This is what I'm thinking about a lot today. If you're here, I imagine you'll find my journey on and off and on and off these different apps useful, especially if you're a creator, and that's what we're going to talk about. Right now I'm live on Twitch, and I'm in my studio recording this for YouTube and my podcast, and what I'm back is this: I'm back posting on Facebook and TikTok, even shitty old Hive. I'm posting on Hive again, and on YouTube, Twitter, and Instagram. I'm back to posting on all of these because when I was gaming, it made sense to just focus and do all gaming content. When I was totally focused on Twitch, it made sense to just be live. I got tons of followers simply by being live more hours on Twitch.
Why the platforms are so siloed
People don't cross over platforms that often. The people who are on Facebook tend to stay on Facebook, and maybe one percent of the time or less will they actually cross over to another platform. These platforms are very siloed. People who are on YouTube often don't want to come over to anything else. So I'm back posting on all the platforms, but I'm done game streaming, and I'm just going to put up life coaching stuff. Some days that's going to mean just me talking about whatever I'm going through, whatever I'm experiencing, whatever I'm learning. I think that can be one of the best ways to coach, is to share what I'm learning, and then if you're having a similar learning experience, it works well.
On the crypto side, I don't have an all-in coin yet. I'm looking for one. I'm just cashing out of Gods Unchained at the moment.
Coming back sad and depressed
I've been kind of feeling sad and depressed about coming back on some of these platforms. I was feeling especially low about Facebook, because I've had a real love-hate relationship with that platform. It looks like most of my old monetization violations and issues are gone on there now. There's just a limited originality of content flag left, so I spent time sending an email to the appeals-at-fb-dot-com address to see if they could get the monetization back. On Hive, there were a bunch of downvotes and a bunch of crappy comments, and I thought, well, this is stupid, I'm not going to post there anymore. But then again, why not? If people are going to read my stuff on Hive, I might as well put it up there.
On TikTok, I was really depressed. I have like 29,000 followers on TikTok. I've got millions of views. And I'd think, why even put videos up if they're going to get 50 views? Well, 50 views is a lot more than zero views. I'm also planning to put all my shirts on eBay, and I'd love some advice on that.
A little hope for these apps
I really like that Elon Musk has bought Twitter. That gives me a lot of hope for Twitter as more of a free speech platform. It's great because we're getting to see how companies like Apple are actively censoring, or forcing censorship, on the apps. Some of these platforms may not want to censor, but companies like Apple are bullying them into it, and they're doing things behind the scenes without being open or transparent about it. I'm glad Elon Musk is bringing these things out on Twitter.
Instagram is the only platform out of all of these that I've never really gone viral on. On all the rest, we've gone viral. I've had a real negative attitude about Instagram, but I figure, look, if I can put up a video that might help somebody, then I might as well do that, right?
One thing that's been nice about gaming is that the earnings have been so low and so pathetic that it's put things in perspective. It's like, screw the earnings. I'm just going to put up whatever I've got to say on all these platforms every day, and I'm not even going to read what people reply. I don't need to know what somebody who's having a bad day on Facebook and dumps on my video has to say. I will watch my Twitch comments live, and I will pay attention to my Discord and my Telegram chat. For some reason I can't get the Discord embedded on my website yet, but on my website I've got links to all my stuff, so if you want to be a real try-hard and follow me everywhere, it's all there.
The earnings have plummeted, and I'm okay with that
I got into a pretty bad attitude about a lot of these platforms before. And yeah, the earnings have plummeted since I was doing my streams and I was a partner on Facebook gaming. I was making like 10 grand a month on Facebook gaming. Now, to simplify it, the total for the whole year is $25,000, and nearly all of that was from Facebook gaming at the beginning of the year. So the earnings have plummeted, but I don't even need to make money either. $1,000 to me is like barely making money. I don't have hardly any expenses. My wife pays for most everything; she's got a great job. I've already got the whole studio set up here, and I've got a bunch of stuff I can sell. I'm planning to sell my PS5 and my Xbox Series X. I'm thinking of putting them on eBay so that if any of you wanted to buy the exact one I had, you could.
A new attitude about what I create
One of the big things about coming back to these platforms is that I've been so stuck, every single platform, since I started being a creator 11 years ago, on the idea that I've got to get views and I've got to make stuff that people want to watch. Now, I'm sure I should be considerate of you when I make things. But I'm coming back to these platforms with my shorts and reels and TikToks with a different aim: I need to put out a message that's worth hearing, and that will generally be whatever I'm really passionate about sharing that day. And honestly, I'm kind of scared to come back.
I used to have merch on my website, and I took it off. I've been afraid to come back to these platforms because I know I can get a lot of attention on them, and sometimes it's too much. But I'm glad, because I feel like I'm coming back with a great balance. I know what I need to create. I know what I need to give. And that's what needs to be delivered. I don't need to just be doing stuff trying to get views. As a life coach, I've really tapped into my message. My message is about life coaching, and that's the stuff I've got to give. I don't care if only 50 out of my 29,000 followers watch it on TikTok, or whatever the number is on these other platforms. If anybody's going to watch it, and it has a chance to make a difference for somebody else, then it's worth it. I don't care if the platform isn't even giving me any money, and is kind of purely exploiting me, where my content is making them money and I'm getting nothing, as is the case on Facebook right now. Hopefully with this limited originality flag we can get that cleared up. And it looks like supporters are unlocked again on Facebook, as far as I can see, so you can be a supporter there again. I'm not going to be live on Facebook, though. I'm planning to just go live on Twitch, because we have such a nice community here and Twitch is purely for live streaming, and then I can put videos up on all these other ones.
I'm really grateful. I've got a new attitude, which is that I just need to say what really needs to be said, the thing that might help somebody else out. The views and the money are not up to me. I've got enough views and I've got enough money.
Why I've been hiding, and what I recovered from
I've actually been scared to come back to these platforms because part of me very much does not want to be any more well known than I already am. I already get recognized. Sometimes people just see me and go, you look familiar. And I'm like, all right, what is it? Did I change my race? Nope. How about YouTube tutorials? Nope, that's not it either. Facebook gaming? Nope. How about Steam? Oh yeah, crypto, you're the crypto YouTube dude. There we go. So I don't love being that well known, and I'm well enough known already. In some ways I was hiding from these platforms, but it was also really helpful as a detox. Getting off of interacting on these platforms was genuinely healing.
People ask what I recovered from. Lots of different things. Alcoholism and gambling addiction were two of my most acute addictions. But I also had sex addiction, pornography addiction, overeating and compulsive eating, and just more of an addiction to drama, and to thinking.
Somebody in chat called it social media toxic shock syndrome. I was looking at these platforms with a negative attitude, and yes, there are a lot of bad vibes, manipulative frequencies, and misinformation. There's a lot of crap on these platforms, to be sure. However, I tend to see life as more of a neutral experience. I'm not good or bad; it depends on who you ask. Ask some people and I'm the epitome of the devil. Ask others and I'm the second coming of Christ. Most people land somewhere in the middle. But these platforms are just doing their best within the system they're in. Facebook was just doing their best. Their best in 2021 was making me a partner, giving me a whole bunch of views and attention and a whole bunch of money. Their best in 2022 was demonetizing me and then patting themselves on the back, like, we did a good job with that one, didn't we?
What TikTok and the platforms taught me
TikTok's best was blowing up some of my videos and, at various points, taking some of my videos down and putting some of them back up after I appealed. Blowing my videos up viral, then suspending my entire account, then putting my account back up. Taking my live streams down, putting them back up. Giving me money on the creator fund. And then ultimately not giving me as many views as I thought I deserved on each video. That's their best. When it only takes a minute to upload a video to TikTok, if I have the chance to help somebody, I'll put it on TikTok. And if there are any other platforms you think I should create on, I'd love to know, on Twitch or in my Discord or my Telegram, which are the only places I'm able to read what you have to say. So I'm coming back to these platforms. Maybe on Twitter I'll read and interact a bit more.
For a long time I either wasn't using Facebook at all, or I just stopped using it without even bothering to unfollow anyone. On some platforms I unfollowed a whole bunch of people. When you follow a bunch of people to watch God's Unchained, for example, and then you don't want to play God's Unchained anymore, I don't want to watch God's Unchained either, because if I keep watching it, at some point I'll probably play it on stream again.
It has been challenging over the years because I've been doing so many different things on all these platforms. I put up gaming videos. I put up life coaching videos. I put up comedy videos. And then people confuse the serious with the comedy, like, "I'm changing my race." No, this isn't funny, this is serious. That's comedy. He's just being stupid. So it's understandable.
Back with one mission
I'm back on these platforms with one mission. My mission is to help transform consciousness on this planet, to help human beings have a Star Trek future, to help us work together more effectively, to be a life coach, and to be a leader. A forerunner of human consciousness that is aimed at a kind, loving, let's-take-care-of-each-other, let's-be-honest, let's-be-open way of living, to lead and put that out on all these platforms. That gives me one clear mission each day, which is nice.
Over time this will help a lot, because if you followed on Facebook for Warzone and I put up a bunch of life coaching stuff, well, that's annoying if you're expecting Warzone, or that's why you followed. So we will need to go through a process of elimination on some of these. But I'm really excited to just post with the same vibe, no more gaming videos. On all these platforms, like Facebook, TikTok, Instagram, and Twitter, I'm mainly just going to post shorts or reels or TikToks, and that's good for me. Then I can ramble on when I'm live on Twitch and upload that to YouTube and my podcast. That's the long format. And then each day I'll take a minute or less and put a key point or a key update in.
Somebody reminded me that my Amazon Prime videos were helpful back in 2017. That's old school. That's from before most people followed. And I realize, in being considerate of each of you, that some of you like to hang out on Facebook every day, and maybe you're having a nice experience there. Maybe you're out there helping people. You're in Facebook groups. You're lifting people up. You're connecting with your friends. You're helping people not feel lonely. Maybe you're having real conversations. Maybe sometimes you get sucked into drama. But maybe using Facebook is a good experience for you overall. And there's no reason for me not to show up there and be a part of that when it's easy for me to do. And if I don't get any money off it, so what?
Lowering my expectations, on purpose
Yesterday I got rejected for my podcast advertising. I applied, and they have good ad rates, like $10 or $13 CPM, which means if you have 1,000 people listen to an episode, you get $13. They rejected me because I didn't have enough listeners on my podcast. And I'm like, well, I don't care. I'd like to get some money off my podcast, but I don't put my podcast up for the primary purpose of making money. I put it up so that it'll help somebody.
The gaming recently has been a very good reality check. The other times I tried to do this, I got too frustrated with the lack of immediate results. I got really into selling all my stuff, like, "I've got to sell coaching calls and make money that way and get these big numbers." Now, after doing gaming for so long and seeing the ups and downs, I look at it differently. In my experience, working with people one on one is still the core of what I do, and today the best way to work with me on it is to join the Jerry Banfield Family. I'm going to keep being on Twitch, and I know I'm not going to be able to keep up with everything else I'm doing there.
I'm all in on being a life coach professionally. In terms of crypto, I'm going to keep watching until something strikes me. Until I see something, I'm going to just keep hanging out until I see an investment that looks right, and maybe I won't go all in. Maybe I'll do a portfolio. Maybe I'll put 20 into NEAR, 20 into four others. So I'm looking to build a crypto portfolio from scratch again, which is funny.
Stripping away the background
So yes, I'm no longer doing any gaming publicly. I've been looking to figure out what I need to deliver, what I have to give that you really want, and to just give that. The life coaching is the main thing I have to give. And I've noticed that's the main thing people want. The reason there were so many donations and stars and views on my gaming videos is because of the life coaching that was in those videos. Sure, some of them went viral just because I played an old game, but what really got it to go viral was the conversations I had while I was playing the game and all the big stuff that got given on Facebook gaming. It was really the life coaching, and people seeking attention for themselves, that got all that in. So the life coaching is the core of what I have to offer. The gaming, as I always said, was just a background. So it's time to strip the background. And if I want to play video games, I'm going to do it off stream.
I've thought about Warzone 2 a little bit, but the idea of installing Warzone and playing it off stream is kind of like, I'm sure I've got something better to do than that. I have a garden I want to get to work on outside. I want to help my mother get her house organized. I want to spend more time with my kids. I want to go to lunch at my daughter's school. And what I love about my new schedule is that it doesn't take that long to make a short, a reel, or a TikTok. I can do that in like 10 or 20 minutes, and to do a one-hour-or-less live stream and upload it to YouTube and my podcast, the Jerry Banfield Show. I basically have about an hour and a half or two hours a day of work as a life coach in terms of just creating content. And I won't have to ask my wife for money anymore, which is really nice.
So I'm back with lower expectations. I just put stuff up, and if nothing sells for three months, it doesn't matter, because I know 99.9% of you who watch and listen don't need to buy anything from me at all. You should just go work with somebody for free that you know in person, or go volunteer somewhere. You don't need to pay to talk to me.
The meaning of life, as I see it
Somebody asked what the meaning of life is for me. The meaning of life is to enjoy the experience, to create the experience, so it's kind of in the joy of creating. That's on an esoteric, emotional, personal level. On a human level, to me, the meaning of life is to connect with and help others, and to experience the joy of everything else, the joy of being myself, and to get out there and help other people. I did really well experiencing the joy of being myself a lot in my life, but I was lacking on the getting out there and helping other people.
Some people are the opposite. They do real good helping other people, but they don't experience the joy of their own being, their own body, their own life, their own passions. They help other people and sacrifice for other people all day, and then feel sorry for themselves and don't get to really enjoy just being in their own body. So to me, the meaning of life is to enjoy the experience and get out there and help somebody else. And even enjoy the ups and downs of the experience.
The last week I've had significant emotional ups and downs. I got so up and inspired about the life coaching, and then I've been kind of down and depressed the last couple of days, like, wow, this practically is a pain in the butt, isn't it? I need to sell a thousand God's Unchained cards. I need to edit and make a whole new website. To each of you who really love the life coaching, thank you for being here for it.
Being considerate of your time
I'm intending to be more considerate of your time, because it's unreasonable to do a four hour livestream and to think that 99.9% of you have got that kind of time. But I do a little short on Facebook and all these other places each day, maybe a 15, 20, or 30 second video. You have time for that, and that could be helpful. And then maybe occasionally you come by and hang out while I'm live for an hour or less on Twitch. That's more considerate. You have your time.
One thing that struck me with Mr. Beast's videos is he talked about being considerate of people's time. If he's going to ask people to watch a video, every second of the video should earn it. Do people need this? Should this be taken out? What should we do here? Be very considerate of the time. Now, if you're on an hour long livestream, this is more of a long format, a real conversation.
What I'm very interested in, going back into these platforms, is the lack of a desire to blow up, to hit huge views and all that. I've been getting almost no views on Facebook and TikTok and Instagram lately, and YouTube is a little bit below and a little bit above no views. And I don't need to get any more views than I'm given. So if I put a video up on TikTok and it gets 10 views, then I'll take it. That's 10 more than zero. If I put it up on Facebook and it gets 10,000, I guess that's how many people needed to watch it.
Life coaching is my passion, not gaming
So I'm done with all gaming. I'm done doing anything except life coaching online. If I want a job, if I want a career, if I want a profession, being a gaming streamer is not the career and profession I want. And sometimes you just have to do it to figure that out. It's not the thing I want to do for the long term. Life coaching is my passion, and I've been doing that no matter what else I've been doing. I've been doing life coaching no matter where I've been and whatever I've been doing. The life coaching has been in there. It's been the one constant of my creativity.
I'm grateful that I've got a format now that's real nice. I just go live on Twitch. That's just for the people who love lives and want to interact and chat. And then I'll put a recording up everywhere else. I like that I've got a format that's considerate of your time, so you can essentially get the best of what Jerry Banfield has to offer in the shortest period of time, instead of having to hang around and hope something decent comes out during a gaming stream.
I do love Gods Unchained as a game. I can't see playing Gods Unchained on budget decks, though. And right now I'm going to take a break from gaming altogether. If there's any game I do want to play, I'm going to play it off stream. It's interesting to think that if I'm going to play a game on stream, I kind of have to go for views and money, at least one of the two, because it seems totally stupid to play a game on stream without even considering views and money. And then I don't have a job or a career either. All right, what are we doing with our life here?
Somebody in chat said sometimes they may take things too seriously, like maybe you don't need to do anything right now. And I'm like, oh no, I need to do something. In my experience, I need to be out there helping people as much as possible in whatever I consider work. And that's how I look at my job.
My job now, and how to reach me
My job now is to do a live on Twitch to put on YouTube and my podcast, an hour or less a day, and put a short up every day on all these platforms. That's my job. And then I'm available for you. If you want to chat while I'm offline, the best place to reach me is inside my community. And if one out of a thousand people needs more of a full, highest-level experience, today the best way to work with me on that is to join the Jerry Banfield Family. Then I can do whatever else outside of that. If I want to play some video games, if I want to screw around and play a couple hours of Warzone, I can just do that on my own time.
It's interesting to see how video games look when they compete with everything else I want to do, versus when I was streaming, which is kind of a protected, no-competition environment. Now my time playing video games has to compete with my time with my kids and doing the dishes. That's a serious level of competition, because I hate having a sink full of dishes. I finally got to the bottom of the dishes this morning, and it bothers me in the background all day when my dishes are piled up. The first thing you hear when anybody's really let their life go is, what was their house like? Well, I went into their apartment and there were dishes all over. That's the first thing that goes. You let the dishes pile up, and pretty soon your whole life is totally screwed. And where did it start? The dishes. What were you doing instead of washing the dishes?
Letting the comments go
I've had a lot of experience livestreaming with letting all kinds of different chat in, and I appreciate having some mods on Twitch, and I get in there and mod myself too. I know it's important not to allow all that on the Twitch chat. You being here chatting is a privilege, and if we don't like the way you're contributing, if you're not in the same vibe, if you're not contributing to a good experience for us, we're going to help you go somewhere else where you can have a better time and where your contributions may be appreciated.
Now on the rest of these platforms, it's too much for me to moderate or to have moderators for. When I post a video trying to clean people up, it actually helps get more views. When I post a video on Facebook and somebody comes in like "Jerry sucks," and somebody else says "no he doesn't, he's the best," and somebody else says "here's 10 reasons Jerry sucks," and somebody else says "here's 10 reasons you suck," and "here's 10 reasons Jerry's awesome" — I don't need to be in the middle of all those conversations. Y'all can talk about all that all you want.
I was too involved before. When I was on Facebook and TikTok, I was in there reading the comments, getting butthurt at the comments, and trying to get my videos more views. Especially on Facebook, if I'd go in and reply to a bunch of the comments, the videos would crank out more and more views. And I'm just going to let that go. Because if you really have something to say, like those of you on Twitch now, you'll come tell it to my face while I'm live, or you can come hang out with me when I'm not live.
Why I wash the dishes
Somebody said dishes are the worst to clean. I love having dishes to clean, because I'm cleaning my wife's dishes, I'm cleaning my daughter's dishes, my son's dishes, my mother's dishes. I love having dishes to clean because most of them aren't mine. It allows me to help out around the house and be useful. And I'm damn sure not paying somebody else to wash my dishes, the dishes that I ought to wash. I'm going to wash them. I'm a big believer that if you can do it for yourself, and if the most joy is available from you doing it yourself, you should do it yourself.
Now I know some people might make that argument for sex, but I have more joy doing that with my wife. I don't do that myself, because it's much more fun with somebody else. Whereas the dishes, I'd rather just be the one who washes them. I like how I wash the dishes, and I try to discourage Laura from washing the dishes. I'm like, no, let me do that, you go do something else, I'll get these dishes.
How I identify
Somebody asked if I'm still black. I prefer to identify as God, or you know, immortal spirit energy, the creator of the universe. However, on a practical human level that might be a bit too much, and I prefer that we transcend divisionary concepts like race, things that have been used to divide people and cause fights. That said, if it is your preference to put people in racial categories, I would like to be put in the Black and African American category, because that's how I feel inside — the same as some biological males feel like a woman inside and choose to identify as a woman, and some biological females feel like a man inside and choose to identify as a man. I may look biologically white, but I don't feel white. So the short answer is yes, and that was the long answer.
I've come to believe that I am God, and so are all of you. To me that's the core teaching of Christ: I am the truth, I am the way, and so are you. Even the least among you — I said that, even the least among you — all of you are gods. Even the least among you can do all that I've done, and greater things. So to me, once you take away this body and this mind, which one day will be so gone it'll be as if it never existed, I will remain. The Christ was created since then among all the men and women. All of you are that, and you should become more of it.
The cryptos I believe in
Someone asked if I'd be interested in investing. I want a crypto that's well rounded, and ideally a layer one infrastructure, because things like the layer twos add additional complexity. Immutable X is awesome, but it's also not its own thing. It's totally dependent. Theoretically they could put it onto another chain or something. I would love some cryptos that have good tokenomics too, that are diversified and not highly centralized. So to me, two of the best cryptos are Bitcoin and Ethereum. And what's interesting with Ethereum going to proof of stake is that it contrasts more nicely with Bitcoin.
What Bitcoin does well, and what I want in a portfolio
There are some things Bitcoin does really well. Ethereum proof of stake now kind of sucks in terms of censorship resistance. Ethereum proof of stake is actually great for censorship, because you just control the nodes, and if you control enough of the nodes you can tell the other nodes what to do. Bitcoin isn't like that. So something with that kind of resistance built in has the potential to be the next Ethereum or the next Bitcoin.
That's the thinking for one end of the spectrum, the less risky, more established investment. So maybe I want a combination. On one end, something less risky and more established. On the other end, something in the riskier department that is just undervalued, that has a really good value proposition but for some reason is underappreciated. I'd love some hidden gems like that. So really it's two different things.
If I want a safer, more established portfolio, I might as well just grab some Bitcoin, hold on to the Ethereum I've already got, grab some Binance, and call it a day. On the other end, I'd like a fully diversified portfolio. I don't think I want to go all in again. I'd like a nice mix. Bitcoin, Ethereum, and Binance are all pretty safe, but they're not very exciting, because they're probably not going to do more than a 10X in the next few years. Maybe they could, but they're pretty safe and already pretty big in market cap. Then in the middle of the road I'd want some of the potentially next Ethereums, like Near or Optimism. And then some super risky plays that are just really undervalued and really underappreciated.
I think I'd like to be well rounded next time. I've gone all in a bunch of times, and the rest of my life is well rounded, so I think I want a well rounded portfolio going forward. Maybe a third in things like Bitcoin, Ethereum, and Binance, a third in mid level things, and a third in things that are just undervalued potential 100Xs that could really carry the rest of the portfolio. And if they completely get lost, it's not a big deal.
Newer coins versus something proven over years
Is it better to pick a newer coin that hasn't pumped, or something established over years? That's a great question. I love the newer coins that haven't pumped, because you have no idea how high they can go. But I like something established over years too. To me, something that's been able to handle years is more of a proven commodity. So a small market cap coin that's sustained itself for years and has a lot of promise, I'd probably pick that over the newer one.
The newer ones can definitely make some good multipliers. But a project that's a year old is not often truly worth that much compared to something older, because it hasn't really proven itself across all these different market conditions. Anything that can handle going through the bear market we're in now is pretty good. But something that's handled a bunch of big ups and downs before and is still continuing to grow, that to me has promise.
It's like relationships. Anyone can be in a relationship for a month, or a few months, maybe even a year. Almost anybody can make even the crappiest relationship work for a short period of time. But it takes a lot more, and there are far fewer relationships that make it to five years, to ten years, to twenty years, to fifty years. My wife and I have our tenth anniversary coming up, and out of all the relationships people have, very few make it to ten years. So to me, a crypto that's been around longer and is undervalued for one reason or another is more the kind of opportunity I'm looking for. I know a lot of these cryptos are not going to make it in the long term. Something that's survived harsh conditions, up and down, for years probably has a much better chance of making it.
Although they could also be just about to quit, and that's where you need somebody who can really do the due diligence and tell the difference. What's something that sucks, that has sucked all the way for three years and is about to pull the rug? Versus which one has been having a hard time for three years but is just about to catch a break? Maybe I'll build a portfolio of ten different cryptos. I need a better strategy. I've been using all different strategies, and I think the diversified portfolio is the way for me to go, because I'd rather have a combination. The diversity gives a combination of gain and risk, which is good to me.
Appreciating the cycles of life
A ten year solo run is fine too. I spent most of my life until I met my wife single, and what's nice is appreciating the different cycles of life. There's a time to be single and by yourself. Some of you ladies who were pretty and got right out there and found a man right away might end up having your solo period in your 50s or 60s, because somebody jumped on you first thing and you never got to have it. I had a long single stretch. I wanted to be with a girl for as long as I can remember. I had a girlfriend in first grade, and then I was single for ten or eleven years from there. I really missed my girlfriend from first grade. I just found my first grade yearbook, I couldn't remember her last name, and I found her in there. Christina was her first name. I'm not going to look her up on Facebook though. I think the time has passed.
What was actually challenging for me was the way I dressed. I had a lot of lack of success with women until I asked a girl one day, "Why am I struggling?" She said, "Your clothes are so ugly. You wear football jerseys and cargo shorts. You've got to dress up nice, and then girls will want to go out with you." That worked really well. I had a girlfriend within a few months of putting on some nice clothes, and it was dumb how well it worked. And then once I got the police uniform on, they were either harassing me or I was harassing them, but there was constantly one around.
The Happier People podcast and where I'm headed
One of my favorite series besides crypto was the Happier People podcast, and that's exactly what I'm intending to do right here. The Happier People podcast is, I think, one of the best things I've ever offered. That's what I'm intending to do instead of rebranding Jerry Banfield into anything else. My intention is basically to do that each day, to put out something like the Happier People podcast, to have some real conversations here, talk through things, and put out some shorts with the key learning opportunities.
Yes, I was a correction officer and a police officer. If you want to hear my police officer experiences, I have a book on Audible. It's an audiobook, and that's the best way to listen to it because I narrate it. Eight hours of me talking about my time as a police officer, with very graphic stories. Not necessarily graphic in terms of yucky things, but my language and my dark thoughts. I give it to you straight in the Officer Banfield book. And maybe I will write another book at some point.
Leaders are readers
I read a lot of books. To me, leaders are readers. How many of you read books on a regular basis? It doesn't have to be books per se, it could be long format YouTube videos or podcasts. I find reading is something that really helps me expand my life.
In fact, part of my inspiration for going back into life coaching was listening to a book called Dark Fleet. You can tell this guy is in the middle of his passion. He talks about how the Nazis in World War II were working with these reptilian extraterrestrials, and that they actually made a colony in Antarctica, and that colony defeated the US Navy in 1946. They made a base on the moon. They've got bases all over the world, and bases all over the solar system now. They infiltrated the US government, and through secret projects the US government has been cranking out stuff that's been helping the Nazis, the Fourth Reich, build up their space fleet. I read another book about that too called Secret Space Programs.
I was talking to my family members about this book yesterday, and I hadn't seen them in quite a while. They asked, "Well, that's a very interesting novel." I said, "No, it's not a novel. This is nonfiction. This is what's really going on. This is a more accurate picture of history than you've been given." They were quiet for a while after that, and then asked some great questions.
But the point is, I was listening to this book, and the author is clearly in the middle of his passion. He is so hyped up and fired up about this stuff. You can tell from the ridiculous amount of hours he's put into looking all these things up and reading everything other people have written, and the ton of energy and time he put into writing the book and getting it out there. And I'm listening to it thinking, what the heck am I doing with this gaming crap? I've got stuff I really am passionate about that I need to talk about. It felt pretty silly to have been live for five hours and at no point talked about what I really needed to talk about that day. The book I'm talking about is called Dark Fleet. It's really good.
Someone asked what I think about the moon landing. The moon landing was either censored or filmed in a TV studio. So in either scenario, the moon landing was not genuine.
What I believe about the moon landing and JFK
So it was either censored, or it really happened and it was censored because there were extraterrestrials and UFOs monitoring the moon landing. Like, hmm, what's this little spaceship from the USA doing landing on the moon? From what I've read, the moon landing was real, and the astronauts were being constantly and heavily monitored by extraterrestrials who are already on the moon and who actually told our astronauts, "You're not allowed here. We don't want you here. Stop coming here." And now all the missions to the moon have been kept secret since then.
John F. Kennedy, from what I've read, was part of the disclosure movement. John F. Kennedy said that he wanted to put a man on the moon because he already knew we already had people on the moon, and he wanted a public space program so that the secrecy would end. John Kennedy wanted to put all the secrets out. And he would not stop and be quiet and be reasonable. That's why, in my understanding, he was assassinated: because he was going to tell the truth about the Nazi infiltration of the United States.
In fact, the director of the CIA at the time and the secretary of state at the time, both according to the book Dark Fleet, worked with Hitler to get him funded and to get him elected as chancellor in Germany. Now, these are the secretary of state and the director of the CIA. And they're the ones who got John Kennedy out of the way and got Lyndon Johnson installed, because Lyndon Johnson would do what he was told to do. John F. Kennedy thought he was actually president. He thought he was actually in charge. And it turns out the president, from all the stuff I've read, has not been in charge since Eisenhower. Eisenhower lost control of the military industrial complex, and the president has not actually been the commander in chief since then. In other words, the president is following orders. The president is taking orders from the secret government and the military industrial complex, acting like he's commander in chief when he really has no power.
And yes, Lee Harvey Oswald was a patsy, like he said himself. The reason he had to be gotten rid of immediately is because he wasn't the one who actually did it.
Feeling like I lost my purpose, and taking gaming offline
I've been pretty down and sad over the last few days. I was loving playing Gods Unchained. I was having fun doing the gaming. But I was also feeling a lack of doing what matters the most, feeling like I'm just kind of wasting my time. That's not a feeling I'm used to. For better or worse, I have a very purpose-driven life. Every part of my life feels purposeful, like picking my daughter up from school, hanging out with my mother, going to an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting. Maybe it would help me to have a little bit of my life that's designated as fun.
I'm excited that if I want to play, I'm not quitting playing video games. Unlike the other times I quit gaming, when I quit entirely, I'm not giving up playing video games this time. I'm just taking it offline. I'm excited for the idea that if I want to play video games, I can play them, and I can play them just for fun, because that's how I played video games most of my life. I just played because I wanted to, for fun. I don't even know exactly what I'd want to play if I just played something offline.
A dedicated one hour is perfect, and I like limiting it to one hour, because you've got other stuff to do, and one hour is enough. If I've talked for an hour, for God's sakes, I need to be quiet after that.
Letting the topics come to me instead of scheduling them
I don't know what topic I'm going to talk about tomorrow. One thing I've noticed in the past is that I've tried too hard to schedule topics in advance, to pick all these topics and to optimize for how many views I'm going to get, and basically to not leave space for intuitive creativity. What I'm intending to do now is not schedule any videos ahead of time, and not film more than my one video per day. What I would get into with the shorts was filming sometimes five, ten, twenty of those at once, and then I wouldn't even like some of them. I wouldn't post them. I want to let my intuition and life guide me each day and just create what I've got each day.
Can you picture me barely having anything to talk about? I want the topics to come up dynamically. I didn't know what I was going to talk about today until I just about went live, and I realized I needed to talk about coming back to Facebook, TikTok, and Instagram. Because it felt kind of yucky yesterday. I felt kind of gross thinking about coming back to Facebook, TikTok, Instagram, and Hive. I sat on Facebook, done posting. I sat on Hive, done posting. I sat on YouTube, done posting. I sat on Twitter, done posting. I didn't even care about Instagram or TikTok enough to tell everybody I was done there. I felt kind of yucky, like, ew, I'm going back into these bad neighborhoods.
But I realized that's my own bias. Facebook's not a bad neighborhood. It is what you make of it. You can make it a bad neighborhood depending on what you engage with, or you can make it a place where you're doing good and having a laugh and helping people. It's not good or bad. It's neutral. What matters is when we lift each other up.
Why I love the community and the pace I'm at now
I love the family we've got here, and I love that I can put videos up on all these other platforms and then the people who really are hardcore will wander over and stay close. That way I can listen and understand you better, and I can base the videos I put up on the conversations we have. The people who are really hardcore will go to my website and see that I'm live daily right at the top, and we have such a nice little community. I love this as a place to follow me because there's no algorithm to deal with. Once you follow and set the notifications up, they're very consistent, whereas on Facebook, if you follow me, you may not even see anything I post. Same on YouTube.
I've also been thinking about the calls. In the past, if you've been following a while, you remember at various points I would hard pitch scheduling a call with me. I'm not going to do that anymore. I'm just going to show up and try to help somebody every day. I don't need to set a sales goal or try to pitch anything. These days the best way to work with me on any of this is to join the Jerry Banfield Family community, where I show up and help people every day, and I intend to practice patience with all of it.
The gaming really taught me patience. Clearly, you just have to grind it endlessly, and I'm prepared to be very patient. Right now I don't need anything to sell, which is really nice. I just put $3,800 in the bank from Gods Unchained, and I've got thousands more coming. I've got a lot of things I want to do in my life, like helping my mom get settled into her house better, so now's a good time to slow down and not force anything.
We're over an hour, so it's time to wrap it up. I really appreciate your love and support. I love seeing so many of you that I haven't seen in a while, and so many of you that have come back over and over again. Thank you for helping me turn this around mentally. I was feeling bad, like I was whoring myself out or something, getting back on Facebook, and I realized, maybe it's not like that. If you want to go deeper on any of this, I put a lot of it into my YouTube Coaching playlist. So I'll see each of you tomorrow. I love you. You're awesome. It's been great, and I'll be back on tomorrow.