On November 1, 2024, my wife was getting ready to go to New York in the morning, so I got up at 5 a.m. to say goodbye to her real quick. Then I got the kids off to school all by myself. My wife's sister picks the kids up and takes them to school. I took some trash out, and then I went to play tennis at 8:30.
Trading doubles for singles
They didn't seem to need me at tennis, and I talked with another guy that I used to see at the men's clinics. He was saying that he doesn't like playing doubles because he got into tennis because he wanted to exercise and run around, and doubles is so much standing around. I'm really feeling him. I'm like, yeah, I've been playing a whole bunch of doubles, and I've been thinking the same thing, so I'm not going to play doubles anymore. I'm going to focus on playing singles.
Back at yoga
Then I decided to go to yoga, because I wasn't going to play tennis. I went to yoga, and I was very happy to be able to be back at the Friday 9 a.m. class at Body Electric. I've got a few friends there.
You chose this movie
Then I went to my Alcoholics Anonymous meeting afterward, where I shared my consistent message: that I am God. I am the creator. All of this reality is my creation. And some people just hate to hear this message, because if you look at this life kind of like a movie or a dream, claiming that you are the creator — which to me was the message of most major religions, that you all are gods — that wakes you up from the dream to some degree, because then you see all the circumstances of your life are your creation.
Some people who are wanting to stay asleep can't stand for me to constantly remind them: hey, you're watching a movie. Hey, you're dreaming. This is your dream. This is your movie. You chose to watch this. You could go do something else. But some people absolutely get euphoric hearing this message.
A guy shared that he didn't understand how God could allow all these bad things to happen, and I shared this: why do people play things like first-person shooters, where you put yourself into a situation to die over and over and over again? You know how it's going to end, and you're just seeing how many people you can take with you. Well, some people seem to play life like a first-person shooter as well. And when you know that you're God and you're creating everything, and your body and your mind are just your own creations, then everything in life automatically makes sense. But it also takes the edge off. It makes life so easy, to some degree, that the risk is it can get boring, and you create drama and chaos just for something interesting — and to get a feeling that you're the victim again, that things aren't really in your control.
The one guy shared that he had this illness, and from my point of view, illness is self-created to achieve some objective, whether it be to learn, to stir things up, to get sympathy, to get out of doing something, or even to exit this reality in a way that's more acceptable. It's the same place I come from when I choose faith over fear.
Crypto videos in the zone
After going to my AA meeting, I filmed some crypto videos. I'm grateful — after getting all pissed off at my crypto videos a few months ago, I feel really in the zone on those now.
An hour and a half with my brother
When the kids came home, we spent some time together. Then I took my son to his soccer game, and I talked to my brother on the phone for an hour and a half, which is one of the longest conversations we've had. After not talking to him for a few months earlier this year, I'm grateful our relationship is in such a wonderful place where we can have such meaningful conversations. I really am interested in how his life is going and what is happening next, without trying to tell him how he should live it.
Charity begins at home
I then came back with Jack while my daughter hung out with my mother. They played together for like an hour, which I love. Then Jack and I came over and spent another hour. My mom actually paid both of them like $10 each, plus gave them a $10 advance for helping out with things around the house, so they each got $20 while we were there, which is awesome.
I do the same thing at my house with them. I find charity begins at home: if I want to be generous with my money, give the kids money. But then they also have to save up money in order to do the things they want to do besides food, water, and shelter. They need to pay for other stuff — like they're saving up to go to Legoland right now. I love seeing what they care about and what they're willing to save their money for and work for, and I hope this will get them ahead.
Deadmau5 and a spark to make music
I was flexible with bedtime and let the kids stay up a little later. Then I responded to a bunch of my open chat messages. And the last thing I did before bed: I hadn't watched a YouTube video for a while, but YouTube seemed to know right what I wanted to watch, as if it's reading my mind. I was watching Deadmau5 from seven years ago working on his "Imaginary Friends" song, and I felt inspired to make some more music again tomorrow. If you enjoy these day-in-my-life reflections, you can watch my newest ones in my Life playlist.