On October 27, 2024, I went to yoga this morning and that helped a lot, because I was pretty sore. I filmed a couple of crypto videos today and took a lot of time around the house to hang out with family and clean things up. My daughter spent the night at a friend's house last night, so we just woke up to me and my son and Laura, and we're all here together today.
A quiet day around the house
I've got a shed in the backyard that a tree fell on the corner of — not the one I used to film in — so I cleaned that out, and I took the dogs for a little walk this morning. I love just doing that everyday stuff around my home.
I'm planning to go to the mall tomorrow to pick up a new iPhone. And it looks like some good things are coming together with the house: as soon as we can work with the mortgage company, the flood insurance is going to pay us to replace lots of stuff inside. We also just found out today that our homeowner's insurance for the second hurricane is going to give us a brand new roof, which will be awesome because the roof was done back in 2013. I'm feeling very grateful, very much myself today, and full of energy and full of life.
Putting down the audiobook
I stopped listening to that book I started yesterday, the one by the mother of one of the kids from Columbine. I'm like, you know, I think we're going to move on to something else. That's what's great with Spotify audiobooks — you can just start listening, get through the first hour or two, and be like, all right, I think I'm good, I'm going to move on.
I always get all these things I want to talk about all day. I'm like, oh, I'm going to talk about this in a diary, and that in a diary. Then I go to film it and I'm like, okay, I've got nothing.
The cost of getting back into creating
I love creating this content. I think about all the time what I can create. The downside, though, is that when I took a month where I wasn't creating content, I needed other people so much more. I needed people to talk to. I was so much more interested in people's lives. I've noticed now that I've gotten back into creating things online, I'm often back in my head again. I'm thinking more about what I'm going to create and what I'm going to say, and it's a little bit harder to be present with people in person. If you enjoy these everyday reflections, you can watch my newest videos in my Life playlist.
The woman at yoga I judged for over a year
Still, I did take some time to talk to some people at yoga today. There's this lady I used to do yoga with that I used to have a lot of judgmental thoughts about — how big she was, and how she'd put her mat down right where I wanted somebody else to be. There was a girl at the same time who was really attractive, who paid a lot of attention to me and flirted with me, and I had a crush on her. (That's a story I've told before, about the girl I'd seen at yoga for over a year.) This bigger lady would put her mat right in the same spot, so that other girl couldn't, and I'd get pissed off at her.
After more than a year of seeing her at yoga, I finally talked to her and asked her what her name was — all the while thinking, I'm not some person that's just totally superficial. And I had a really nice conversation with her today. I'm very proud of how she's stuck with her yoga practice.
Why I don't believe age makes you sick
She was telling me how her back got strained recently. And she was saying things like, oh, it's my age, I don't heal up as fast. And I'm like, that's crap. I strained my back in my early 20s and it took weeks to heal up, because I took the meds they gave me and the muscle relaxers and laid around — and that was much worse. I had about the same back strain in 2023, and I did yoga every single day and it healed up and I was much more functional. There was much less pain. I didn't lose any functionality. The injury was almost the same, and yet based on my choices and my lifestyle and my beliefs, the second time it was much easier to deal with.
I think a lot of the age stuff is actually what makes things happen. When people are saying, well, I'm in my fifties now, therefore — no. There is no point where you cross some threshold and things start happening to you based on your age, unless you do it in your mind. Unless you do it in your mind.
So I'm really grateful today. It has been two years since I've had a single day where I've been sick, and that's because I don't believe other people get me sick anymore. I believe I have control over my body, and that has felt like an incredible liberation. I hope every day in these diaries to give you some kind of a message like that — something I'm thinking about.
Unplugging from feeling like a victim
I'm reading these Seth books by Jane Roberts and Robert Butts. They have some incredible ideas in them. I highly recommend reading them if you want to unplug from feeling like a victim. It seems like the world is set up to get you to feel like you're a victim and to give your power away. And what I've got is that I know I am God. I'm the creator of this entire reality. All of it is mine. And that is what I hope to offer to you.