My friends, I'm about to play tennis for a large audience, but it's an imaginary audience in my head. I think you'll really enjoy hearing this idea, because I've never heard it before. I've never heard anybody say this. When I play tennis, I'm just an amateur tennis player. I play a little bit, a few days a week. A lot of times we get caught completely in our ego trying to make each shot. So instead, I picture that I'm playing professionally. I picture there's a whole big crowd, and there are announcers talking about the game while I'm playing. I picture a bunch of fans who are there for Jerry Banfield, and a bunch of fans who are there for the guy I'm playing against. The same way you might watch a tennis match online, that's how I look at it. I'm playing for a big audience, and I feel the energy of the crowd throughout.
That's been one of the coolest things I've started doing, because it's fun. I feel like I'm performing for a large audience. And really, these videos are kind of the same way. Lots of my videos get thousands of views a day. My videos show tens of thousands of times across YouTube every day, and some on X as well. The fact is, I'm just out here in the park filming a video by myself right now. There's no audience in this moment. But then there ends up being an audience later.
An Audience You Cannot See
What's really cool is there could actually be an audience that's simply unseen. If you think about all the spirits or souls that haven't incarnated yet, all the ones that have passed that haven't reincarnated, all the different forms of life and energy, there may be far more watching than we realize.
My dad came to me in a dream one night, and this was before I started playing tennis. In the dream I was playing tennis, I think professionally, and there was an actual audience there. But I remember looking at the audience and I didn't see my dad in it. Then he came up to me after the game, and I said, "Dad, I didn't see you in the audience." He said, "Well, I was there. I come to all your games." I said, "Well, where? I didn't see you." And he said, "You just need to look harder." That really stuck with me, because my dad had passed about five or six years before the dream. You just need to look harder. You may have an audience you don't even know about.
I very much feel like you're never really alone in this life. I've come to believe that you're always being watched, and that from a certain point of view we're all performing on stage, essentially. There are a ton of spirits and other forms of life that are watching, that are paying attention. So the way I look at it, we're always performing.
I remember when I used to be in my room by myself, doing things by myself that I felt bad about. I remember having this sensation that I was being watched, which left me feeling very uncomfortable, because I thought I was having a private experience that nobody knew about. I reflected on it: I wouldn't be doing this if everybody knew about it. But what if every part of your life somebody does know about? What if no part of your life is actually private? What if you had a thousand people or spirits, however you want to put it, as a massive audience for every single thing you did all the time? It very much seems to me like in this reality we are essentially performing on a stage. We are playing for an audience here, and because of that we're often oblivious to it. We're totally focused on the game and the stage.
What My Friend Told Me About Being Dead
My friend who passed a year and a half ago came to me in a bunch of dreams. In one of them, I asked him, "What's it like being dead?" He said, "It's a big reality." He gave me the impression that his reality is much bigger than mine. What he can see and what he can experience is much more easily accessible for him. The best way to put it is that it's much easier for him to have access to the bigger picture, to see so many other things.
Those of us who are here are kind of focused on the stage. If you picture it like actors and actresses in a movie, we're focused on the movie, we're focused on performing in it, playing our roles, earning our paychecks for it. We're here, focused on the movie. But most of the people who watch the movie are just seeing the movie. Imagine all the actors and actresses in it, with all the little dramas they're going through that they think are so big, that they're so into. From the audience's point of view, the actors and actresses might think nobody's watching. They might think they're all alone. They might think things are hopeless. But all of us watching have a much different point of view.
In fact, lots of times I wish the movie would change. I put on Harry Potter and I think, maybe Voldemort would win this time. That'd make it more interesting, wouldn't it? I have a hard time watching a movie I've already seen now, because I'm tired of it turning out the same way every time. I'm tired of having the same outcome. Every time, Scarface just gets blasted at the end. One time I want him to turn around and blast that guy in the window, just once, and then go get Sosa too. I'm tired of the same thing happening every time. So this reality is a much more interesting version. It's far more interesting than that, and I think we have a huge audience we're not aware of.
Remote Viewing and a Much Bigger Audience
Once you start to become aware of it, things shift. I feel like I have an audience for everything I'm doing all the time, and not just because I do YouTube. YouTube is more of an external representation of that. YouTube very much put the idea in my head. You all aren't going to actually watch me play tennis, but you might imagine it. You might imagine me playing tennis today. In that sense, you're watching to some degree, especially when you look into all the remote viewing material. If you look into remote viewing, you find that if you get yourself into a really relaxed state, you can go observe something else, even in the middle of this body. So imagine if you didn't have this body to distract you with a whole bunch of sense impressions and a whole bunch of thoughts. Imagine what you could look at if you wanted to. Imagine how many people are here now versus how many have ever lived, and all the life forms everywhere in the whole universe. I think we're all playing for a much bigger audience than we think we are.
This really helps me in my day-to-day life, too, to think about how I would like to perform for everybody. It helps me not get stuck thinking that I'm just this little self that's separated. Instead, it's like I'm part of a movie that has a big audience, and I get to ask: what do I want my role to be? I start to step out from being just an actor. I step out of the character in the movie and start remembering, hey, I'm an actor. I'm just playing a part. I can talk to the director about my part. I can make suggestions. I can choose how I play my part. I'm not stuck playing it one way or another. Then I feel empowered. I'm not here just getting a paycheck, the spiritual equivalent of a paycheck. I'm here co-creating, and that really makes it fun. Some of the actors and actresses just don't like their job and go there to collect a paycheck and a lifestyle. Other ones really love it. I'm here to really love my role. If you'd like to follow more of these reflections, you can find them on my Life playlist.
So I'm going to go play tennis now. I'll be playing for all of you. Maybe someday I'll be able to live stream my tennis. I could, but it's too much trouble, and I like to be totally into the moment with what I'm doing. It kind of doesn't make a difference whether I have a YouTube audience watching me play tennis or some theoretical, spiritual audience watching me. It doesn't really matter. That's really powerful for YouTube too. It doesn't matter if you have one viewer. Maybe you have spiritual viewers watching your videos. They don't count as views, but they're still watching them.