This is my journal entry from March 17, 2026 — my real, unedited day, shared just as it happened.
I feel like I'm back on track today. After getting a bit derailed over a lot of the last week, cranking that whole book out yesterday seems to have lifted my whole mind, body, and spirit onto a level that feels joyful. That seems to be one of the actions I took that really helped me have a breakthrough. And now, I've got a plan I'm really excited about going forward. I'm just going to keep grinding out short books like that. And then I will give booklets away locally. But today I'm thinking, you know what? I need to test Amazon ads again. Because if I crank out a whole bunch of little books, I should crank out some outliers. Outliers are books that will actually make money advertising them. And all I need is a few outliers that actually make money advertising them when you consider the book sales and the coaching calls. If I can make some money advertising my books on Amazon, everything is going to go nuts. Because then I'll get sales on other books. It'll just be this reinforcement loop, especially when combined with my local marketing. Finally, I'm feeling today that I have an outstanding, well-rounded, well-thought-out, well-researched business system that now all I have to do is execute on. And the main thing to execute on is cranking out these little books. And then having these booklets ready to give away whenever opportunities present themselves.
I am really grateful to wake up with the kids here today. And they want to go straight to the acai place for breakfast. I get about an hour of snuggles with my son in bed, which is really nice. It was a sleepy spring break day. And then we head over there. They have their acai bowls. My daughter gets this plain acai bowl with literally acai and granola. I'm like, I could just buy you a pack of acai at the store and dump some granola on there for like a couple dollars instead of spending 17 for your bowl. My son gets a really nice bowl with like Nutella, bananas, strawberries, blueberries, acai. My son's bowl definitely makes sense, but my daughter thoroughly enjoys her bowl and that's what counts.
After breakfast, I take them over to my ex-wife's house and she's got the RC car that my son is so excited about. This thing goes like 40 miles an hour and my son's having a lot of fun driving it out in the street. I encourage him to remember that if you wreck this thing, be careful driving this because the difference between going 10 miles an hour versus 40 miles an hour, that's squared. When you do force equals mass times velocity squared, if you hit something square on at 40 miles an hour versus 10 miles an hour, that's a difference of 30 miles an hour, which you would think would only be like three or four times more of an impact, right? No, because it's squared. So you're looking at around maybe 16, I guess, depending on if you take the difference. You could do like 40 squared versus 10 squared. But basically, the impact you're looking at is around maybe like 9 or 16, depending on how you calculate it. 9 or 16 times harder going from 10 miles an hour to 40 miles an hour. And that means stuff just smashes apart instead of getting a little bump or breaking a little thing off the bumper. Or it means you damage property. I explain this to my son and he considers that with his driving.
After dropping the kids off, I run over to the grocery store and instead of going through to self-checkout, there's a cute cashier. I go through her line, have a nice conversation with her and get everything checked out super quick. I drop everything back at home. Then I run over to the AA meeting. At the AA meeting, there's one of the women that seemed not interested in me and didn't respond to asking to go get coffee or anything with me. And I feel this just sadness. I'm in a great mood when I get there. I sit next to my sponsor and she gives me a little wave to say hi. And I'm just like, oh, I wish you weren't here. Like, I just feel bad with you being here. I'd rather not even be in a meeting with you. And then I'm wondering, I'm like, why does this matter to me so much? Like, I don't get why this is just ruining the whole meeting for me. Nobody calls on me either, which is probably good because I was going to say something that's a bit of a downer.
I talked to my sponsor about it afterwards and he recounts some of his experiences and also explains why it might be better to not ask women out or even just try and do anything at all with women at meetings, like not get phone numbers and stay away from them. And I'm like, that seems to be the thing to do unless I'm willing to give up a meeting over it. And he doesn't think you should have to give up meetings. But he at the same time moved away because it was really hard for him seeing his ex coming to meetings with other people. So he really understands. And that's what I love about him. I have a great conversation with him.
And then I stop back at home and go to play tennis with a friend. I tell him about this. And he basically helps me see that it's totally reasonable that she's not interested in me. And that's all she's communicated, that by not responding, she's not interested. I tell him that in a lot of the books that are written about how to text women and dating women, a lot of the advice is that guys should pursue women and basically break down their defenses, that they're flaky and you just have to accept sometimes they don't respond. Just keep trying again. I remember reading one book specifically that said something like, if she didn't respond on the first text then wait a couple of days and try again, and then wait a few more days if she doesn't respond to that and then try again, and if she doesn't respond to that then maybe a phone call, and if she didn't answer the phone call then maybe another text or two, and then maybe even a hail mary months later. And it's nice talking with my friend. He says that's ridiculous. Like he might stop on the first text that she didn't respond to, especially if it's asking to schedule a date, or even if it's just like a coffee, something casual and friendly. It's not necessarily even a date. But he said definitely by the second one. Like in this case, she had said no once. And then the next time I asked to do something, she just ignored the message. And then the last message I sent, which was just a, hey, miss seeing you at the meeting today. She didn't even respond to that either. After which I deleted her number. And I end up feeling a lot better talking to my friend. I'm like, okay, it's okay. She's not interested.
And he gives me this story about how one of his friends went into this gelato place downtown. Now, my friend likes to get three different flavors of gelato. And this guy just got the lemon gelato single-handedly in the same size cup that my friend had gotten three flavors. This guy just got lemon. And my friend said he can't stand the lemon. It's one of his least favorite flavors. And that there's nothing like judgment or anything in that. It's just his preference is lemon. The guy's preference is lemon, and my friend's preference is these other flavors. And there's nothing personal or judgment. Like, if I'm not this woman's preference, then it's okay, she's not interested. And yes, it makes sense that I was hurt, but at the same time, it's no big deal either when someone's not interested. And I feel a lot of relief having this conversation, which really helps.
Then we play tennis and we have one of our most competitive first sets ever. I started up ahead, then he won a few games in a row. I end up 6-5 in the lead. He wins the 12th game of the set. We play a tiebreaker that ends up, he ends up winning 11-9 in the tiebreaker. Then I fall off the first few games, spiraling as he starts to win 0-3. But then I bring back a few games and end up giving him some competition until he finally finishes the set off at 6-4 for the second set. We end up playing the most tennis we've played and having the longest time hanging out with each other we've had in a while. I got there at 1 and we end up leaving a little after 3.30, which was really nice.
I come home and shower and the kids are here. They go over to play with their friends. My son's saying they're excluding him sometimes, which I don't give him much advice about. I just kind of listen and tell him I know how that feels. I mean, that's how I feel with this woman at the meeting, like excluding me. She hangs out with other people, including guys in the program. They're friendly with her, and I feel excluded. And so I understand. I tell my son I understand. I don't make anybody wrong. And what's nice is he ends up going back over there and playing with them and having a good time.
I am working on today generating more ideas. I set up some ads for my Bitcoin book for ads that I think could convert coaching calls. Because the real sweet spot for me is if I can advertise books that will sell coaching calls, then we can really go off. ChatGPT likes this business system idea too. And I am feeling really positive for the future because if I can take several months to both get local traction and generate a bunch of books, try advertising some, maybe find one or two that actually generate sales and calls. This is all going to work. And that's a really nice feeling to have, that everything is going to work. My son has his RC car here and is having fun with it in the alley and shows it off to the neighbors. My ex-wife brings the kids. I drop the kids off in the morning, as I said, but then she brings them over this afternoon for my overnight. And I'm really grateful for where I'm at today and where we're going in the future.
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