This is my life, November 30th, 2024. I've been wondering what to do with this Jerry Banfield Experience channel. I filmed some dumpster fire video about the Canadian tax rate earlier and uploaded it, and right after that I realized I want to keep this diary strictly as something that's essentially for me. It's something I want to be able to go back and watch 10, 20, 30 years from now. I'd like to know what I was doing on November 30th. I wish I had that for every single day of my life.
And because of that, I don't want to go back and listen to some stupid rant. I remember I used to post all these rants about things like Social Security on Facebook, and I don't want to go back and listen to some rant that goes on for 20 minutes that I was making. I want to just hear what I was doing that day.
Why this channel is becoming a pure diary
I realized I really love other people's diary entries. I would just love to read other people's diary entries. I started a diary entry series on my original channel, but that doesn't mix well with music. That's a very different audience. So the Jerry Banfield Experience going forward is just going to be straight up diary entries. No clickbait. Just titles that tell you nothing until you watch and click on them. Who cares if anybody watches it? I want this to be like an autobiography, and going forward you can follow along with these entries in my Life playlist.
One of the things that helps in life is when you get clear about your vision. And over the last 24 hours, I've had some sadness, some feeling like my life's all wrong. So I also asked for help. My brother said I seem like a success in his eyes. Everything's going great with my life except my career and my finances, which is not a big deal because I'm doing well enough in that. And my wife has a full time job that's going great for her and supports us. So everything's good in my life.
The man at the Racquet Club
I played tennis with a guy I hadn't met before today, which was great. I enjoyed having some time to talk to him. I networked with him through the Racquet Club, and he hadn't played or gotten to do anything in three months. He'd been taking care of a family member who had cancer and passed. And I thought, there's no way I could do what he did. I don't know if there's anybody I love in my life enough to take three months of my time to help them die of cancer. We're all made differently, and I don't think I'm designed that way. But I'm amazed with anyone who is.
Reaching out to a family member
I also messaged a family member today saying that I would like to talk with them, because I'm not feeling right on my end. And they said, well, everything's cool on my end, but we can talk. And I said, good. I find that when I'm hurt, or when I'm challenged in a relationship, just sitting down and talking about it with the intention of, hey, let's build from this, let's grow from this, is the way to go.
This can be hard sometimes with people who are family members. I've struggled with this a lot with this one family member because they're around all the time, but I never really talk to them. We never just talk, the two of us. I connect best by talking directly with someone and asking them questions, and without that I often feel uncomfortable being around people in any kind of trusted or intimate capacity. So we'll see how that goes. Learning to ask for help and have these conversations is a big part of why I keep direct access open inside the Jerry Banfield Family.
What I'm grateful for today
I'm going to go to the Alcoholics Anonymous meeting soon after I film this, and I have a call tonight at eight. I'm grateful. I got a call yesterday on jerrybanfield.com from a guy who paid $300 to schedule, and he asked me lots of questions about ICP and gave me an idea that I should do an updated price prediction video. That's the best video out of the recent ones I've made, which is awesome. I also talked with another guy last night and interviewed him for the channel, because he's done a lot in the open chat channel. So I enjoyed doing that, and I'm really grateful. I feel satisfied in my work today. If you want to see how these pieces fit together, I write about a day in my life around ICP, crypto, and AA too.
Making music just for me
But something's got to change with what I'm doing just for me and just for fun. My crypto videos, yes, I'll make the most clickbait title I can, I'll put the time in. That's a job that pays my bills. But then this channel is more like therapy, or just a diary. This is something I just want to do for myself. And then my music. I can't help thinking that I've been trying to make music that people want to listen to instead of music that I want to make. I make crypto videos that people want to watch. But with my music and with this diary, this just needs to be a pure creative endeavor that I want to do, that's fun to do, and nothing else matters. Because I've already got all the views I need on my crypto channel.
So I am stepping up and saying, look, it's time. I ordered a $250 keyboard today, the same one I had before. Now I've got the same setup I had before with my music. I'm so excited to get into making music with all three of these keyboards, because that was so fun. And of course I stopped doing it because it wasn't getting enough views. I've shared more about that pull back toward creating in asking for help and making music with joy.
So that's my life, November 30th, 2024. And I enjoyed telling you about it. I hope it was good for you.