an online following, yet most of the time I kept thinking there had to be something better I could do for humanity. The money I was making started to feel dirty, like I was a vampire sucking people’s time, energy, and money while giving them more reasons to stay addicted to their phones.
I tried to quit for years, but the money was simply too easy. I could make thousands of dollars a month in passive income just by continuing to upload videos, and tens of thousands of dollars a month when I made certain kinds of content, especially crypto videos where I could get sponsorships or have people pay hundreds of dollars an hour to talk with me on Zoom. That made quitting hard, and I tried several times. In 2020, I started an in-person show, but when I did not make any money, I went back. In 2022, I tried to quit and be a life coach, but I ended up trying to do it all online instead of in person. In 2024, I tried to quit and switch to writing books, but after not making any money for a couple of months, I went right back to the easy money of uploading videos.
Finally, in 2025, I deleted everything because I refuse to keep living my life doing whatever makes money while selling my soul in the process. Since then, it has been nine months, from June 2025 to March 2026. That is enough time to make a baby, but apparently not enough time for Jerry to build a business system that earns the way I did online. That is why I am writing this book. I want to set my intentions clearly for what I want going forward and to lead by example. This is not a book where I tell you what you should do and pretend I did everything perfectly. This is literally me getting clear with the universe, saying, look, this is what I want, this is what I have to offer, and this is how I expect to make money, or at least how I am open and available to make money, going forward.
At the same time, there are thoughts that suggest I could just upload videos and print money, or go get a corporate job and collect guaranteed money. Going back to what we already know feels so easy and familiar in our minds that, by comparison, the path forward seems much more difficult simply because it is unknown. We do not know exactly what the next thing will be, or even how we are going to pay the bills. For me, one of the key principles is that I have to stick to doing what I love. I cannot stop selling my soul for money as an influencer only to turn around and take some crappy job I do not like just because I am desperate and scared. I have to move forward on a path of making money with integrity, being clear about what I want, and being equally clear about what is not acceptable, what I will not take, and what I will not go back to.
I am very willing to work. I am very excited about the future of making money in a way that is done with integrity, with joy, and in a way that truly serves others instead of draining and exploiting them. This book is meant to make that clear. What I will do here is show where I have been in the past. This will be a thorough inventory of what I did to make money, how I used to think about money, and what I learned that worked and helped me get rich online. Then I will talk about the present, exactly where I am right now as I am writing this, and after that I will make a clear vision for the future going forward. My hope is that all of that will set me up to have money come in while doing work I love, fully and cleanly, with integrity. I also hope this stands as a great example for you. If you want to build a life you don't need to escape from — making money in a way that doesn't cost you your soul — that's the conversation I keep going every day inside the Jerry Banfield Family.
The Past of Making Money
To begin moving forward, it is often really helpful to look back at where we have been, see how we got to where we are today, pull the key lessons from that path, and then avoid repeating the same patterns going forward. I think this starts all the way back in childhood because we so often internalize our parents’ beliefs and actions until those become part of who we are. At the same time, we also need to celebrate what we have learned and what we have overcome, which I will do here. I was born to a mother who was living with my father’s parents. My father was an alcoholic, a drug addict, a sex addict, a gambler, a Vietnam veteran, and had a few other issues besides. He was actually kicked out of the house in the first year after I was born, so I was raised by a mother who could not afford a place of her own, who depended on the generosity of my father’s family, and whose husband was mostly absent from the home.
Desperate to find a way to support me, and knowing she could not rely on anyone else, my mother joined the military. By going into the U.S. Army as a veterinarian, she essentially sold her soul to the military. She turned her whole life and will over to it, having to do exactly what they told her to do in exchange for a consistent paycheck and a place to live. She gave up everything to provide for me. In some ways, that gave her a fantastic adventure in life. Eventually, my father joined us again and stayed home to take care of my brother and me while my mother worked. What I saw over the long term, though, was that my mother giving everything to the military left her broken, battered, and disabled by the time she got out. They pushed her too hard. They had her running on flat feet that kept getting more and more damaged, and then they suggested foot surgeries that ended up making things worse over the long term.
By the time my mother got out, her body was wrecked. She receives a significant percentage of disability today, and she has not been able to consistently work a full-time job again since retiring after twenty years in the military. Since getting out, her health and overall condition have continued to deteriorate. When I look at her life, I can see how much the military and that whole lifestyle used her up. It took too much from her. It paid the bills, and it still helps her live a comfortable life today, but it took so much from her in the process. I internalized that deeply. I almost went into the military myself, but I was starting to see how much it had taken from her, how damaged she was, and how used up she had become from when she first went in as such a young, vital, healthy mother to the mother I knew twenty years later. I could see clearly that I did not want to give myself to the military. They were going to drain me, drain my life energy, and it would end up feeling a lot like being an influencer actually did feel later in my life.
At the same time, I was raised with a father who said money was the root of all evil. When he got drunk in a bar, he would ask people for a hundred-dollar bill and then rip it up in front of their faces. Sometimes he got punched for doing that because he would say the government uses money to control you. The government prints the money, convinces you it is valuable, and then gets to do whatever it wants with your life. In his mind, we needed to stop even using money because money itself was the problem with everything in life.
Thus, when I became an adult, I had two basic mindsets about money. First, money was the root of all evil, something nasty and dirty, yet still a fact of life that you needed so you would not be broke. Second, from watching my mother, I learned that you needed to be willing to give up whatever you wanted, or completely turn yourself over to an employer, whether that was the military, a company, or an algorithm. You sold your soul if you had to in order to provide for your family. That is a very honorable way of looking at things when you are willing to do whatever it takes to provide for your child. I want to be clear about that because I appreciate the adventure I had growing up. It was hard many times, but I appreciate my mother’s self-sacrifice to make sure I had a life where I was cared for.
Going into the world with those mindsets, that money was evil and that I should be willing to sell my soul or sacrifice myself in order to get it, did not set me up very well to make money. When I went to college, I was not sure what I wanted to do, and I eventually settled on law enforcement. Becoming a police officer seemed to offer a combination of what was familiar from the military, that regimented hierarchy and public service lifestyle, but without the total commitment required to be an officer in the military. I spent a few years as a police officer, during which earning any significant amount of money was pretty difficult. I took every overtime assignment I could and worked extra whenever possible, but when I worked more than forty or fifty hours a week, my body would get sick or I would end up drinking too much and getting stressed out.
After a few years, the lifestyle of being a police officer, with the night shifts, the danger, and the boredom on the job, pushed me heavily into coping mechanisms, especially drinking. Drinking ended up causing the downfall of my career as a police officer. You can read more about that in my book Officer Banfield if you want the full story. In 2009, I moved back home with my parents and continued with what was familiar. I knew that if I went back to school, got a degree, and tried to become a professor, that could be a comfortable way to make money. Of course, that would mean essentially selling my soul to the university and to academia, but compared to my mother in the military, selling your soul to academia and having a job teaching and researching seemed like a pretty good deal to me. My brother was on a similar path too, getting an advanced degree, so like everybody else, I thought an advanced degree and stable career would be the way to go. Within a month of moving home, I applied to graduate school and began my masters at the University of South Florda in 2010. During this period, I still did not have much money. I was barely getting by, but I always had enough. I never starved. I never went without a place to live, although I did depend on the generosity of my parents for almost a year after I quit my job as a police officer and before I went to graduate school.
While my parents did live a debt free life for my entire childhood, I began borrowing money originally to go to undergrad at the University of South Carolina in 2002. For most of my twenties, my only debt included a small car payment and student loan payment which were less than $500 a month combined. When I went to graduate school, though, I borrowed more money and started building debt that eventually got up toward $50,000. It felt perfectly manageable, especially if I worked in some kind of public service job where I could get it forgiven. During my time in graduate school, I met my first wife, and she brought hundreds of thousands of dollars of debt into our relationship from going to undergrad at a private school and then to law school. She got a job as a personal injury attorney straight out of law school, which was very much a sacrifice-your-soul, chase-ambulances kind of job so you could bring home a good paycheck.
Meanwhile, while I was messing around online during my time working on my masters, I discovered that I could upload videos on YouTube, send messages through Facebook pages, get clients, and make money on the internet. At the time, I thought this was the best thing in the world. I felt like I was beating the whole system. What I had been raised with was the idea that you get a job, work for some organization, give up whatever you care about, and try to survive the best you can by serving whoever is paying you. Suddenly, I thought I had found freedom. I could do whatever I wanted online and get paid for it. On top of that, my wife was sacrificing herself in this personal injury job and making enough money that I did not have to make any money right away.
I got my master’s degree and then dropped out of my PhD program in 2012 so I could become a full-time content creator, entrepreneur, and freelancer online. I did not make any money the first year, but by 2013, I had my first month making $10,000 online. A key part of that was that I had started becoming conscious of my old programming. I began to see ideas like money is the root of all evil as beliefs that were sabotaging me. Those were ideas I needed to get rid of and reprogram because if I wanted to make money while believing money was the root of all evil, then I would have to believe I needed to be evil to make money. So I started reading all kinds of books about money, like Rich Dad Poor Dad, The 4-Hour Workweek, and many other books about business and startups. I began intentionally working to reprogram my mind.
It took about a year of doing that, along with all the testing and trying that went with it, but then I had my first month in 2013 where I made more than $10,000 working online, with most of that being profit. I was incredibly excited. I remember thinking, oh my God, this is unbelievable. I had spent all those years working as a police officer, sometimes putting in sixty-hour weeks and risking my life. Here was my wife working as a personal injury attorney, and meanwhile I had just made $10,000 in a month sitting at home on my laptop. I felt like I had cracked the system. For most of the next decade, I devoted everything I had to making money online, and I essentially sold my soul to it. I did not realize consciously that I was doing that because I thought I was getting a better deal. I was at home. I was not working directly for anybody. I believed I was beating the system.
What I discovered over the next decade, though, was that there was always somebody controlling me. There was always some middle entity between me and the customer that held total control over the situation. I made my first million dollars online by 2016, and I remember clearly manifesting that. I can still picture myself standing in my office in 2014, looking around the room and thinking, I am going to make my first million dollars online right here in this house, in this room. My wife and I had bought a very modest house that we could easily afford based on her income as a personal injury attorney and the money I had started making online. The house cost only $168,000, even though between the two of us we were now making more than $100,000 a year. That said, our debt payments were around $4,000 a month between the mortgage and student loans.
I remember moving into that house, getting everything set up in my office, looking around that little room, and thinking that I was going to make my first million dollars online there. And I did. I did it by deeply reprogramming my mind and taking massive action. I read so many books about money. I listened to so many video courses and watched so many videos because I was conscious of my father’s programming that money was the root of all evil, and I knew I needed to reprogram that.
However, I still was not aware of how willing I was to sell my soul and do whatever it took to get money without really considering my integrity. I was not too concerned about whether the things I was saying in my videos and posts were fully honest. I was not too concerned with asking whether my customers were actually benefiting from doing business with me. I simply accepted that I had to be under somebody’s control in order to make this money. From 2014 to 2016, Udemy paid me over $600,000. I made millions of dollars in sales on Udemy, and I made hundreds of thousands of dollars more from selling online courses on other platforms too. I showed everybody how to sell online courses, and I paid people thousands of dollars in third world countries to film video courses for me. In exchange for filming those courses, they gave me ownership, and then I put the courses on Udemy and other platforms, marketed them on YouTube, and absolutely printed money like crazy. I taught the mechanics of making money online for years, and I keep the best of it in my YouTube Coaching playlist.
For a few years, I thought I had completely won the game and that I was unstoppable. I became one of the top ten instructors on Udemy, and because I had such a big voice and such a loud mouth, everybody knew me. I had Google ads set up all over the place, so if you searched for Udemy, you would find my course about Udemy. Then I had remarketing set up, which meant I could advertise to you all over the place after that. I also had my affiliate links in place, so if you searched for Udemy, clicked on my ad, and then later bought a course, I would get something like 25 to 50 percent of the sale. I had an incredible system set up that was just printing money. Then Udemy banned me, and I was crushed because I saw how dependent I had become. I had thought I was this independent guy making his own money online, but really I had just been a sucker for Udemy. I had been nearly as tied to them for my money as my mother was to the military.
As soon as they got tired of me, even though I was not violating any policies, they banned me. They got tired of me running my mouth, criticizing them, and telling everybody so openly and transparently how to make money on Udemy. I felt that was unfair, and I played the victim. Over the next few years, I built several more successful online business systems. I became one of the first crypto YouTubers in the world, and I made hundreds of thousands of dollars in crypto. But this is where my integrity finally crashed directly into my money-making in a much deeper way. While I was on Udemy, I felt like what I was doing was pretty honest and that I was simply teaching people skills. What I did not consider was whether people actually needed these courses. I also did not consider that most people who bought the courses never even watched them. The majority of people who bought a course from me never watched a single video. Out of the people who even started watching, only a tiny percentage, maybe five or ten percent, would actually finish the whole course.
Maybe that is normal in a society where people also buy books, clothes, and all kinds of other things they never fully use. But I do not think that is a good society to live in, where we sell so much that people buy and then never even use. So at the time I thought I was operating with integrity on Udemy, but clearly there were problems. For me to be so outspoken about the platform and then get banned, clearly things were not going as well as I told myself they were. I also had this belief underneath it all that what I was doing was not sustainable. I was making so much money on there that I felt unworthy of it. The old belief that money is the root of all evil came back up, and with it came the thought that if I was making this much money, I must be evil. I could not deserve it, and all of that came flooding back.
Then I went into crypto, where it was even easier to print money than it had been on Udemy. I bought $10,000 of one cryptocurrency, promoted it for a few months, and sold it back for $80,000. Then I bought another crypto and made hundreds of thousands of dollars more with that. Yet what I noticed was that a lot of times my audience lost money because they bought higher and sold lower than I did. By 2018, I felt absolutely horrible about how many people in my online audience were losing money while trying to follow my example. I began to feel dishonest and to see that what I was doing was not good for my audience. For the first time, I could clearly see that yes, from the world’s point of view, from the outside, people said I was really successful because I made all this money and supported my family. My crypto videos and my Udemy courses made enough that my wife did not have to make any money and did not have to work for at least the first four years of our children’s lives. She was able to be a stay-at-home mom when our kids were little.
What happened, though, was that after making all that money in crypto, I started to feel and observe that I was out of integrity. I felt disgusting. I felt bad about what I had created, about how the crypto market worked, and about the way I got people all excited about these projects and then later said those same projects sucked. I went from making all this money online, from having all my credit cards set to pay the full statement balance, from going to the grocery store and buying anything I wanted without even looking at the price and often without even paying attention to how much it cost at checkout, to feeling sick about the whole thing. I remember going to Rollin’ Oats one time with my kids and it being $350 at checkout. We had bought all kinds of stuff. You want the organic fruit? Sure. You want the $20 thing of this? Fine. I would just buy anything. I was paying for Amazon Music, Apple Music, Spotify and Pandora Premium, and YouTube Premium all at the same time. I figured they cost so little, what difference did it make? I was also always paying my friends thousands of dollars to help out. They were essentially making hundreds of dollars an hour helping me, and these were my Xbox friends sitting at home with their parents, cranking out cash without even having a college degree or anything. When I was making a lot of money, I hooked everybody up. Then I started to feel bad about all of it, and the whole thing came collapsing down.
Going into 2019, I started to feel broke. What I noticed was that I had printed all that money from a feeling of being rich. In 2015, when I started blowing up on Udemy, I borrowed every dollar I could to put into my Udemy business system, and right when I hit the breaking point, right when I was almost out of credit, all the money started rolling in from Udemy. I paid off all the debt except my remaining student loans and mortgage. I paid off the credit cards, I paid off the business loans, and then I made a whole bunch of money. By 2019, though, I had even higher credit lines. We are talking hundreds of thousands of dollars in credit, and I figured I would do the same thing again. The difference was that this time it was all coming from a place of feeling like I did not have enough money, feeling like I was broke, feeling like none of it was good enough.
Back in 2014, 2015, and 2016, I had just gotten sober. I felt so rich. My wife had taken a job working at the courthouse, which she felt much better about, but it hardly paid anything. My business was making enough money online that I said I could start paying for the majority of things. I felt so wealthy then, living in that house with my wife and making what to me at the time was a huge amount of money. Ten or twenty thousand dollars a month felt like crazy money. In 2015, I felt so rich, and that feeling of being rich expanded into making a lot more money. In 2019, I felt so broke. Even though I was still making plenty of passive income and I still had crypto, my income had dropped to just a few thousand dollars a month, and I felt absolutely broke. Instead of cutting expenses, asking my wife for help, or pivoting my business model, I went for this hugely ambitious project to try and build a competitor to Udemy. I wanted to finally cut the corporations and the coins out so I could directly sell to customers.
I borrowed hundreds of thousands of dollars thinking this was going to be my biggest success ever. I thought I was going to become a decamillionaire, build this platform, and then sell it. I went all out. I paid more people than ever before to make online courses. I built my own website. I paid for a full-time virtual assistant to help me every week. By the end of 2019, I was sitting in a bankruptcy attorney’s office wondering how my wife and I had accumulated $650,000 in debt, with a couple hundred thousand of that still being her student loans. Even though I had paid off around $50,000 of those loans when I was making a bunch of money earlier, I had piled up hundreds of thousands of dollars in new debt in just one year, some of it at interest rates as high as 17 or 18 percent. Even worse, declaring personal bankruptcy would only clear $50,000 of the debt. I would have to declare business bankruptcy for the rest which also meant potentially losing everything that I used to make income. I remember walking out of the bankruptcy attorney’s office thinking that I did not want my story to include declaring bankruptcy. I knew I had created this, and I wanted to create my way out of it.
That same year, while I was borrowing all that money, I was also the one being very forceful about putting our daughter in a private school for her pre-K year, the year before kindergarten, VPK. I insisted that we put her in this school that cost $17,000 a year in tuition. The parents at the school ended up being crazy, and we had all kinds of drama there. We spent $17,000 at the exact time when my finances and my money were in the worst condition they had ever been. That is how crazy and delusional I had gotten with my money. With that broke mindset, I found all kinds of ways to spend it.
Ironically, at the depths of being broke, in the worst financial situation I had ever seen going into 2020, I felt wealthy. I felt abundant. I thought, wow, we own this house, I can still afford massages, and my wife still loves me, even though a big part of why we eventually got divorced was that she felt I had betrayed her, betrayed the family, and could never trust me again when it came to finances because I had not told her how much money I was borrowing. Still, coming into 2020, I felt so wealthy because I had made such huge mistakes and yet I still had enough money. I was not starving. If you had looked at my accounts on paper, you probably would have thought this was hopeless, that I was as broke as I had ever been and had destroyed my finances. Yet right in the middle of that, I focused relentlessly on the feeling of being wealthy. I kept thinking, my God, it is amazing how much money I still have and how abundant my life still is.
From there, I went into another huge wealth-manifesting cycle. At first, I grinded out courses until I got burnt out on that. Then I sold all my equipment and tried to do an in-person show in June 2020. Predictably, that failed and was the first time I really tried to quit doing the online stuff because I could see how exploitative it was. I could see that I was really serving the algorithms and the platforms just as much as anything else. It was not the same level of commitment my mother had to the military, where she could not just leave quickly, but they were still ordering me around and controlling me in much the same way. As long as I kept uploading, I was voluntarily submitting to their control, and that seemed crazy. So I tried to start this in-person show, and it did not work out.
Meanwhile, I supported my wife in getting a job and did my part with the childcare and the housework so she had time to work. She started making some money. Then in 2020, when everybody was locked down, I finally got my chance to become a gaming streamer. I had dreamed of being a gaming streamer, and in 2020 I finally got to do it. I re-bought some cheap equipment and started streaming again, and the audience that was there was insane. I had a Facebook page with millions of followers that I had built up through teaching online courses and running ads, and the page was verified, so I took off. In 2021, I made over $100,000 in profit from streaming video games on Facebook. I became one of the top twenty Facebook partners, and I reached one of the highest levels of fame online that I had ever had.
It felt fantastic, but it was also stressful, and I kept thinking there had to be something better I could do for people than play video games. Once again, I felt like I was selling my soul. I was getting rich. I was making plenty of money. I was so proud that I was providing for my family again, paying down all these debts, and helping create a financially stable household. Yet I kept showing up feeling stressed out and feeling like I was not genuinely serving humanity. I kept looking at my audience and thinking these are sad, lonely people spending hours a day watching me play a video game, and then giving me their money for what. I am just sitting here playing a video game and entertaining them. It felt crazy. I was haunted by the thought that I was just a slave to technology, that I could not stop doing this even if I wanted to, that I had boxed myself into a life where I had to keep doing it even if I did not like it.
I remember thinking that I was supposed to be having fun playing video games, but a lot of days I was just stressed out while people said nasty things constantly on my live stream. I would sit there and take it because I desperately wanted the views and the money. If I did not ban people, if I let them say whatever they wanted, I would get more views, more followers, more money, more donations, more ad revenue, and more sponsorships.
I had a job that looked like a fantasy from the outside, but a lot of the time it felt like something I hated. Eventually I blew that up too. I went viral from doing a video in February 2022 which I cover in great detail in my book I Was Famous on the Internet. It was the highest level of viral fame I may ever have, and honestly it would probably be good to never go that viral again. Videos about me were seen around a hundred million times within a week or two, but I also got canceled over it on Facebook which is the main place I had an audience and made money. After that, I went through a year of dysphoria that felt like Udemy in 2016 all over again. At the same time, right before I went viral, I had reached a point where I was thinking that I wanted to serve humanity, that I wanted to help people, that I wanted to do something useful. That led into the viral video, which in general was useful to break people’s trance and show them the nature of the control matrix.
At the end of 2022, desperate to get back to making some money, I started a new crypto channel. Within a few months, I was making $10,000 a month selling a crypto course. I had one of the fastest-growing crypto channels out there, and I was right back in the middle of what people call success. Once again, though, it felt hollow, like I was selling my soul. I remember thinking, come on, either I’m broke and I hate it or I’m rich and I hate it. Why am I in this no-win situation? How did this thing that used to be fun, uploading videos and trying to help people, turn into something that felt like it had lost all meaning, like I was wasting my time, like I was just being a drain on the world?
I kept going for another year because the money was so good. By that point, my wife had a full-time job as an attorney making six figures, so for a couple of years we had a lot of money coming in. Even so, I kept getting so burnt out that I would try to quit, or spiral, or self-sabotage by deleting channels. I remember showing up on YouTube wishing I would get banned, while also being afraid of getting banned and doing everything I could to be compliant. I remember thinking, I wish they would just ban me so I could quit. In 2023, I deleted my Facebook page because I was tired of being demonetized, even though I still had a huge audience there and could reach hundreds of thousands of people a week by posting. I deleted it because it felt like it was draining me and wasting my audience’s time. I was hoping by deleting my Facebook page some of my followers would do the same.
Then in 2024, I told everybody remaining on YouTube, X, Twitch, and TikTok that I was quitting. I posted a goodbye video saying I was going to do something in person, that I was going to write books, bring people together, and do coaching. I remembered that back in 2022 I had done this really long meditation after driving for five hours, and during that I got the idea that I should be a life coach, that this was where I could offer people a lot of value. But I tried to do it online, and it turned into the same thing again. Why bother trying to help people with something that paid less when crypto paid so well? After just a month of trying to work in person and trying to start a new local business, I had not deleted anything online, and it was simply too easy to go back to uploading videos every day and making money. So I flailed around for another year trying to make money online. I had months where I would print $10,000 or more in crypto and feel on top of the world, but I kept hating it. Every day I kept showing up feeling like I was a tech slave, distracted all the time from my family.
Finally, in 2025, I got so burnt out that I deleted everything. I deleted all my YouTube channels, my Twitch, my X account with tens of thousands of followers, all the stuff that made me money online, the thousands of dollars a month in passive income where I literally did not have to do anything, and the tens of thousands a month I could make if I uploaded. I deleted all of it. I figured this was going to be the rest of my life if I did not delete it. I was literally just going to keep doing it forever. I felt really good and principled about that decision, and I had enough money saved up that I thought I could comfortably explore and figure out what I was going to do next.
But once that distraction was gone, once that drain of making money online was removed, it became clear that my marriage had some serious problems. You can listen to that unfold day by day in my Daily Autobiography series, which starts right after I deleted everything online in my book Author in St. Petersburg. The second book is The Kind Divorce, where you can see day by day as I try going to massage school, realize I cannot stand doing that, and then my wife tells me she wants a divorce, and I agree with her. At that point, I no longer knew what I was going to do for money. I did not have a way to make money anymore. While I had been in an environment where my wife could pay most of the bills as long as I did not drain us financially, now I had real pressure to make money.
From the time we started getting divorced, I began flailing around, thinking I need to find something to do to make money, but I cannot go back to selling my soul. I cannot go work some $20-an-hour job at a store out of desperation just because I need money. I would rather sit on the corner and be homeless than sell my soul to make money because at least I would still have freedom over my time. At least I could sit on a bench like Eckhart Tolle and talk to people about their lives or do something genuinely useful. So the last nine months have been me asking, what the hell am I going to do for money? I cannot do the thing that made me rich before, but I have to be able to take some key lessons from it into the future. That is why I have taken the time to really inventory my past, both the positive things, the lessons I have learned, and the patterns that have repeated over time, because now I can look at the present more clearly and see what I want to preserve as I move into the future.
The Present and the Future Making Money
Now that I have taken inventory of my past and how I got to where I am today, I can see that I am responsible for where I am right now. The choices I made in the past brought me here. It is important for me to be clear about exactly where I am today because if I am not willing to talk about the details of where I am now, and to be honest about my present reality, then how am I going to feel confident that I can do the same going forward and carry that honesty into the future. Where I am today is that I woke up this morning feeling afraid because I have recently borrowed about $30,000 on credit cards after spending the $25,000 my wife gave me in exchange for the house during the divorce. I have spent that $25,000 mostly paying rent for my own place over the last six months. I have also continued getting massages, paying for a tennis membership, and buying my whole plant organic groceries. Other than that, I do not have many other expenses.
I have enough money in the bank that I should be able to survive another four to six months just by continuing to borrow and spend the cash I already have. I have about $25,000 in cash, which is mostly money I have taken on as debt. So I have accumulated a net debt of around $15,000 to $20,000 in the last three months while borrowing money to keep going even though I hardly have any income coming in. Technically, I made a few hundred dollars helping somebody with their crypto within the last month. I have also gotten a tiny amount from my books, maybe around $50 in royalty checks. Meanwhile, I have spent thousands of dollars printing letters, booklets, and books to give away. Last week, I dropped hundreds of letters on people’s doorsteps, and I paid a guy a few hundred dollars to drop hundreds more. Out of all that, I got one single call and no sales.
I have been going back and forth testing different business ideas. I sent letters in the mail to my neighbors. I spent hundreds of dollars on stamps and hours and hours stuffing envelopes and putting them in the mail, and I did not get a single call from that. I spent around a $1,000 on a Crunch business membership over the last six months, taking my books there. In total, I made about $150 in book sales, which is a huge loss especially considering the time I also put in. I have been testing all these different ways to make money, and yet nothing seems to be working. I have been feeling frustrated and burnt out. I spiraled last week thinking that if I cannot make some money, I am still not going to get a job. People have told me I need to just get a job. No. I will not even look at a job or think about a job.
I am tired of having some third party rip me off, whether it was Udemy making more money off my work than I did, YouTube making more money from having people on the platform than I did, the crypto coins I promoted making more money than I did, or some agency or company where the people at the top make more money and steal from my labor. Nobody is stealing from my labor anymore. I want to work directly with the customer. Yes, I am still recording books and uploading them on Amazon, but that is mostly for the long term. That is not my primary source of income or my main plan for income, although for a few months I was hoping it could be. I tried Amazon ads. I managed to sell one book and get a couple of Kindle Unlimited page reads, which meant I spent hundreds of dollars to make maybe ten bucks in sales, and I felt pretty frustrated with that.
Thus, right now, my present is often characterized by fear, by not seeing any clear way this is going to work. Yet the one thing getting me through is that I have a vision for where I want to go. I know the world is an abundant place. I feel very wealthy on a daily basis. I can afford anything I want today. I just paid $7,500 for a matchmaking service because I am looking for a second wife. Right before I did that, I wrote a book called I’m Seeking a Wife, where I got very clear about the exact kind of marriage and relationship I wanted to have in the future. Then, through several perfectly and divinely aligned interactions with people, I ended up hearing about this matchmaking service, and I paid for it because my mind was getting so consumed with dating, and so frustrated by dating, that I was having a hard time even thinking straight about my business.
Now I have offloaded dating, and I do not need to think about that anymore or make any effort there. I am not doing anything with dating except going out with these twelve different women they introduce me to until that is done. If it works, and they say there is an 85 percent chance that it will, then I should not need to do anything else with dating. Today, my mind is absolutely obsessed with what I am going to do for my business, and sometimes I feel like I am just breaking under the frustration. I have talked to everybody about my business. I ask everybody for their ideas, their thoughts, and their feedback. The best idea I have right now is to write short little books like this, publish them as print, Kindle, and audiobooks with Amazon, and then print them out on my laser printer at home to give out in person.
I can print an entire book like this for fifty cents on my laser printer with the title and my name on the front of the envelope and then give them out. My best plan right now is that people will read the writing from those envelopes, and the writing itself is designed to be gift. The writing gives me an outlet for creative expression because after fourteen years as a content creator online, it is clear that I am a very creative person with a lot to express, and I need to keep doing that. Dictating off the top of my head the way I do for my audiobooks seems to be the best way for me to create. Then using ChatGPT and transcription to turn that into writing that can stand the test of time seems to be the best way to preserve what I have made and to make it physical.
Thus, what I am planning to do right now is grind out a lot of short little books like this and then find the best ways to distribute them locally. I do have the potential to make money from book sales through places like Amazon or Audible, but the real monetization would be local. If people go to my website at jerrybanfield.com, they can schedule a call with me. I previously had it set up for in-person meetings only, and nobody bought one of those. What I am setting up now is thirty-minute phone calls as my introductory offer on the website, the one gateway into working with me. This way, anybody who reads this book anywhere in the world can schedule a call with me directly through my website and I’ll start the calls at $75.
Then, if somebody wants a deeper working relationship, such as a ninety-day coaching package for someone local and in person, I can use that call to make the sale. What I love about this business system as I see it now is that even if I only had ten calls a week, that would be five hours of work. I would make $750 a week working five hours, which would turn into $3,000 a month from just ten thirty-minute phone calls. That would be enough to pay my rent, which is $2,700 if I adjust slightly for taxes. I do not need to work much more than five hours a week on phone calls to make enough to cover the rent. If I could get forty phone calls a week, twenty hours of work, then that would be about $3,000 a week. I would make $12,000 a month working twenty hours a week. I would also probably spend about ten hours creating books. In that time, I would be having real conversations with real people. Not all of that would necessarily be on the phone either. Some of it could lead to in-person sessions where I could have much higher-quality experiences with people face to face and really help them. If you're trying to design a way to make a living that fits the life you actually want, you can book a 30-minute Zoom call with me and we'll think it through together.
The beautiful part is that I could help on almost any subject where I have personal experience. I could help with money, loneliness, crypto, parenting, weight loss, health, and anything else I have actually lived through myself. I could even write fiction books, and people might still want to talk with me just to ask questions about the book or to get to know me. At the same time, even though in the present moment I have every reason to be afraid, I also have every reason to keep going. If my current situation continues, if I keep not making any money and keep borrowing every dollar I can get my hands on, then at a minimum I should have at least four months because I still have over $70,000 in available credit. When I count the cash I have, the personal loans I could still get, and the credit cards, I probably have at least four months at the bare minimum, if not six months to a year, where I could keep making no money at all and still survive.
If that continues, yes, I could end up having to move out of this house, and my whole life could look like a disgrace. I could be homeless. I could be on my mother’s couch. I could be living in my car. Yes, things could turn into a disaster. The upside of that is that it would at least be an adventure, and it might even be interesting, but that is still the scenario that terrifies me. My ex-wife spent a lot of time helping me get set up here. She gave me things like her couch, helped me find a dining room table, gave me the beds, and I paid a guy to help me move into the house. I have a house set up right now, a 1,400-square-foot house that I love near Crescent Lake Park in St. Petersburg. It is in a beautiful neighborhood, and I have it arranged in a way that feels really good to live in.
I have a dedicated room that I am recording this in right now, a real home office with plenty of space. I have a big front room with places to sit, my kids’ artwork, and an indoor garden. I have a huge living room and dining room area with a beautiful antique dining room table. I have the couch with recliners, which I guess my friend says I should call a sectional. I have a bedroom with a king bed and two twin beds where my kids sleep when I have them overnight on Monday, Tuesday, and Wednesday. I have a kitchen. I have a dedicated parking spot on the property shaded by a carport. I have a great house. If I meet a woman through this matchmaking service, I have the kind of house she would be really happy to move into. More importantly, I have a house I am really happy living in, in a neighborhood where I am really happy living.
My life right now is wealthy and beautiful and perfect. I also have enough money for the foreseeable future that if I wanted to go buy something like a PlayStation 5, I could easily buy a PlayStation 5. I could buy a $1,000 Ableton Push 3 if I wanted. I could take a trip to Europe right now if I felt like it. I do not think that would be a good idea, but I could do it. I could buy a plane ticket to visit my family in Michigan, rent a car, and spend $1,000 on that without it materially changing anything. Therefore, in the present, I have plenty of wealth. That is the truth. I feel very wealthy with everything I have right now. I have so much. I have everything I need. I am very comfortable. I love exactly where I am now.
The only fear I have is that I will not be able to keep this, which is kind of insane, isn’t it? I do not know all the things that are going to happen over the next few months and really, none of us do. All I can do is imagine what I want to happen, work on this book today, and choose to feel wealthy right now. I live in a neighborhood where the average house sells for over $500,000. I live around a lot of wealthy people. I feel like I am swimming in gold. There is so much money here in St. Petersburg. There is a Tesla Cybertruck parked a few houses away. There are mansions renting for $7,000 a month. My landlords live next door. They look out for the property and they are right there. I have a beautiful, perfect living situation. I am only ten minutes away from my kids’ school and five minutes from my ex’s house and my mom’s house. They do not live together, but they do live across the street from each other. I have a beautiful, perfect situation today.
I trust that if I create a vision for the future, put in the effort and the action, ask for help, and try to do things that help people, then the future will bring in the money to support this. In direct opposition to this thinking, I was tempted today. I had the thought that I should just go back to making videos online, put up a Jerry Banfield crypto channel again, and start uploading. People would be really happy to see me. I would probably get 1,000 subscribers pretty easily, get monetized, and start selling one-on-one calls again for $300 to talk about crypto. I could almost certainly pay my bills that way. But I already know how much I would hate myself and how much I would hate doing those Zoom calls. Can you imagine doing so many calls for $300 an hour on Zoom having the same conversation again and again that you would stop offering calls? Twice, I stopped offering Zoom calls because the conversations were consistently the worst part of my day.
I know I do not want to do that again. I know I want to help people with things that really matter in person. I know there are people with plenty of money in this area who would love to read books from a local author, who would love to pay me after reading some of what I have to say, who would be happy to pay to talk with me on the phone, and who would genuinely benefit from paying to do coaching with me in person, to spend time with me, and to really go deep. I know there are hundreds, if not thousands, of potential clients in this town. I know there are thousands, if not tens of thousands, of people who would read what I have written if I can just distribute it to them. I am not sure about the details right now, whether I need to drop booklets about loneliness on somebody’s doorstep, drop a book like this on somebody’s doorstep, approach people in person, or approach organizations about me giving a talk. My mind struggles with details that are further ahead, but I am grateful that I have figured out what I need to do right now, which is create value for other people while satisfying my own creative desires at the same time.
I started writing this book today because it is a book I need to write. It is a book that helps me get clear. I noticed there was a powerful shift when I wrote my book I’m Seeking a Wife. In the months before that, dating was uncomfortable and difficult, to say the least. As I have written about in my Daily Autobiography series, especially in my sixth book, Divorce Day, which I just published on Amazon yesterday, dating again was a struggle when I did not have a very clear inventory of the past or a sharp vision for the future. What I can see today is that I intend to make money going forward in a way that is loving and joyful, in a way where I do not think there is anything better I could be doing.
If I am talking to someone locally who is overweight, when I have lost eighty pounds and kept it off for a decade, and that person is desperate to lose weight and keep it off, wants what I have, wants to hear my experience, wants to share their life with me, and then wants to pay me thousands of dollars for a ninety-day coaching package to change, and after that wants me to keep them accountable for years so they stay on top of it, then there is nothing better I could do than help somebody who is struggling with their body get their body back. Getting my body back was one of the biggest things that ever happened in my life. I was able to do it by reading books because I did not have all these other distractions, and because I am good at putting things into practice and can help other people do that. I love writing these books. I have read so many books that changed my life, books that were deeply positive influences and helped me get new ideas. If there's something you've lived through — your weight, your money, your loneliness — that you want real help with from someone who's been there, you can book a Zoom call with me.
Reading How Not to Die by Dr. Michael Greger was pivotal in my weight loss journey. Reading Alcoholics Anonymous was pivotal in my sobriety, and all the other AA literature has been hugely helpful too. Thus, I know books have power. I do not watch any content online right now. Books are all I read and I love creating books. I love writing books. I love giving people my books. Over the last few months, I have given hundreds of people my books, but those books were not optimized to make money. I gave people my book Author in St. Petersburg and my other book I Was Famous on the Internet, but neither of those books is especially well optimized to make money because they do not obviously address clear pain points.
At the same time, those books did prove that my writing draws emotional responses. Some people stopped talking to me or were very bothered by my rigorous honesty in Author in St. Petersburg. Other people loved it and poured their hearts out to me. One man even left a very enthusiastic five-star review on Amazon saying the book was from a misunderstood genius. I am grateful that I have had proof that my books and my writing are powerful, but my mind still keeps telling me that my writing sucks, that I am better at making videos, that there is no reason for me to write books, and that I am never going to make money writing books. What I can see today is that I would love a future where I make a few thousand dollars a month in royalties from writing books and make the rest of my money through coaching and speaking. That is the future I want.
I want a future where I have a second wife who can afford to stay home for years and raise our two or more kids while I receive some passive income from the books I have written and work maybe twenty or thirty hours a week. I want to make enough income, at least $10,000 a month, to support a comfortable lifestyle for all of us while genuinely adding value and uplifting my community. That second part is what was missing when I look back through my inventory. I was very clear all the way back in 2013 that I wanted to make $10,000 a month, and within three months of getting clear about that and taking action, I did it. What I did not include then, and what I really did not include again until recently, was that second qualifier. I want the way I make money to be something that genuinely adds value to the world, something that helps make the world the kind of world I want to live in.
I know that if I upload crypto videos, I am not helping create the kind of world I want to live in. I know that if I am out there playing video games, trying to get people to give me money, and showing off my gaming skills, there are already enough people doing that. If nobody were doing that, maybe it would be different. When I started on crypto YouTube, almost nobody was doing crypto videos. My first crypto video was in 2014, and there were barely any crypto videos back then. Some of those videos from that era have gone viral now simply because there were so few of them. Yet all my videos online are deleted, and that demonstrates that I did not want to keep doing that either. I know I do not want to sell my soul or trade my health for money the way my mother did. I know I want to create and serve people in a way that preserves my life force and uplifts others.
I have put so much work into trying to figure out exactly how to do that. I have asked for so much help, and every time I hand somebody one of my books, it is like asking for help. I know that going forward, all I need to do is hold the clear vision and the clear intention, and the details will get filled in. I know that I need to give people my writing for free. I need to get people reading things like this as much as I can for free. That is why I put it on Kindle Unlimited so anyone in the world with Kindle Unlimited can read it for free, and that is why I give out these booklets in person. I also need to be there for people to ask questions, because with most authors, you can read their books, but you cannot easily talk with them and ask them questions. To me, that is what makes my work special locally. When I give somebody one of these books, they will either see me in person, or if I drop it on a doorstep, they can schedule a call with me, and that can lead to an in-person meeting. That is something you cannot do with most authors.
I am really proud of myself for navigating this transition without backsliding. There have been plenty of days when I thought about putting up another YouTube channel, and I am glad I have not done it. At the same time, I am glad I have not compromised and gotten desperate. Almost everybody has told me to get a job, stop doing my own business, just apply for jobs, and make money. My close friends and family have told me it does not matter what I want to do. It does not matter that I want my own business or that I want to make money with books. According to them, none of that matters. I just need to get a job and pay the bills like a reasonable person. I refuse to live that way. I will not put survival first because if I am merely surviving but not fulfilling my mission here, if I am not living joyfully from the heart, then it is not worth it.
Surviving without thriving, loving, living in joy, and truly helping and serving other people is not worth it to me. I am at a place today where I either have to live in style or accept the worst-case scenario with no backup plan. I do not have a backup plan if this does not work out. I have no idea what I am going to do if, for some reason, no matter what I try, I cannot pay my bills through my business. I will not apply for a job. I do not care how desperate it gets. I will face the worst of it. I am grateful today that I am willing to face the worst of it because that allows me to be all in. I am not treating this like something casual where, if it does not work out, that is fine. This could be a disaster if it does not work out, and that is exactly what gives me the motivation for total commitment. I'd rather be all in on work I love alongside other people doing the same, which is the whole reason I built the Jerry Banfield Family.
The question is what total commitment looks like for me. Total commitment looks like writing books and distributing books, probably putting 50 percent or less of my energy into actually writing them and 50 percent or more into distributing them. Once I get the books distributed and start getting clients, then the split might change to something like 30 percent writing books, 20 or 30 percent distributing them, and then the rest of my time serving clients. But for now, I need to write the books in order to distribute them. Most of the books I have written so far have not been the best books to give away and get clients from because they did not address clear pain points. This book sets up the rest of the books that will be there to make money and to really address people’s pain points. I was thinking about what book I should do next, and the answer was clear. I needed to do the book that sets my intention, takes inventory, and looks ahead to the future of the money I want to make.
I absolutely love the idea that six months from now I am making $6,000 or $8,000 a month, easily paying my rent, with ten, twenty, or thirty more books published. I love the idea that I have gotten my books into the hands of thousands of people and that I have all kinds of clients paying $75 for a thirty-minute phone call. On top of that, I would have a handful of clients paying for much higher-value coaching packages, maybe a client or two who paid me thousands of dollars to help them write their own book, a few clients who paid me to keep them accountable and mentor them through their weight loss journey, a client or two who paid to see how I went from narrating a book like this to making it physically real, maybe a client I am mentoring on money, maybe a client I am helping with loneliness. I love that future, the one where I am paying all my bills and paying down all my debts.
Then if I look five or ten years ahead, I can see myself making thousands of dollars a month in book royalties as my local audience buys enough books and leaves enough reviews that I begin reaching a national audience and even an international audience with some of them. My best books, I could pay to translate and publish in other languages. Give me five, ten, or twenty years, and I can very comfortably be making plenty of money to pay all the bills and still have money to give away and use to help other people. I will be debt free. I will have a house that is nice and a car that is nice and that I love, although really I already have a house I love now and a car I love now, so in that sense it is more like having the same thing in the future, just with greater security around it.
I want a wife and kids that I support full time, where my wife does not have to work at all unless she wants to. She can have a lifestyle where she goes to yoga, goes to the gym, and spends time with her girlfriends. We have money to pay for babysitters, maybe even a part-time nanny. The kids have an awesome life surrounded by people who love them, and my new kids get to know my older kids from my first marriage. Every day I feel fulfilled in my work. I know I am doing work that is truly valuable for people. I start getting paid to go speak places and do corporate trainings and workshops. I love that future.
What I am doing now is laying the foundation for that future, and I am enjoying the journey. When I think back on some of the most special times during the years when I made millions of dollars and was famous online, what stands out most is that many of those moments were times when I was operating on faith. With Udemy at the end of 2014, I had one course on Facebook marketing that was making about $1,000 a month. I created a couple more courses, spent months trying to give the course away and improve it, and then I had my first month where it made $6,000. I made $6,400 in November 2014 with three online courses, and I remember thinking, oh my God, if I go all in on this, I can make tens of thousands of dollars a month every month. In December I made fewer sales, but I remember the beginning of 2015 so clearly, borrowing what money I could, going all in, filming courses, paying people, and carrying this wealthy feeling, this faith, and this certainty that all I had to do was keep going.
I remember believing that if I just kept going, if I believed in the vision and believed in the mission, everything would come through. I saw other people talking about how much money they were making on Udemy, and they inspired me. I remember thinking, if this person can make $1,000 a day, I can make $2,000 a day. Within a year, I was doing that. Yet those early times, when I was still operating on faith, are what feel especially meaningful to me now because once everything is already coming in, it can be a little less special. Right now is the special time. Right now is when I am operating on faith, and right now there is danger. A lot of us try to have safety all the time, but the truth is that danger is where the adventure is. I am in a dangerous financial position right now. If I keep borrowing all my money and I am not willing to go work some job, that is dangerous. I could face a level of poverty, despair, hunger, and challenge that I have not known before in my life.
At the same time, there is faith. I have a knowing that if I keep doing what I am doing, if I keep adapting and changing, if I keep trying to help people, and if I give thousands of these books away on all kinds of subjects, then I will start to see which books resonate, which people to give them to, where the referrals come from, how people share them, and maybe even how people online somehow find my books too. I believe it is all going to work out. Ten or twenty years from now, I think the most special time in this whole journey will be right now. This will be the time when I demonstrated my faith. This will be the time when I had a vision that eventually became reality. Later, when the reality is there, everybody will say, oh man, you are so successful, like they did when I had millions of followers online, and I will know exactly where that started. It started when I had faith. It started when I was taking action based on faith. If you're in your own leap of faith right now, come take the next step with people walking the same road in the Jerry Banfield Family.
The actions I am taking today are based on faith in the future given the similarity with my present. If I have a house I love today and a car I love today, even though my car is twenty years old and this house is over a hundred years old, I still love both of them. They do everything I need them to do. If I can trust that the universe gave me a house I love even after my divorce, and gave me a car I love, then I can trust that I will keep having a house and a car I love. The universe also gave me financial circumstances where I was able to provide for my first wife so she did not have to work for years while our kids were young. I already provided for a stay-at-home mom for several years. I trust the universe can do that again.
I do not know exactly how it is going to happen. Maybe I will give one of these books to a rich girl and she will decide to fund my whole lifestyle. That is possible. There are seriously rich girls here in St. Petersburg who could easily pay for everything for me and it would be no big deal to them. There are all kinds of ways this can happen. What I know is that right now is a special place to be. If there is anything I hope you get from this book, it is that where you are today is a special place too. The harder it is today, the more of an opportunity you have for adventure and for faith. I remember how proud I was when I was making all that money on Udemy, and what I was most proud of was not just the money. I was proud that my vision had been carried out successfully, that my faith had been proven right.
When I was famous on Facebook and getting millions of views on my videos, I remember those first live streams where only a few hundred people were watching. I could feel the energy and the excitement. I could feel what was coming. In August 2020, after I had gotten rid of all my gaming systems and all my streaming equipment, I had nothing. I remember jumping on my small fitness trampoline and having a very clear vision of being a professional gamer making something like $10,000 a month playing Call of Duty and other games. Within a year, that vision had become reality. I could see it clearly, even while everyone else thought I was crazy. My wife thought I was crazy. I literally did not have any gaming systems given I had quit gaming twice in the previous 4 years and sold everything each time. I had to start everything up from scratch. My friend gave me back the old Xbox One I had given him. I bought a $600 PC off Facebook Marketplace from a guy who had patched it together from used parts. Another friend sent me a microphone I had mailed him years before, one that was cheap and that he did not need anymore. I bought a $200 camcorder that had been used to film funerals. Yet underneath all that was this feeling, this faith, this knowing that I could feel what was coming.
I can still feel that now when I really tap into it, when I take inventory of my past, look honestly at where I have been, step out of the present circumstances of fear, and step into the knowing of what is coming to me. If I fully own and get clear about what I want, I know what is coming. I am going to be making tens of thousands of dollars a month doing basically what I am doing today: writing books, distributing books, and coaching people who read my books. What an awesome future to look forward to. What I intend to do going forward is focus mostly on the future I am building. When my mind starts filling with fear and says it is not going to work out, I look to see whether there is anything I need to change, any suggestion I could take, or anyone I could ask for help. I make the adjustments, then I keep working and stay with the vision.
What I love about this book is that it is an artifact. Right now, most of my books hardly have any reviews at all. Other than the books I wrote years ago about Google AdWords, YouTube, and Facebook, most of my books have no reviews or maybe one or two at most, and half of those are bad. One day, some of my books may have hundreds of reviews, maybe even thousands, and I may have sold tens of thousands of copies. Technically, I have already made over $10,000 in royalties from my books, but most of that was years ago. One day, when it all looks smooth, professional, put together, and impressive from the outside, I will be able to say, look at this book. Look at this book I wrote about making money after quitting the thing that made me rich. Look at how desperate and dangerous my situation was when I wrote it. Look at how clearly I manifested this. Look at how I got clear about the vision, believed in the vision, asked for help, worked on it relentlessly, did not quit, and lived a life based on faith.
I would not be paying $2,700 a month for this house if I did not have faith that I would be able to afford it all year. I signed a one-year lease, I still have nine more months on it, and I intend to stay here for years. Thus, I hope this book is helpful as an example. This is how I have taken inventory, looked honestly at where I am, and set a very clear destination for my future while being in the middle of quitting the thing that made me rich and not knowing exactly how things are going to work out financially. I hope this book has been really helpful for you. If you want to talk with me, you can go to jerrybanfield.com, schedule a call with me, and share your situation. Thank you very much for reading this, and I hope to see you again soon.