This is my journal entry from February 2, 2026 — my real, unedited day, shared just as it happened.
Today, I dove deep into my work. I thought about, do I want to go to the 11 a.m. meeting that I usually go to? But they screwed the format up on it with a recent change. And I'm like, you know what? What I really want to do is bury myself in books this morning. It's important that I give enough time to do my work while making sure I go to at least five AA meetings a week. This would be the first day I've taken off in weeks. And it feels good. I go hard on my work, editing two old books. One was about Twitch. It's called Live Streaming on Twitch, My Experience Now. And the other one was originally called How I Make $200,000 a Year Teaching Online or something like that. But now I've updated it to How I Created 55 Online Video Courses. I edited the format and made it more current. I edited both these books on Kindle and submitted them as a test to see how easy I could update my existing catalog.
Then I did a personal training session with my personal trainer where we worked on arms. He really burned out my biceps and my triceps. There's a gorgeous girl that's working out there that we were just talking about girls, and he was talking about how he likes girls with bigger butts than I do. And I was looking around the gym. I'm like, let me show you what I like. And this girl walks by in her sports bra and her shorts, she's on the skinnier side, blonde, just gorgeous. And I'm like, that's what I like. That is just the perfect girl. Meanwhile, this girl like walks by and orbits us like three times and then pulls up at a machine like right where I'm looking in front of me. My personal trainer thinks I should go talk to her, but I want to feel the energy with someone and, you know, not just kind of cold approach.
If I'm that honest, I walk up and be like, yeah, my trainer and I were just talking about you. You're the hottest girl in here. I almost walked out the door the same time as her and I kind of lingered. But I decided, I'm like, yeah, you know, I got this idea to write a book to my future wife. And I'd really like that to be my story. I think that'd be the most awesome story. And I want to explore that and see if it works. Not that I just talked to some girl at the gym and then I'm putting her in a position of power, talking to her like that. But maybe I could think about this in a more loving way. Who knows?
I go home and have my salad and everything fill up and get ready for the kids to come over. My ex-wife drops the kids off. And as soon as they get over here, they're immediately off to go play with their friends across the street, which I love. I'm glad they're so excited. They show me the slide they built behind the house. And they play over there for a couple of hours while I continue eating and cleaning up everything and getting ready for them. After they get back, we go over to my ex-wife's house to pick up my son's blankets. He didn't remember to bring his blankets. So we grab those for the evening. Then we go to watch my daughter play basketball.
My son gives me some great snuggles and it helps me have a nice cry. I'm looking out at the girls playing basketball thinking that I wish I could see better. My vision last it was tested was like 20/40, 20/60. And I'm wishing like, damn, I wish I could see things more clearly. But then I start thinking like, thank you. Thank you that I can see so clearly. Thank you that I can see the clock on the other side diagonally across all the way over in the gym, that I can see that. Thank you that I can see my daughter playing in plenty of detail to tell what's going on as she swats the ball away when a girl goes to shoot and she makes a shot and I can see her smile. Thank you that I can see that clarity. I started to get into so much gratitude. I had a nice cry right there while holding my son. And then towards the end, my son and I played and passed the ball to each other.
Then we went home. I got the kids in bed. And we had to crank the heat way up. It looks like I need to get a space heater instead of running the heat in the whole house, which seems pretty leaky. I bought a space heater that should arrive on Thursday. And now that way I can just heat the bedroom instead of having to heat the 1400 square foot house. I can heat the bedroom, which is like 150 something square feet. And that'll save a ton of money. Well, not a ton, really. But the space heater will pay for itself over time heating the bedroom. And then the longer I stay here, the more it'll save money.
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